can't buy me l.o.v.e

Some days I wish things had turned out differently

2011-08-21T13:20:00.000-07:00

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the social network: your emotional, life, dumpster?

2011-07-20T04:58:00.000-07:00

so this question pop out of mind all of a sudden!
is social network(s) act as your emotional, life, dumpster?

maksudnya macam semua benda, every single thayng (thing) semuaaaaa... kome up kan sebagai status?tweet? atau ape ke seJADAH nya semua la, myspace, your space, hi5 hi 10?

adakah anda semua sedar? melalui social network ini, semua, mind you SEMUA butir butir hidup anda is exposed to the public?

benda benda basic yang sudah sedia terdedah adalah seperti,

-your name (selalunya kat facebook jarang ade orang yang guna nama macam PeNdEtA gILA or such thayng *thing)
-kerja (unless kau tipu kau space engineer)
umur (unless kau tipu umur) but usually at least tarikh birthday mesti letak kan?walau tahun kelahiran boleh hide dekat facebook,
-your picture, (unless kauletak gambar cartoon or such thayng *thing)

tengok semua pun banyak unless, maknanya nampak sangat perhubungan dalam jaringan sosial ni bukan lah reliable sangat, -*kalau kauw orang semua main approve je friend request walaupun tak kenal,--> lagi BAHAYA.

atau

you said that " hanya akan approve orang yang dikenali sahaja hoccay! yang pakai profile picture cartoon, gambar google'd , usher ke adele ke tak approve!"
ok tang adele tu sentaphatikama sekejap.

but dengan statement ini kita telah bahawasanya sampai ke point saya yang sebenar,
kita maybe akan approve orang yang kita kenal, so nampak macamtak ada masalah kat situ kan?

tahukah anda?ia mengundang gejala lebih serius, iaitu, kalau anda memang ikut cakap facebook tu, 'what's on your mind?'
kauw pun dengan hebatnya menulis semua isi hati kau macam:

SITUASI 1

"my bos sucks! orang tua tak sedar diri nak mampus! "

dan kauw terlupa nak tukar privacy settings.
there you go. HAHA.

SITUASI 2

ok, kauw memang hebat la ni, dah setting privacy setup baik dah ni, then you update:-

_ _ _ Peah tu suckz pinjam baju aku tak pulang, ingat bapak dia bagi duit ke?bla..bla..

TAPI kauw sudah lupa, kauw lupa nak private kan kawan baik si Peah, iaitu Joy-ah, nak there you go.walaupun dia tak comment on that post. dia terus text peah, dan bermula lah perang.HAHA.

dan yang terakhir.

okay, maybe kauw tak update apa yang kau rasa terang terangan,tapi ala ala bayangan jer macam tu,

"aku ni dah la penat housemate pulak boleh buat party buih kat rumah,bla..bla.yada yada.."

boleh faham tak? ok maybe statement ni GENERAL,dan boleh buat defend diri sendiri ala ala aku tak tuju kat hang, hang perasan awat?
tapi.. maybe tak kene kat siapa siapa, but the again orang mesti dah boleh agak sapa yang kau tuju, dan spekulasi mula menular, ataupun mulalah naik perang status,masam muka,kan tak elok tu?

walaupun facebook tu menggalakkan meletakkan apa sahaja difikiran anda,tapi please..tapis lah sedikit, for your own good, jugak, i'm talking from true experience hoccay?sama shaja, facebook, twitter, semua social network adalah tempat untuk berhubung, dapat kenalan baru, dapat information laju dari television, tapi it's not your life dumpster. semua longgok disitu, faham tak? reserved sedikit untuk diri sendiri,

kalau tak tahan sangat, buatlah seperate akaun dan jangan add, follow, sesiapapun, haa kau mengamuk lah kat situ, tak ada siapa tahu, get it?
tapi membebel panjang panjang pun tak guna, anda semua ni memang nak kene reverse psycho, so tak apa tak apa, buat dulu, esok esok dah kena then boleh la ku katakan padamu, HAA KAN DAH WARNING!

so itulah sahaja, thanks for entertaining my silly thought,
until something is written here, au revoire!

*maaf bahasa rojak.:)

skafeyla- Every women deserved a beauty and charming appearance...

2011-07-03T00:29:00.000-07:00

semua orang tau butik yang menjual tudung dah bersepah sepah sekarang,yang itu yang ini, but for me personally, ciri pembeza adalah kualiti, keunikkan, dan yang paling penting harga!

ok terus terang,dari pengalaman sendiri membeli tudung online ni, seriously, harga diorang macam tak logic, i sendiri contohnya teramat lah bengang dengan harga tudung yang di mark up mark up dalam pasaran online ni, kadang kadang tudung tu simple sahaja, tapi harga mak enonn.. tak macam sampai cecah RM 50 kot?
puh-leese.

sebab me myself as a student selalu nak tudung yang cantik, tapi murah, bak kata orang alah membeli menang memakai, and! dah jumpa pun blog yang menjual tudung yang cantik dan harga yang berpatutan,

http://www.skafeylarich.blogspot.com/

antara tudung tudung yang best adalah seperti,

tu baru antaranya, sebab dia baru launch so harga dia bagi memang kaw kaw wa cakap lu! kalau dah lama setahun dua tahunm tiga tahun pun harga akan still murah, sebab tidak di MARK UP, okay, tak ambil untung lebey la kak edahnyer, so kepada yang mencari tudung yang on budget tapi pergh oh so cantik, boleh la have a look, or follow blog ni ker, so selamat bershop-pink uols! bisousz!:)

2011-07-01T21:04:00.001-07:00

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facebook addict; from p.j with love*updated

2011-06-09T20:04:00.000-07:00

reporting from kdu library sec 13.
10:36 am
friday.

so today is my last day here, i knew its weird but deep inside, somehow i feel sad pulak to leave this place. i remembered i really hate to come here 1st place, (because words are: the boss are dead fierce!) but nevertheless, on my 1st day here, i felt something different, like i belong to this place, though the place is not as quite as huge from the main campus, but i really feel comfortable. plus! iam eager to go to work every single morning! isn't that weird?

selalunya tak sabaq tunggu friday. tapi hari ni rasa macam tak nak friday ends.boleh?haha

the person i'll miss the most will be:

kak lin:
she's the nicest person here,from day one lagi, she's our super senior guys(ex puncak perdanarians)
rasa macam nak duduk sini sampai habis praktikal, sebab dia best sangat, ish tak taw nak habaq, nak duduk sini sampai habis practical boleh?

uncle vincent:
the nicest guy ever!macam ayah ayah camtu, dia yang ajar shelving one whole week kat sini,dari tak pandai sampai pandai, selalu buat innocent jokes,haha

and the library itselves, the user, the pinky shelves with matching furniture,haha teringat peristiwa kerusi hilang!*lain time cerita,
dan peristiwa kak lin di mengorat,bukankah cute?haha

bos rindu tak?tak sangatlah,tapi akan rindu masa buat buat rajin depan dia, dan masa bergossip bila dia naik office dia kat atas,dan maybe akan rindu jugak time bila bos nak turun uncle vincent atau kak lin akan jerit "sha tutup facebook cepatttttttttttt!"------->facebook addict sungguh!
terbaik kan semorang?

thats all i have in mind.
will badly miss sec 13.
kak lin and uncle vincent.

bye pj. ada rezeki jumpa lagi, next monday see you at DJ Campus! zzzzz.au revoir!

buku log 21 hari.*updated

2011-05-31T20:43:00.000-07:00

hey everyone! good day, so how are you guys doing ?
(walaupun ade cume 5 orang yang baca blog ni, you guys tetap di hati,aicehh)

macam ugly betty cakap, eventhough the writing only inspires one people.who cares ye dak?

ok crap je kau, so hows life? hows my life?byk org tanya, tak larat nak jawab! adoi
(5 orang pun banyak okey?haha)

so, my life is okay, sekarang adalah frasa merasa office life, TAK bergaji, tapi the experience is well worthy. tadi terbaca entry aiadachi bout her practical, tiba tiba terangsang nak tulis kehidupan i kat sini,

so basically, kat sini semua orang baik, our boss, Ms. Emily, pun baik, working with her its like working with mak sendiri , sebab she is so nice and always ask if we're okay, staff layan okay ke tak, tapi bab duit die tak tanya pulak?tet!haha

so first landing kat sini, what i noticed is, KDU people ni tersangat lah friendly! but its true, bukan lah macam nak perli ke tangan kedada mata ke atas ke apa, but dari guard nepal, sampai lah residence depan padang yang we park our vehicle sampai lah ke mak cik cafe sampai lah ke mak cik cleaner, students and lecturers kat sini, semua orang kalau jumpa will at least smile, itu belum masuk yang peramah tamah tanya asal dari mana berapa bulan kau practical kat sini semua, haa

so the story cut short:
there's a few important fellas:
@ kak fiah(acquisition)- baik dan cantik, gila gila walaupun dia adalah rakan se batch engan encik burn.(IS student kenal kan?tak kenal backhand kang)so korang boleh agak umur dia berapa kan?
@kak kinah(circulation)- yang ni mula mula nampak garang dan sedikit sombong, tapi lama lama dia yang paling best kat sini,ok both la kak rafiah ngan dia dua dua geng bas sekolah.kira otai library kdu ni jugak lah.
@meetunclehussein(circulation)- kalau ms. emily macam mak mak, die pulak macam bapak bapak, haha die ada kelebihan, buat lawak sambil memakai wajah yang serious, kadang kadang leh confuse dia buat lawak ke ni?
@ohjudy- die pun kat circulation jugak, describe die?dengar lagu clumsy fergie.haha
@miss ng - cataloguing! yeppa haa sekarang ceq kat bawah dia la,dia ok. cataloguing tak.boleh camtu?

and and and, ada la dalam happy gummy bear family ni, sorang yang macam skematic dan bajet sikit but ah ignore her! wahh and akak programmer tu ceq tak kenal sangat sebab die selalu duduk marinade diri sendiri dalam cubicle die,muka macam serious develop coding padahal tengah berkebun maya secara serious.hah! gatcha!

--->*akak programmer telah pun berbual dengan ceq hari ini, OMG! hahaha

so that was pretty much of it, cerita 21 hari ceq kat sini. tak da dalam buku log practical, exclusive untuk korang! (dear 5 readers,muah muah!) haa tengok baca blog macam baca buku log praktikal, kalau baca buku log macam bace blog pulak?hahaha

so until something is written here again! au revoir!

tabik spring pemandu malaysia.

2011-04-22T21:23:00.000-07:00

hey loo assalamualaikum!
good day everyone!
taraa! perempuan ini muncul kembali! sebab sekarang dah free sikit berbanding dua bulan lepas. pfft god knows how busy i am.

tapi tapi tapi! sekarang i'm all yours! makk aii kelas ayat kau maria!

well actually not so free lah kan, still got to study for my upcoming examination next saturday, come come wish me goodluck secara berjemaah! haha sayaaaaanggg you all lah! muuah muah,*ok scary kene cium ngan i kan?lalala

so now that i am free. come lets sembang, or people from kedah will say gebang, same je la macam sembang, cuma slang negeri kan lain, cakap je pasal ape, i can talk, haha---> everybody knows.duh

few months back , i kinda like spending most of my time on the road, its not like aku pergi ikut road tour ke hapa, but i'm going back and forth ke puncak purdana tuh, banyak lah penyebab, nak discussion lah, nak siap kan assignment lah, nak berlakon lah.(short film for third language subject) and some other time pulak banyak di habis kan atas jalan menuju mc donalds puncak alam, dengan harapan dapat menyiapkan final project semua dengan bantuan internet yang super laju kat situ * tangan ke dada mata pandang ke atas*

soo..
dalam masa itu, banyak ragam pemandu Malaysia ni yang aku rasa macam nak komen tapi siapakah dikau?so terus berazam bila free nanti, nak tulis issue ni kat blog.

well, ramai orang kata, in fact ada statistic lagi keluar of bertapa lousy nya pemandu malaysia, itu belum tambah lagi attitude, panas baran atas jalan raya, etika yang boleh di kata kan zero, dan apa lagi, memang patutlah kiranya aku spare kayu besbol dalam kereta tu, kalau tak tahan sabar, memang rasa macam nak pecahkan cermin kereta mereka mereka ini. not thatttt i am labelling semua pemandu Malaysia macam itu, cuma most of them yang urgh...how should i say?URGH.

then come, lets have a look, apa kah sikap sikap pemandu Malaysia ni:-

#1 SUNDAY DRIVER.
sunday driver ni, macam orang yang akan bawak kereta dia pada kelajuan 40 KM sejam. ok ok, faham lah daku kalau dikau macam berhati hati di jalan raya, tapi kalau kat highway dikau bawak macam tu?tak ke macam aish, nak pulak duduk line kanan, pergh! memang mengucap je daku duduk belakang kau.kalau dikau dah tahu dikau nak bawak slow and steady..nak menikmati pemandangan..nak kira berapa batang pokok yang ada sepanjang highway tu,why don't you opt for line tepi sekali?kan ke elok?line kanan dan tengah tu bukan ke untuk orang yang nak melaju kat highway tu?nampak tak nampak tak?

kat jalan biasa pun sama, bukan lah daku nak suruh dikau bawak sampai 110 KM kat jalan biasa, tapi apa lah salah kalau bawak average speed, ni kalau kereta lain dah sampai mengekor belakang hang?urgh.

#2 SIGNAL

ini pun satu lagi masalah dengan driver Malaysia, as if macam serupa tak payah pasang je lampu signal tu, ok. kalau macam simpang dekat tu dikau tak nak bagi signal, i try lahh ek i tryyy to understand, sebab some people says,

'hekeleh,gila skema, simpang dekat dekat pun nak bagi signal'.

faham tu faham. walaupun , sebenarnya, kalau pemandu beretika, itu di anggap satu perbuatan keji ok? tapii kenape ek kenape? most of the drivers ni suka main masuk je simpang ke, junction ke, TANPA memberi signal, kan ke bahaya tu abang?kereta belakang mana tau where are you going? its you that should spend a little of your
'precious' time gune je jari flip signal, ape salah?URGH RUGH.

#3 POTONG LINE

ok yang ni,memang unforgivable.tengok siap highlight merah.kah kah. *drama habis*
but seriously guys, seriously! keji sangat potong line, orang lain semua stuck dalam jam panjang panjang sampai rantau panjang, yang kau cik salmah tiba tiba duduk sebelah kereta daku dah kenapa?sudah la begitu, dikau block jalan orang yang supposedly untuk kereta yang nak masuk simpang, keji kan tu?what?are you somekind of royalty ke apa?beratur la, bila lampu hijau, cepat je kau nak tekan minyak. URGH.
statement. perbuatan ini sangat keji.

#4 TAK DA NAMA.

sikap yang ni, tak tau lah beta apa nama yang harus diberi, some of you may have experienced it, or some of you have not, tapi its kinda becoming new trend, stupid trend or something, macam jakun pun ada, boleh kah anda fahami, ketika anda dah beri signal, nak tukar lane ke apa, ok bagi example lah ek:

contoh macam you guys nak tukar from lane kiri ke lane tengah kan?ok dah berhemah gila dah ni, dah tengok cermin kiri kanan, side mirror, line clear, kereta lane tengah jauh lagi, so you guys pun flip lah signal nak masuk, TIBA TIBA. haa tiba tiba kereta lane tengah yang jauh tadi tibatiba press minyak laju laju sampai lah you guys tak dapat masuk or kene masuk belakang dia,apa punya perangai tu eh?macam

'weh weh, kereta ni nak masuk lane weh, jangan haraplah!tekan minyakk!!'

urgh.urgh.

#5 LAMPU

keadaan ni selalu berlaku pada waktu malam, sebab malam jalan gelap so apa guna kereta ada lampu?pasang! --pandai.

cuma cuma cuma.

ok kereta ada lampu kan?aah.

ada lampu high beam tak?aah.

lampu high beam tu untuk tempat gelap kan?aah.

masa belajar memandu dulu, kan ke sekolah tu dah ajar, kalau tempat gelap, if kereta dua dua pasang high beam berselisih. rules dia adalah. turunkan lampu tu. kalau idak, silau le yob, kan common tu? ini idak, macam nak compete lak high beam siapa lagi terang, URGH.URGH.

apa nak jadi la Malaysian.kemon lah kemon. bertaubat lah, ingat lah orang tersayang.haha--->gelak gelak jugak bai. kasik ingat masuk dalam jiwa.

dah la.cakap tak guna tendang tak kena.

tips-->memandu kat K.L ni kene berani,dan ganas. kalau takut memang pakat kene buli lah. imagine,memandu ni macam body language,

macam naik kuda jugak lah lebih kurang, kene yakin diri, tak boleh takut takut, sebab kuda boleh sense perasaan, mood kita, so kalau kita takut dengan dia,dia akan buli kita habis habisan, so we have to overpower them,

macam bawak kereta jugak,

other people can see, kalau kita nampak macam clueless ke, takut ke, atau kabut ke.since pemandu kat KL ni boleh tahan lah ganasnye.my advice is, be brave jangan takut takut, jangan teragak agak. yakin diri tu penting, baru kereta lain hormat dengan you guys.

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sekianlah saja bebelan mak cik,haha panjangkan?ni adalah entry balas dendam,haha sebab melainkan yang ini, entah bila lagi i'll write here, so until something is written here, au revoir!

bloopers.

2011-03-10T22:19:00.000-08:00

percubaan meniru anwar hadi. maria elena. dan BELLA RAZIB.haha

2011-03-05T04:32:00.000-08:00

ok this is blergh.but ala i just want to tryy,muka tak sempat nak make up,make up bag tetinggal dalam bus during lawatan hari tu,so hadap lah muka daku yang sebenarnya,this si how i look straight from bed in the morning,comel kannn.:) oohh tak sporting sungguh. ok la ni je,bye.
sila jangan kutuk saya cover cun. nanti tak mau belanja tutti frutti.haha

apakah yang sanggup di korbankan demi cinta..

2011-01-31T10:41:00.000-08:00

apakah yang sanggup di korbankan demi cinta?

this is a tribute to my friend,
i can't believe there is still such a nice men, left here on earth,i thought chris medina was the last one,

to this person, i wish him all of the happiness in life,
character dia beyond my imagination, i knew him for quite for sometime, and he is already been like a brother to me, you're such a sweetheart:)
cerita dia lebih kurang cerita chris medina only change the girlfriend with an evil witch macam dalam cerita snow white,
so are you with me now?
tapi i'm not going to write about this man,but only to make you get the idea that relates to his story,yang dapat tahniah! yang tak dapat..haha
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i know i've swore to myself not to never ever wrote anything about love on this journal, but please excuse me this time, i need to get it out of my head and i've got nowhere to go,forgive me..

sudah pasti,mempromosikan filem nur kasih bukan lah tujuan utama mengapa entry ini ditulis, but the tagline yang digunakan somehow stucked in my head, and now i'd like to ask,

apakah yang sanggup di korbankan demi cinta?

hukum alam.

i always wanted to figure out how god works on jodoh?because i am not being able to relate myself why things happen vice versa, as if berlawanan antara satu sama lain? macam lelaki kacak with girlfriend grumpy, or perempuan cantik ala nasha aziz, maybe end up with an ordinary man that works as government servant berwajah skema.

and i knew they say, hey they're great for each other, imperfection is what will make them stick together,

fair enough, but i was kinda having problem with the other way round macam:

"ya allah..baik nya dia, he is so sensitive to your feelings..remember your aniversarry..always be there for you..."
and percakapan tu bersambung dalam hati..

"and look at you...you are just plain whore and does not deserve him at all..so sad.."

okay contoh ni unisex,so it could be used both on men and women, because i am a lady,so i used contoh yang dekat to my heart lah,hehe..

see?that is what i have issues for. the good ones always ends up with a creature who wore human mask but holding devils fork on his/her lefthand.

its not that i'm saying allah is unfair,how could you do like that?

or i tak cakap allah buat kerja salah,

its just i really really badly want to shake these mean peoples head and shout

"could you please bersyukur for what god have given you and stop being such a B***H"

and yes,you might say

shes only saying that because her life is miserable, that she got problem to see other peoples happy,

true.i am just one plain unclucky person in life, but unlike you i am grateful for what i have or had. i may have been dissapointed by life so many times before, and still you can't use me as your living testimonial of how lucky you are to have such a good person in your life?

sayang..not everything evolved around you, so for once, please think of others before you turned into a selfless bitch and by then it's too late.

long sigh*
thats all i have in mind thanks for entertaining my silly thought.until something is written here again! au revoir!

the end-

notakaki: menyesal tak baca/beli buku why men marry bithces.maybe i could get some insights yang berguna dari buku tu.blergh.

menangis dalam hati,cubalah!

2010-10-25T12:03:00.000-07:00

kata dalam hati,baca dalam hati, tapi pernah try tak menangis.ya! menangis dalam hati?
cubalah.best tau, jimat masa dan jimat tenaga, and clean with no smudging make up.
i do it always.coz my face literary similar to a joker.smiling all the time faces. so tak berapa sesuai nangis tangkap leleh.

honestly i am morally down now. hurm. i guess i've never been attacked with such harsh comments. or may not heard them straight right into my face for the record. and the facts it came from a very unfamiliar person is a bonus points. like we rarely or may not even spoke a word, but she already judge me? as if her life is sucker than mine? but she judged me already? i don't really bother actually, i tells, i set myself to, but nevertheless deep down it rotten a bit of my self confidence, taken that i've never heard bad comments about myself from some strangers.

i guess i haven't really spread my hapiness sucsessfully huh? people do perceive differently.*sighh..

my concert experience.a blast!

2010-10-19T22:26:00.000-07:00

ok first of all why did the title sounds like i'm entering some cheesy competitions or something?
blergh.
but it was awesomee!
pergilah m**i, orang cakap
"budak budak je layan paramore.." ke apa,kau ada?
kau pergi?
and the most important
PEDULI KE AKU?ambik.!

i'm so tired of headbanging my head last nite.jumping, screaming,what else did i forgot to include?
so sorry.i'm just a litle bit out of control,haha anddd, and and,i'm not in any circumstances under any influence of alcolhol nor drugs,BELIA BENCI SEMUA TU.
blergh lagi sekali.

*kanak kanak mesej itu benar.blergh itu sebab ia sangat kedengaran mommy'ish.:)

i got myself this one coz i happen to think i might want to take their autograph somehow.but.blerghh.

so,that was that, kami bertolak sangat awal,thanks to ili, *tengah memandu tu* she' so happy that she smile all the way even on driving? kami sampai di stadium nasional bukit jalil at 3.30 p.m., pfttttttttttt!

only to realized that the door will only be opened at 7, niceee but its also good though,coz by arriving early equals to NO JAM-MORE PARKING-AND CLOSER TO THE MAIN ENTRANCE QUE-

on the moments of our arrivals,it was drizzling rain luckily ms. ili are brilliant to bring the umbrella that she asked me to choose which one to bring,

the small pink one or the large grey one?

my thought was not about which to choose but

'daym! will be partying in the rain! kasut aku! aaaa lecakkk!'

tapi tak apa for the sake of paramore.i swear if it was not you i am not going to wet myself ever!

thanks ms ili for holding the payung while i was camwhoring,come lets join in,snap snap!

see?ini lah untung datang awal,berapa langkah je depan main entrance,senang la if nak tolak tolak ke apa,haha

after an hour, ms ili was bored.so do i.

Paramore punya pasal.tak apalah.

if it's someone else,memang dah amok dah,:)

*no i was lying,like i said i go by miss ili's prize ticket for some competition she enter on 8tv,so that was when she's waiting for the 8tv dude to hand in the prize ticket.

so to make time flies,i took a picture of my sneakers. hence everybody on that day wears sneakers, maybe sebab depa budget nak jumping,headbanging,so a comfortable shoes is critically important right?siapa pulak yang larat nak lompat lompat headbanging pakai stilleto?die memang gila. i'm lucky i wear one.it helps me a lot to jump and headbanging comfortably.haha

alas,ada juga dua tiga ekor yang pergi concert rock terang terangan pakai heels?blergh.

an hours later the 8tv dude showed up and hand in the ticket, actually ms. ili there has already bought a pair of ticket because she tought that she did not win the competition, only a day before the concert 8tv told that she wins,so tiket yang dah beli tu, bagi kat cousin dia, dua orang budak bawah umur uitm shah alam. comel gila.*juling..

gambar itu? kami sedang beratur untuk masuk,nampak tak beza tadi tak pack tiba tiba terus ramai cam semut. blergh.

tadda! so paramore started the concert at 8.30 pm. before that adalah opening act,sapa entah Y2K.tak kenal so i dont really pay attention. pakai topeng segala i am not really getting the 'groove'

but paramore,their grand entrance was so gempak, they came in with three seperate alphard that drop them right beside the stage, and suddenly semuanya gelap,bila spotlight bukak,bam! muncul dorang atas pentas,terus nyanyi, seriously they were super awesome, nyanyi satu jam setengah straight! tanpa mengah. the crowd was funky two! it was so fun! hailey was supercute just like in the video.haha

so sorry my dear honey bunny semua, i can't really snap close ups pictures of them kerana hanphonecikaicamerataklawa and all, most pictures on ili's. of course her camera is nicer and better than mine,nanti i kasi link to her flicker of tumbler or twitter?huh.blergh.

but gambar yang ini masa dah nak penutup, i guess everybody just having so much fun like i did, loosing voice for extreme screaming,sore throat, hurting legs for jumping like monkey,haha but hey it's worth it sumpah tak tipu,eventhough my ticket was free but if i had to pay for it, i will, sebab dia nyanyi sebijik dalam cd! of course there was a time when hailey tengah masyukk nyanyi accoustic tiba tiba microphone shut down,semua orang boo organizer iaitu mr.jason lo, but then 5 minutes later it was all back to normal and people ar partying like monkey again.haha

my favourite part was when they sang, only exception, it was so nice to see the crowd sang together and light up their phones, the lighting sticks i dont know what it is called, it is soo.. touching.. haip! no touching touching bai, ni rock concert,haha and sadly no pictures too to prove it to you guys,

*i really should by myself a good camera no?slap forehead*

and there, like a gossip girl, i spotted few people (artist) juga datang untuk memeriahkan concert. seperti noh hujan, misz nina, lisa surihani, damn she was so humble no make up,just plain t-shirt with cap*to cover, liyana jasmay, bla..bla..

ili's cousin got to take picture with them,siap lentok lagi,sangat over! lupa pula mahu bluetooth gambar tersebut,boleh bagi kat ohartis.com kan?haha

all in all in a nutshell to conclude, PARAMORE.awesome.my concert experience?awesome.axcept for my still aching legs.blergh. eh berapa banyak blergh daa.

so until i something is written here again,au revoir!

*parapppaparaaa!*

j'ai deux amours

2010-10-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

J'ai Deux Amours
On dit qu'au-delà des mers,
Là-bas sous le ciel clair,
Il existe une cité, au séjour enchanté.
Et sous les grands arbres noirs,
Chaque soir,
Vers elle s'en va tout mon espoir.

J'ai deux amours
Mon pays et Paris.
Par eux toujours,
Mon coeur est ravi.

Manhattan est belle,
Mais à quoi bon le nier :
Ce qui m'ensorcelle, c'est Paris,
c'est Paris tout entier.
Le voir un jour,
c'est mon rêve joli.
J'ai deux amours,
Mon pays et Paris.

Manhattan est belle,
Mais à quoi bon le nier :
Ce qui m'ensorcelle, c'est Paris,
c'est Paris tout entier.

Le voir un jour,
c'est mon rêve joli.
J'ai deux amours,
Mon pays et Paris.

I have two loves

It is said that above the seas,
Over there under the clear sky,
Exists a city, where the stay is enchanted,
And under the big black trees,
Every evening,
Towards it leaves all my hope.

I have two loves
My country and Paris.
By them always
Is my heart ravished.

Manhattan is beautiful,
But why deny it,
what puts a spell on me is Paris,
Paris in its whole.
Seeing it one day
Is my pretty dream.

I have two loves,
My country and Paris.

Manhattan is beautiful,
But why deny it,
what puts a spell on me is Paris,
Paris in its whole.
Seeing it one day
Is my pretty dream.

I have two loves,
My country and Paris.

where life takes you

2010-09-30T06:21:00.000-07:00

"It’s really interesting how life takes you where you are at this current moment. We all have different paths that God chose for us. Some are planned by us while some just take us by surprise.

Wherever we are, we should always learn to love it, make the most of it and always be grateful."(proudduck,2010)

so this is my response,nahh not like a response really,just want to share my thought to her says:)

where have life taken you?
for me.it was totally.repeated totally different from what i've expected.
well growing up,i love to plan my life path, what i want to be, but the main idea that at that time i was like imagining my older/mature self in a better place.

when i'm 6, i wanted to be a doctor so bad,i dont know why,unlike most kids which hate to go to the clinic,me?no.i loveee to go there,(*a very handsome doctor is a bonus points) haha but i dont know i just love to be there, i am not affraid of blood, so that is what made me think that,yah1 i want to be a doctor.i will. plus with of all the encouragement from mak,pak, 'bagus bagus.doktor bagus.'

that life path i planned did not just stop there and then. i make myself, i set my mind, to love science, but there i was forgetting to remember,God already set up different routes for me. and one of the hints God dropped for me is that, i've come to remember,that i hated maths so bad that i just hate to see numbers, clock also.haha *back then i was so dumb in knowing how clock works,time,bla blah..*
BUT see?how come you loved science so much but you cant even look at numbers right?
maths and science related to each other,its like i always get B ,or A for my science in primary,but C or D for my maths.isn't that weird?(so suicidal to reveal your grades on blog,but.nah nevermind!)

so until then i've come to realize that doctors and i we're not meant to be.someone else maybe.

and then i developed new interest. and i set my 'new' life path, i want to be a novelist pulak.! doink! haha i know poyo.but hey, i got story to tell here?

mm..i was like in standard 5 or so..cant recall but that was that.i somehow unleashed my new talent in writing, i wrote short stories during my past time, poem, and suddenly i loved Bahasa Melayu so much!
there was one time i got 96% for my writing paper,nice eh?so that what made me think,okay, maybe i am meant to be a novelist perhaps. so i started to sharpen my skills,and at that time, luckily i got a friend that has same interest just as mine.(she is now future journalist to-be),so we wrote and commented on each other's work. and lets see that last like soon as before i started high school.

but however in highschool, i once again changed my interest to gave advice on people.HAHA again poyo right?i joined counseling clubs,Pembantu Rakan Sebaya, i thought okay.novelist is boring. and the list goes on and on,i want to be journalist, i want to be artist,opss?haha

years goes by.although i might say this is not what i choose.but it was what God has saved up for me.it's always the best.i finished my diploma for three full of fun years in the most rural area,SEGAMAT! YEAY! for me!
and now on my way on finishing my degree and soon a librarian to be.insyallah.some
of my besties were also taken by suprised when life takes them to totally different dirrection,ada yang bakal jadi wartawan, ada yang sudah bekerja, which is what they've not even dreamed from the very beginning.

i don't know what the future brings.and i've learned life could totally suprised us like SUPRISED! with no cake and candles. for whatever may come,i'm ready! *i just hope in future manalah tahu tiba tiba life says suprise! you're now a royalty babeyhh! nice eh?SEKIAN.:)

untill something is written here again.au revoir!

2010-09-09T00:11:00.000-07:00

kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku

kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku

sepi… sepi.. dan sendiri aku benci

aku ingin bingar… aku mau di pasar
bosan aku dengan penat
dan enyah saja kau pekat
seperti berjelaga jika kusendiri
pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
ada malaikat menyulam
jaring laba laba belang di tembok keraton putih
kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya
biar terdera

atau aku harus lari ke hutan
lalu ke pantai…

nothing's personal.

2010-08-30T09:08:00.000-07:00

hey!:)
what's up?nah..this time its nothing,i just want to get off,something which stuck in my head and so i thought of spilling it here,you guys wouldn't mind no?* hello,it's mine by the way,now is the right time to use my veto power! yeah! okay okay,here's a thing:-

1.
SO. first thing first.this.

how will you react to a super uber cute,hot,handsome guy?okay okay.imagine you're so close to him that you could smell the pleasant ralph lauren scent..that smile uhh just melt your heart like ice cream...and oh yaa yaa,the sexy eyes..what is the first thing that come across your mind ladies?tell me tell me!

oh and as for me.
what came across my mind was..

(breathless)
I WISH THIS MOMENT FREEZE and last forever.haha okay i made the sentence look so bombastic,

but honestly,what did came across my mind at that time,was wow.physical do play important roles huh?*now i understands man better,*its like jawdropping to be that close with guy that is so uber charming.i wish i could brought him home and just stare into his charming face for eternity,what a feeling!

of course i am so sure that we all ladies have our own fantasies and i'm not referring to any other kindsof fantasies but just yeah,that fantasies of having a charming man by your side,so that we could brag it to the whole world,and smile whenever we wake up in the morning and to see that charming face,how great life could be,(smiling)

oh don't get me wrong,i'm not writing this one out of crush on someone or what,it's just my random thought and 'fantasies' about being with hot,cute,charming man.perfect eyes,perfect smiles,perfect body,opss!haha which is why we have celebs crush ladies,because that kind of perfect man,does not even exist in real world,blahhs..even all those celebs came with whole team to make them look just like in the picture above.:)
and of course ladies,we still love our partners no matter what,right?

so..thats it,physical attraction is like drugs,it mades you high on the beginning but when you starts to sober,believe me you'll find your beau and wanted to hug him so much that you have each other.but still at times,we want to get high,maybe not by drugs just fantasize about being around hot guy,'cuci mata', and get real again.

as for me that i am single,i can do whatever i want! haha and this entry is getting far from talking about hot guys,to relationship advise?what the?okay okay

guess that's all i have in mind,thanks for entertaining my silly thought.
until something is written here again,au revoir! ciao amore!

malindo: relevankah lagi?

2010-08-26T09:32:00.000-07:00

salam1 malaysia.
wah,semangat patriotik.berdiri tegak semua!nyanyi!
haip bukan lagu beyonce...aduih,lagu negaraku! NEGARAKU!

CEPAT!

*tangan sisi.wajah mengadap bendera,nyanyi!*..

negaraku..
tanah tumpahnya darahku..rakyat hidup bersatu dan maju..rahmat bahgia..tuhan kurniakan..
raja kita,selamat ber ta-ta!

HAIP! TENGOK?BERTAKHTA LAH bukan berta-ta!

...raja kita...selamat bertakhta...

*tepukkan untuk anda!*

kita semua sayangkan negara kita,sempena hari kemerdekaan Malaysia kesayangan saya 31 ogos ni,sebuah entri khas saya tujukan,selamat ulang tahun Malaysia,we love you.

sebenarnya,tidak terlintas pun untuk menulis tentang entri patriotisme,kerana tidak pernah pun menulis apa apapun yang bertemakan kenegaraan sebelum ini,oh tak tak! ada ada.cuba baca entri ini:
http://cintagilaku.blogspot.com/2009/01/saya-anak-malaysiaperkhabaran-dari.html

seperti yang sudah acapkali kita dengari, jauh berjalan luas pemandangan, tapi buat saya, pemikiran juga bertambah,satu tahap yang lain dan meluas kan sudut seseorang melihat kehidupannya, cubalah.

semuanya bermula sehinggalah entri ini di tulis bermulanya dari perbincangan di facebook dengan beberapa orang teman, isu indonesia mengadakan tunjuk perasaan,sebagai tanda protes kepada malaysia atas penahanan pegawai yang menjaga perairan mereka,dan dari hasil perbincangan itu,ternyata amat mengecewakan,ada sebahagian dari kita yang mahu kelihatan terbuka,tetapi akhirnya bagaikan membela orang yang mendatang dari yang ada di tanah sendiri,memegang prinsip 'kera di hutan di susukan,anak di rumah mati kelaparan' mungkin?

terus terang saya kecewa. rakyat tanah sendiri harus mempertahan kan negara sendiri,itu baru hanya isu.sudah tampak gelongnya,apatah jika suatu hari nanti mereka datang dan ishtihar ini negara mereka,mungkin dengan sekali nafas,negara pun di gadaikannya.angguk setuju.ahhh terbuka.harus berfikiran terbuka...mungkin?

melihat isu ini dengan kacamata normal civillion seperti saya, ia tidak sepatutnya berlaku, mereka juga tidak mempunyai hak langsung untuk tunjuk perasaan, protes, siapa mereka untuk marah?

malindo.dulunya adalah usaha untuk kerjasama malaysia dan indonesia untuk bergabung dalam sudut ekonomi,hubungan atas dasar kita berasal dari rumpun yang sama,bangsa sama,melayu,semenjak dari itu, malaysia membangun dengan pesat,dan mereka masih ketinggalan dengan kadar kemiskinan yang tinggi,pembahagian ekonomi yang tak sama rata, tetapi atas dasar persahabatan. malaysia mula menggunakan khidmat tenaga buruh kasar,dan pembantu rumah,dengan tujuan untuk membantu mereka meningkatkan taraf ekonomi mereka sehingga ke hari ini, dan semenjak itu kadar kemasukkan mereka ke negara ini bertambah, secara sah atau jalan tikus,berbondong bondong datang semata mata mahu mencari rezeki di sini.dalam hubungan ini malaysia telah banyak berkompromi,namun mereka tetap muncul dengan isu isu menjatuhkan malaysia,relevankah lagi hubungan ini?

tidak cukup dengan itu,kemasukkan mereka dengan volume yang besar telah menyebabkan mereka merasa mereka telah menjadi komuniti yang kuat,dengan beraninya kelihatan di mana mana tempat awam, pada hari minggu,menguasai kawasan kawasan tertentu dengan memenuhkan komuniti mereka,bermula dari duduk bersama sama didalam 'kongsi', dan lama kelamaan bertambah sehinggakan mereka menganggap mereka sudah pun menjadi sebahagian dari rakyat di sini, tidak dinafikan, mereka bijak mencari peluang perniagaan, sudut sudut rezeki,tapi tidak kurang juga yang menjadi pengedar dadah,samun,dan rogol,sehinggakan kita tidak merasa selamat,bukankah kita yang harus marah?

tapi malangnya sebilangan kita berkata, kita tak boleh hidup..tanpa tenaga buruh mereka..rakyat kita malas,meminta minta,mereka boleh bekerja dengan gaji yang mahal tapi cuba di lihat secara halus,adakah kita selaku rakyat yang duduk di negara sendiri,mempunyai kelayakan,hanya berakhir menyumbang tenaga hanya sekadar disitu?jangan mengalihkan kesalahan,majikan juga harus tidak boleh memikirkan keuntungan semata,dengan mengambil buruh asing,mereka telah menjimat kan separuh dari kos asal,tidak perlu bayar kwsp,tidak perlu beri cuti..tenaga boleh dikerah sehabis mungkin,adakah kita perlu berada dalam situasi itu untuk dikatakan tidak terlalu manja dan memilih?malah buruh asing juga telah mula mengusulkan untuk mendapat faedah yang sama seperti kenaikan gaji,dan cuti,mereka juga memilih,

di kandang kambing mengembek,di kandang rimau,mengaum, mereka seharusnya pandai mebawa diri dan tidak perlu terlalu emosi,ini isu kecil yang dapat di selesaikan dengan baik,media indonesia juga tidak seharusnya memanipulasi isu ini,ia seolah olah mereka amat benci dengan malaysia,slogan ganyang malaysia,terlalu kasar bunyinya,jika tidak betah di sini,kami juga tidak keberatan jika mereka pulang ke negara asal.
datang tak berjemput pergi tak di halau..

walau apa pun alasan yang di lontarkan,malaysia adalah yang terbaik,dan saya bangga dilahirkan dibesarkan dan mati di negara sendiri,amat menyedihkan jika rakyat malaysia sendiri juga menyalahkan negara sendiri dan membela orang yang menumpang dinegaranya.

kepada rakyat indonesia,entri ini tidak bertujuan untuk menghina atau bersifat perkauman,mungkin tidak kesemua dari kamu membenci malaysia,ini hanyalah pendapat seorang rakyat malaysia seperti saya.

selamat hari kemerdekaan malaysia.53 tahun.saya sayang malaysia.

oh bulan,mana bintang?

2010-08-08T08:06:00.000-07:00

oh bulan,mana bintang?-adibah ahmad.

this lady dulu blogger,macam i jugak.but for whatever reasons,dia rasa nak angkat kaki dari dunia blogging,how sad sebab i'm huge fan of her writings...gaya penulisan die sangat bersahaja,tapi membawa maksud mendalam..

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nuff said.

buku catitan kesayangan beta..

beta merasa amat janggal..semua rancangan beta untuk mengubat lara hati nampaknya tidak menunjukkan hasil..mana silapnya ya?

buku catitan kesayangan beta,

yang di tunggu tak muncul tiba,yang dulu di sayangi di depan mata..apa yang harus beta lakukan,beta tidaklah mahu nampak kelihatan 'so heartbroken' bak kata pedagang dari negeri sejuk itu,beta selalu berlagak tenang,senyum lebar bukan kepalang..tapi kenapa hati beta tidak memahami isyarat bahawa beta mahu mengubat hati lara,tetap jua ia mahu bersedih..bersunyi..wai'ma nyanyian sekalian dayang dayang tidak jua hati beta bersuka,beta cuba..beta cuba..

buku catitan kesayangan beta..

beta cuma bertepuk sebelah tangan,lama beta nanti,malangnya wajah yang lain menjadi si jantung hati,tapi beta redha,mereka lihatnya sesuai,bagai pinang di belah dua,cuma tuah beta sahaja yang kurang tampak,dalam hal ehwal percintaan..

buku catitan kesayangan beta..

maka di sini lah beta,duduk sendiri di tepian jendela menghadap bulan..tapi mengapa bintang tiada..?*mujur connection internet disini molek*dapat lah beta mengadu pada mu wahai buku,oh yaa,suatu perkara lagi,mengapa arjuna yang seorang lagi itu senyap benar akan dia,merajukkah dia?atau dia sebenarnya tidak rindu pada beta pun jua..keluhan..

buku catitan kesayangan beta,
sampai sini dulu beta mengadu,lain kelapangan jika punya waktu begini,dan rembulan molek di renung,kita bicara lagi ya..beta harus offline..istana padamkan lampu sebentar lagi..selamat malam..sampai ketemu..

oh bulan..mana bintang...

s-puteri lindungan bulan..

replacement.

2010-08-07T01:33:00.000-07:00

swip swapping is just another excuse to mend my broken heart.-me
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so i am really unlucky in love huh?
its kinda very long time,since i met someone that made my heart beat faster,and push me in the right button,
since then all guys i met uhh..how should i say,not up to my standards?

so that was when i started to fling around,mingle with bunch of unserious realtionships,just so that i wont feel lonely,but truth be told,nothing managed to steal my heart.one men after another,somehow i just felt somethings was missing,they are not real,and i am just making them as an excuse to mend my broken heart.

how could i know?
because love,i mean real love made you feel different inside,something new,made you feel like you are a better person which is i'm not feeling it right now,all of these man made me feel the same,LOOSER.

a friend of mine said,
you've always set some sort of standards of men,
which is why you wont get one,
what about their standards?
are you up to theirs?

*long pause*

yes,not everybody perfect,me neither.but what i was actually hoping for is someone that made me feel like the old days again,energetic,vibrant,and feel like i am the only uber hot woman this entire world,

i once read in this article about changing your boyfriend,(previous) blueprint,
only to realized i was all this time kinda have a thing for sweet talker,gushh! haha'
but i dont know,its just soothing,like a therapy for someone to worship you,haha

but that is that,when a sweet talker praised you,they're not doing it for the first time but they'done it with zillion of chicks before.

so according to the article that i supposed to search for more intelligent guy but more laid back,he is supposed to not gushing all over me in the minute we started to know each other,and when he do,its honest and sounded not rehearsed.wuu thats a lot of thing for me to handle yaw,but nevertheless it also holds true..

so there i was,i met this one guy,that is only guy i knew that did not gush over me minute we started to knew each other,in fact he is sooo driving me crazy,for his 'honesty',sometimes i just like to slap him right into his face,but he's nice too on the other hand,but i'm not really sure,well he did drop a few hints on me at times but most of it i really felt like it wasn't serious,but he's nice,and i could tell him everything but umm..i dont know,i'm confused,

he's also playing hard to get now,which i literarily hate.because i had to do the chase,i dont know..

what if he's not real?what if i am just making him an excuse to mend my broken heart? what if i just want to cover up my loneliness?what if i just couldn't live without men?what if ?what if?

life is full of question no?

*long sigh*

thats all i have in mind,thank you for listening,
until i found the love of my life,
au revoir,ciao amore!

22nd.what you've got?

2010-08-05T08:26:00.000-07:00

i want a non oh so boring life.
the one with more of the unexpected,
something major enough to turned my life upside down.
somehow its similar like a roallercoaster ride?have you been there?
-me

so i am twenty two.vingt-deuxans in french.
well at least its not official till december?kan?
but all along the way,i kept on thinking,on this twenty two years living,have i experienced life to the fullest?i doubt.all of these years,i've tasted gist of what life could offer me and i wonder,have i done everything,so that when i grew old, and my grandchild ask me
'nenek?how was your life back then?is it interesting?'

*long pause*

so that is one matter that keep on running in my head on and on..i take pride of my 'normal girl's' reputation all this while but what if there's something more,things i haven't explore,things that i thought i wouldn't do things that i'm too afraid to try,to be different,completely from my 'cliche' self,maybe to switch on my other alter ego,my bad side..break rules,be unconventional instead of being traditional, but the point is.to be someting outrageous,something extrovert,and something out of the box.yes! i want to do something out of the box.

however,of course,there will be line between my idealism of being something you are usually not and being normal and acceptable in normal circumstances.like movie inception,i'll made my thing to spin whenever i want to seperate the norm and my fantasies.haha jokes!

i've made myself a promise.to live my life to the fullest.do everything i possibly could. so when next time or in another 50 years time,when my grandchild ask:
'nenek,when you were my age,interesting tak life you?'
*cucu aku panggil I,you je?haha

'yes honey,i did a lot of things,see a lot of people, do you want me to share it with you?where do we begin?'
*big smile.

-until something i done and itching to post it here,au revoir!

*i'm thinking of socializing my way to clubs,night life... they say m.o.s is the hippiest club in town currently*naughty thought. lets do something about it.
ciao amore!

do i have to be such mean,evil,grevious creature like you?

2010-06-17T09:07:00.000-07:00

"i'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, i am out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."- missadorabella
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what she said also holds true kan?
honestly.we all ladies.semua insecure.
no no no..don't be frightened.its healthy in fact,a little itty tiny bit of insecurities in us is good but REPEATED LITTLE ITTY TINY BIT NOT SEBAKUL PENUH yang di kelek ke hulu ke mari,get it?

Q: why of a sudden this one come up?
A: sebab ada kejadian tadi, sorang hamba allah ni insecure nya dengan i,menakutkan! so then i'd like to write something about this one in particular.but but but.itu belum menakutkan lagi.the worst part is the lady yang so insecured by me to is my close friend?macam tak boleh faham pulak.does she need to?

yesssz! the real question is not about does she just feel that way upon me or what but DOES SHE NEED TO? haa yang tu yang i nak tanya ni! pelik!

mari kita kaji:-*sound effect CSI please...

premise1- why does she need to.she have a boyfriend yang sangat baik dan menyayangi beliau,although i have to admit,
*die bukan lah solehah sangat*nuff said nuff said.

premise2- of course i adore her! godknows,suara dia sangat sedap dari i,sampai menang pertandingan semua,then how come bila i nyanyi she's just tagging along and at last took the song that i like so much like its her own?
and whenever i choose my song,she also wants to sing that song,and macam nak menunjuk yang she's better than me,
*what for?i already adore her! BUT not anymore.

premise3- and lastly,i don't know,above all things i told ya before.i still befriend lagi dengan lady tu.tiap kali dia me'laser' things about me,aku sabar...tiap kali she brag about her life,aku sabar..do i have like to be an evil just like her?orang selalu kata,'kalau dia buat,kau balas je balik!'
but its hard,sumpah.i've tried.but i'm not as grevious as she are.darn! and i hate it so much! *still aku nak jugak tiru traits dia kan?

jadi tuan tuan dan puan puan,setelah ketiga tiga hujah yang saya bentang kan di atas,do you agree that this lady insecurity level dah melampau?

now lets look from my way of insecurities toward people pulak,but mine is good one.the healthy one.

insecurities one- when another lady have a great smokin hot body,than me.flawless skin.height of a geiselle bundchen.i am so threatened by it.

insecurities two- now that i am single,and still on my way of searching my right one,i do envy people that already found it,which mine is elsewhere.tambah tambah lagi to see that the 'mean girls' always get the men.and i am not.*expressi angelic sekarang,imagine*

insecurities three- when seeing someone who owns one happy picture perfect family,friend-like moms,hippiest dad-and lucky enough to achieved all their dreams without having to ride on rough course like i do.

statement berani mati-* PEOPLE,I DO ENVY YOU.HAPPY?

so now by having all of you to look into my not so perfect and happy life,actually i'm kinda feeling happy though,ada jugak orang nak merasa insecure dengan aku,*yippie!

last but not least,i'd like to stress on this again and again,its healthy ladies,to feel insecure! go be threaten by someone you envied,but as i said do not go overboard! a little is good but not too much.its like make up to make it easy.faham tak?

so,i hope i make myslef clear,that i am not worth of any degree of jealousy from any ladies out there*macam ramai la pulak*

and be honest about your insecurities,confront it.find way to overcome it.dengan cara itulah maka kita boleh menjadikan dunia,a better place.

thats all i guess.untill something is written here again! ciao amore!
-c.i.n.t.a.g.i.l.a-

REVIEW FILIM MALAYSIA: lagenda budak setan

2010-06-13T02:50:00.000-07:00

title: LAGENDA BUDAK SETAN adapted from malaysia's well known novel written by Ahadiat Akashah,

duration: (ca.120 min.)

so we've all heard or maybe watched movie blockbuster yang telah di gembar gemburkan ini,lagenda budak setan!*clap clap*
katanya lah.. block buster,tapi baca paper baru sat sat ni,depa kata memang block buster,box office RM3juta,so maybe lah filim ini berjaya mencapai sasaran,tahniah.

memandangkan filim ini di angkat daripada novel yang telah di baca oleh semua remaja sihat di zaman 90 an,
(or maybe some did not read it,sebab layan novel mat salleh 'may sechewen' haha,but put aside them) dan diturunkan turun temurun,kepada adik,anak,cucu,cicit semua segala,i have to admit,novel ini memang menarik dan mempunyai jalan cerita yang menggamit pembaca melekat dari muka surat pertama hingga muka surat terakhir,sequel kedua,dan pengakhirnya iaitu kasyah: lagenda berakhir,
me myself personally also dah macam hafal dah cerita ni,and i believe semua pengikut kasyah(watak utama novel ini) also do kan?

oleh kerana itu,dari hari pertama trailer filim ni keluar online,dan kemudiannya di television,i have to admit i was the first person yang terkinja kinja nak tengok sangat filim ni,walaupun setelah membaca beberapa review yang mengecam teruk filim ini pada ketika baru hari pertama ia di tayangkan di pawagam,

jadi,dengan berfikiran neutral,hasrat untuk menonton karya ini di teruskan,walaupun dengan segala review 'hampas' yang di tulis,tiket tetap habis,*yang menghairankan,sangat ramai sehingga i have to be on waiting list sesiapa yang terlambat pick up tiket ke hapa,adaka patut?at that time i was thinking,

'mak oi,best sangat lah cerita ni,sampai habis tiket? ke..semua orang tengok sekali then menyumpah tak mau pi dah?'

akhirnya,dapat juga menonton filim ini,so tanya la,tanya,apa i nak cakap untuk filim ni?tanya la! haha*gedik betui*

my review for this film is,unlike of what i've read,those reviews,semua tu,ahh..i think tak berapa tepat,yes i do agree,that somehow,this film has failed to bring the extra 'umph' factor that all the fans were waiting for,but 'kudos' and credits harus di berikan kepada semua pemain pemain watak dalam cerita ini,seperti farid kamil,lisa surihani,dan lain lain
*****------except! raja farah yer! no no no! tidak dia berlakon macam sampah,i cant understand kenapa mesti ambil dia jugak dalam beribu pelakon kat malaysia nih,dan pelakon baru yang jadi watak ayu lepas pembedahan tu pun,but she's new,we would've understand kan?raja farah tu?aku pon clueless.

cuma masalah nya di sini adalah kelemahan jalan cerita itu sendiri,di mana semua orang yang membaca karya tu akan tau bertapa banyak nya lari cerita tu dari cerita asal,contohnya:

tiba tiba mak ayu digambarkan dalam filim sebagai seorang orang tua yang ala ala vogue walhal dalam novel,mak cik tu punya lah tua,dan miskin tinggal di kampung,

dan dan..tiba tiba starting filim tu kasyah kat kolej,instead of asrama,i know i know maybe lah macam tak cool cerita pasal budak sekolah bercinta,but then why not start masa dorang belajar kat oversea?

its like the script writer tak baca the novel thoroughly faham tak?yes they will say that,macam mane novel nak sama sebijik macam filim?but then please lah,show some effort like at least it is related,kan?

apart from that issue only that i have for lagenda budak setan,yang lainnya seperti cinematografi tu semua,memang hebat,cantik sangat filim ni,sountrack,thumbs up! but then baru nak bangga,rupanya ada kerjasama expertise from u.k and indonesia,but then again,tak kisahlah,tetap bagus!tahniah.

overall filim ini dapatlah di kelaskan sebagai filim cinta malaysia yang unique dan tersendiri,dengan kehadiran beberapa babak lucu yang tidak slapstik,dan babak air mata yang berkesan,3 bintang!! 1 thumbs up!:)

lagu best kegemaran penulis review ini! cik cintagila!

okay lah,
until something is written here again! au revoir!

p:s/ nak tengok sex and the city 2!! miaoww!

formspring.me

2010-05-18T08:51:00.001-07:00

please do ask.kalau x sesat jalan.hehe http://formspring.me/ctshahidatul

you're the only exception

2010-05-17T00:43:00.000-07:00

formspring.me

2010-05-07T10:31:00.001-07:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/ctshahidatul

self potraits

2010-04-19T22:14:00.000-07:00

hello!
so masa tengah final exam ni sempat lagi kan buat potret sendiri,well semua yang rapat dengan i pasti tahu,i am a camwhores= gila gambar,bahasa mudah dia, in taking my own pictures i'd like to be inspired by most of good self potraits artist macam sueannajoe,(siapa dia?tgk link bawah ni)

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Sue-Anna-Joe/34732550222?ref=ts&v=wall

so ni fan page dia,go have a look,gambar die semua hebat hebat! in simple words,okay i tiru dia,haha so am placing my work of art here,enjoy:-

AMARAN: any kind of plagiarism is strictly prohibited and ini cuma hasil seni sahaja.tidak lebih.terima kasih.

i see the shadow of the moon through your smile..

2010-04-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

a letter i wrote to my past.

2010-04-17T02:47:00.000-07:00

i gotta fly once..i gotta try once,only can die once right sir?- a line from song of don't rain on my parade.

hey all,bonjour?comment ca va?
which means french cakap hai semua,good day,are you okay?ca va is commonly used phrase in french sebab it means OK,so if you guys who know one day stucked in a room full of french people kah,kalau terdesak tak tau nak jawab apa,just say,ca va,hihi..done.

alors,(so) ingat tak i've once wrote a letter about 'mempercepatkan graduasi' masa di uitm segamat dulu?
*sila scroll di archive untuk keterangan lanjut*

well, here i am now after about one year surat itu di tulis but never really been sent,
and after three years..so this is where i am now..*long sigh..
well at least i've be 'something rather than nothing' aite?
but having looking back of how huge i hate being sent there for three years,not to mention living with every 'brand' of human and to be particular is to live with a lot of ladies under the same roof,which means a lot of drama..wow,i think i should give myself a kudos for being able to finished the task sucsessfully huh?

well i am a firm believer that myself,is designed to be obstacle,emotion and whatnot proof, nothing can stop me from anything,although there will be time i akan 'terduduk' because life like to challenge me,and they sometimes came in harsh shape,but then again i dont care and i'll push myself,
"apa nak jadi jadi lah!"

so,i still remember i did mentioned in my letter that i'd love to be here,where i am now,with hope that i'll be living in my own home and not with all the drama, i am so sure that i'll be happy,and blah blah blah..

and after three years.bamm! i am in where i wanted to be,that i wrote in that letter,
well,i might say life is a little bit,good here.but its not all good.

i have one more problem.adapting.
to my new life.

i have a problem where i miss on being in the limelight at which is where i am in the past,and not having it now.i have a problem adapting to it.

i have a problem of mixing around with new people and i am like the only one alone.with all my friends have gone seperate directions.

i have a problem of getting myself back together and starting myself back to zero.its hard because i am once at the top.

and last but not list to top the list. i just miss all of the people who gets what's coming out of my head, like the same things as i like, i just miss those people.and the one i am sourrounded with now is clueless of all things i mentioned above.

so if i could now write a letter to my past. i'll tell this:-

hey,i am yourself in future.so congratulations although you have not given a fastrack to your graduation,but now you are where you want to be,despite few things that you are not meant to be.but here you are. i've heard your problems,but just so you know,it wasn't easy here too.it'll be long list if i tell you here.you will be experiencing it soon.but what can i say as yourself in future, how about you enjoy yourself during your last years of fame and fun,before you meet me here,your future.

waiting for you..
SITI SHAHIDATUL AKMAL
2009151XXX
bachelor IS220 library science management hons.
UiTM Puncak Perdana,

kadang kadang bila di fikirkan balik a says from a friend of mine also holds true
"kita tak boleh hidup in the past,try force yourself to live in present"

i know.i know.i am forcing myself,adapting to it.by time i should be ok kan?this is non of a serious matter,its just one from many of my litle complaints along of my life journey. i am pretty much like an old diva complaining about how she is not being used to not to being a diva anymore.

anyway,i thank you all for being here for me.at least i have some place to speaks my heart out.you guys memang menggoda sebab always be by myside:)

until..something is written here again,a bientot!=goodbye
hugs,love&kisses-
c.i.n.t.@.g.i.l.@

i'm gleed!!!

2010-04-16T09:20:00.000-07:00

how..kay,haha so i tipu cakap entry baru on the way but the truth is it stucked in my head,and i'm figuring way to put it out,lagi pun medium penulisan tak berapa nak sihat,my notebook is only waiting her time for destruction,so hehe..*muka cute*

how...evaar,mase i tengah duk bertapa finishing up my assignments,i saw glee,(apa glee?ya allah memang lah kuno,sila beli astro sekarang,ceh maaf lah yer,terbongkak pula,) umm glee is like the hottest musical drama abad ini,so go watch for those whom have not watch it yet,for those yang dah,GOOD.

ceritanya..tengah tension tension buat assigntments ni, tiba tiba terstuck pula kat lagu ni,her voice is insanely incredible, puas dah i cari the real video clip for all of you but tak jumpa lah,but the main thing is suara dia sedap dan lagu ni pun BEST!

Q:*kenapa cintagila asyik post lagu je semenjak dua menjak ini?
A: sebab idea stuck,huruf enter kat notebook ni dah tercabut,screen dah putih, so then i think post lagu je would be easy,tak consume masa yang lama,dan idea yang banyak with such conditions that i am experiencing now:) lagi sekali,you guys memang sexy sebab memahami:)

so,mm,lagu ni macam dah nak sejuta kali dah played here kat notebook tua ni.umm sememangnya dah tabiat buruk si cintagila ni,kalau suka lagu tu,dengar tak reti sekali je,above any matter or reasons,lets hope notebook ni panjang umur okay..and so i can write million things to come just for you:)

hugs&kisses
c.i.n.t.@.g.i.l.a

and this songs made me smile,

2010-04-14T02:46:00.000-07:00

it made me smile just listening to this songs everytime i'm feeling sad,down, low,
i hope the same goes to all of you too!
enjoy!
:)

hugs&kisses,
cintagila

psst:bila entry baru mau publish?soon dear,soon:) igt? smile..haha
you guys memang comel,sebab baca cintagila journal of a single girl,and tunggu entry baru,:P)

dengar& flash back your first love in childhood memory.do you like to tell?

2010-04-10T06:44:00.000-07:00

suka lagu ni,lyric dia.semua,google'd it and enjoy yah!

kisses and love,
cintagila

you are so sexayy.and made me feel so brilliant like sherlock holmes.

2010-04-07T20:54:00.000-07:00

1."you got a weird accent where you from, Birmingham?"
"yeah I'am a Brummie"

2.A ledgendary person that comes from Birmingham, England
"Wow, i wish i could be as kool as that brummie"

(credits to urbandictionary.com)
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hahaha,so hello,am so sorry i left all of you wondering "apalahh.. si cintagila ni merapu?"
no..no i tak merapu,okay okay let me explain,boleh?

ceritanya begini, saya menulis ini sebab saya sangat teruja kerana hari ini ada orang telah membuat saya kelihatan so intelligent macam sherlock holmes,nak investigate segala nih,to my friend mr.brummie.thank you.

how does it not across my mind to just at least google'd you.haha and asyik wonder siapa lah en.brummie ni,rupa rupanya long lost friend of mine kat United kingdom dulu,kan mr.brummie,lama dah tak jumpa you,*ceh bila masa pulak aku pernah jejak kaki kat tanah orang putih tu entah,but nevertheless i found you mr.brummie friend!:)

i am sorry i thought you are a stalker,sebab i go through your blogger profile but can't track where do you come from,until i google'd you,and realized you are my long lost friend! i lupa that that was our daily accent there when we're still in U.K*ok tipu,but you guys, my friend mr.brummie ni have really been there.betul tak tipu.

so,it's nice to meet you again,and whyyy don't you tell me its you,we should go grab coffee or something,:)
by the way thanks for dropping by, how i missed you!

psst: by the woy yoo miskin sexy fer keepen yourself a secret,an' founden yaouw med me feel clever loike sherlock holmes! do i still have the tongue to talk in that accent again?haha kidding.,

untuk perempuan sahaja.

2010-04-04T06:42:00.000-07:00

"apa yang seorang wanita itu dapat apabila dia mengorbankan apa saja termasuk wang,masa dan kehormatan diri demi cintanya pada seorang lelaki yang akhirnya meninggalkan dia?"

tu je.renung-renungkan selamat beramal!

poligami: suami bukan untuk di rebut tetapi di kongsi.hmm?

2010-04-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

"Poligami bermaksud satu sistem perkahwinan yang mana seseorang mempunyai lebih daripada seorang pasangan hidup. Terdapat dua jenis poligami. Pertama, poligini, iaitu seorang lelaki berkahwin lebih daripada seorang isteri, dan satu lagi ialah poliandri, iaitu seorang wanita mempunyai lebih daripada satu orang suami. Dalam Islam, poligini terhad adalah dibenarkan; manakala poliandri ditegah sama sekali "

(credits to-thaqib.geng.murai.com.my)

bonsoir everyone! okay okay please do ask,

Q:whats happening cintagila,tiba tiba bercakap soal poligami?kenapa?
A:haha and my anwer sayang(s) semua,saja.ja.tak boleh?

Q lagi: layak kah awak cik cintagila?
A:semua orang ada pendapat sendiri,sebagai wanita saya berhak untuk menyuarakan pendapat dan pandangan dari sisi saya,dan kerana entry ini bukan lah berunsur sangat ilmiah walaupun unsur itu sedikit sebanyak ada dalam artikel yang saya tulis ini,but its just for informative purpose,hence i am a librarian do i?

statement umum: baiklah,,cakaplah apa yang kamu nak,kami dengar,
cintagila: haa...! itu lebih baik!

begini, haha tiba tiba teringin juga nak menyurakan pendapat tentang isu ini, setelah selesai class social science tadi,kebetulan pula,ada forum berkaitan isu ini, apa yang amat intriguing adalah pada saya lebih kepada cara ahli panel mengupas isu poligami ini,sangat tepat,ringkas dan kurang emosi,tahniah!

alors(so in french) suddenly it remind me on my stand dalam isu poligami ni,mendengar forum tadi terus mengingat kan saya dengan forum lain pasal poligami between me and abang masa bujang dulu,kat mamak tentang orang yang kahwin banyak ni,

"abang nak kawin ramai la nanti kakak,biar meriah sikit rumah mama,kita kan sikit,"

"haha,boleh eh macam tu abang?macam tak senonoh je"

"apa yang tak senonohnya,inilah mentaliti kakak orang perempuan semua dah blocked by all this malay drama, poligami ni mesti gaduh gaduh tarik tarik rambut, ini lah masalah besar orang perempuan"

"kenapa pulak,eh bukan salah drama,memang betul apa,drama tu kan ambik dari kisah benar"

"ahh itu semua memanglah,cuba kakak tengok,yang bergaduh gaduh tu semua,mana taknya,kahwin dengan GRO,perempuan indon,semua yang tak semenggah buat bini,memanglah gaduh cuba la cari perempuan elok,cikgu ke,andartu yang semenggah sikit ke,perempuan yang elok lah,mesti okay punya tak kan la begaduh gaduh ni,"

*betul jugak,cakap dalam hati..

"lagipun kakak tengok,kadang kadang memanglah,duit tak seberapa,nak kawin lain,kerja tak stabil,nak kawin,bini sorang pun tak terlayan,nak kawin,haa yang tu tak boleh la,tapi kalau yang mampu,yang adil, perempuan yang nak jadi calon bini kedua tu pun semenggah,kenapa semua orang perempuan tak nak?"

"ahh,memang la mula mula kawin nanti adil,lama lama mula la lupa,orang lelaki selalu macamtu,"
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please again,especially the ladies,please read my entry with liberal thinking, for me personally,ni cuma pendapat saya sahaja,if you disagree,its ok,and if you do agree with me pun,alhamdulillah! gimme five! ok kiding

but then again,i personally do think,tak kisah jika my future husband nanti nak berpoligami,tapi atas berberapa T&C:-

i)saya kena kenal betul betul suami saya luar dan dalam,untuk menilai mampukah dia untuk berpoligami,boleh kah dia berlaku adil nanti,materialnya cukup atau tidak,

ii)saya harus kenal bakal isteri suami saya nanti,perempuan itu haruslah pandai menghormati saya,ikhlas berkahwin dengan suami saya,menyayangi anak anak saya,tidak mempunyai agenda,baik latar belakang,agama,keluarga,

jika 2 syarat ini di penuhi,my future husband dapatlah berpoligami,haa untung kan suami i kan kan?
but semua ini bukan la saya putuskan atas dasar suka suka,kepada my future husband to be:berkahwin lebih dari dengan saya seorang bukan lah satu tugas mudah,harus jadi seperti nabi,yang bijak dan bukannya mempergunakan kuasa yang allah beri dengan melulu, jangan juga mengunakan sunnah,jangan mempermain kan islam demi kehendak sendiri,ok sayang?

memang betul the ladies ramai yang akan berkata,

Q:"kau gila ke nak kongsi suami kau dengan orang lain?"
A: bukan semua,saya memilih,

jangan lah berkata perempuan yang menulis entry ini telah tersampuk hasutan manis lelaki atau apa pun,saya hidup cara realistik,berapa ramai perempuan baik yang molek keturunan,akhlak tinggal sendiri tidak berkahwin hari ini?nak harapkan lelaki bujang yang betul betul straight berapa kerat lah sangat kan?tidak masuk lagi yang menginap di pusat serenti instead di universiti,orang kata tempat cari jodoh terbaik masa berada di sana,tapi kalau yang tinggal cuma boleh di bilang,dan yang lurus lebih kurang dari yang bengkok,bukankah poligami satu option?

sehingga akhir entri ini,jika ia belum boleh mengubah your stand dalam hal ini,tidak mengapa sebab ini cuma perkongsian saya sebagai wanita dan hidup secara realistic.

statement: *dapat payung emasss perempuan ni,ish*
cintagila:insyaallah,perempuan harus bijak,ada dua; jangan lah setuju tanpa usul periksa,ia akan menyiksa,dan jangan lah menentang keras kerasan,sebab ia ada dalam al quran.

that's all,until something is written here again,au revoir!

psst*ada lagi satu trick,saya akan jaga suami saya tip top sampai dia tak nak cari lain,kemudian buat buat tanya "abang nak kahwin lagi?" hehe,senyum nakal,

scars by allison iraheta.my current favourite song

2010-04-01T06:13:00.000-07:00

kisah cinta hidup dan sekeping dark chocolate.

2010-03-29T05:07:00.000-07:00

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forget about the one who doesn't. And believe that everything happens for reasons. if u get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

oh,yes yes,i am now concentrating to feel thoe quotes,sambil munching cokolat pahit,want some?

till then,au revoir!

what made you stands out from the other.confession pt2.

2010-03-27T10:18:00.000-07:00

"if there is another one,just the same,just as nice,charming, as you.."

if there is anything i am so bad at,
its love.

haven't i tried my best to be good at it?
damn yes! but i'm just one unlucky person.bukan tak cuba,so many times believe me, but could somebody explain to me what am i feeling right now,is it a syndrome or a problem?

pengakuan1 :

i did fall for someone few years back,i still remember that is the first time,i fell for someone that deep,although i did have a few crush back then,but first time we talk i dont know why did my heart beating so hard,why did i stop breathing,why i smile all alone,why i just want to keep talking to him,why did i wait for him every single time,why did i feel so comfortable,why did i feel i could be my slobbish self,without faking anything,why did i feel i could spill my deepest thought, my complaints,why did i feel those things could somebody tell me,how did this happen and why?

pengakuan2:

although i must say,he is one person i should not be in love with, and part of me forbid myself to love him,another part of me is full with uncertainty,but i dont care, i've made up my mind,what ever happen,i want to be with this men. the truth is loving him is way harder than it looks, so i gave up,it kills me to do that,but i have to,

pengakuan 3:

moving on is hard.getting over someone you love the most is hardest. i tried to open up to other love,but why do all of them could not made my heart beating so hard and stop me from breathing,made me smile all alone,made me just want to keep talking to him,couldn't made me wait for him every single time,made me feel so comfortable,made me believed i could be my slobbish self,without faking anything,to be someone i could spill my deepest thought,why did i do not feel those things with the others but just him,could somebody tell me why? is so not over him is the exact word?

i don't know but as i get through aand push myself to get over him,my deepest voice will always says
"if there is another one,just the same,just as nice,charming, as you..thats enough i wont ask for anything else."
i wish if there is a soul mate for everyone and one kept just for me.

positive thinking*i am so like jeniffer aniston that is trying to get over brad pitt:)

till something is written here again,au revoir(oo-rey-vou-ar,=bye,dah tau kan?)

confession of a broken heart

2010-03-27T01:20:00.000-07:00

"in life,i'd likely to be torned mostly by two things,love and my family"-ct shahidatul akmal

antara perkara perkara yang jarang untuk saya ketengahkan di khalayak,adalah

cinta
and my personal life.

sebab kedua dua perkara ini sering buat saya sedih,jika ditanya dalam perkara yang menyedihkan dalam hidup jawapan saya adalah

cinta
and my family.

walhal kedua dua ini sepatutnya menjadi perkara yang membawa kegembiraan dalam hidup seorang manusia bukan?tapi from my point of view,tidak.ingat atau tidak bahawa i always stressed out in any of my stories about non other from my brother.my brother,and my sole brother. sebab we're attached to each other since we're litle lagi.we always depends on each other(it will always be me) we'll keep each others secrets,we take care of each other sebab kalau tidak kami sudah lama jadi anak bermasalah,merempit di jalan jalan,menjadi bohsia mungkin,schools drop out, di mana kah ibu & bapa kami?itulah yang menjadi persoalan.dari luar,saya selalu menceritakan dongeng bertapa bahagianya my personal life,but saya perlu mengaku,mungkin kalau tidak kerana tuhan..

please read my confession with liberal thinking,for those who have a picture perfect family,but for those who are in the same shoes as mine,maybe you would understand,

pengakuan 1:

saya hanya menulis.sebab hanya blog ini yang saya ada,ini bukan lah bertujuan untuk membuka pekung di dada mahupun apa,its just a long sigh from my deeper inside,i do believe marriage isn't a simple task,in order to get married one needs to ensure that the other half is perfectly right to live with you forever or otherwise it will turns out just the same as mine,bila keduanya tidak serasi tapi masih hidup bersama for the sake of 'anak-anak' with thought that children akan membesar secara normal,~~shit!pegi jahanam itu semua.~~you'll only damaging them you might not see it physically,but phsycologically.truth confession from me,one who live in a family just like this.

pengakuan2:

failed parenting.
saya tegaskan di sini,menjadi ibu bapa bukan lah suatu kerja mudah,dan perkahwinan bukan satu perjudian.bila ia di anggap perjudian di situlah nanti semua kesilapan akan berlaku,berkahwin dan membina keluarga bukan seperti berjudi tikam nasib,tapi ia adalah simpanan untuk masa depan,bila anda memilih dengan teliti,merancang keluarga sebaiknya,ia akan menjadi asset buat diri anda sendiri di masa hadapan,
berapa ramai hari ini dapat kita lihat kes kes sosial yang sebenarnya berpunca dari rumah,mereka yang datang from a broken family,itu semua adalah kegagalan paling besar dari ibu bapa dalam parenting skill mereka,bersyukurlah buat this failed parents jika dengan segala kegagalan sistem mentadbir keluarga,anak anak masih membesar dengan sempurna,tetapi muhasabah lah diri jika kesan yang di alami sekarang hanyalah berpunca dari failed parenting. seperti pengalaman yang saya alami,saya akui,sebab saya dan abang masih kuat hari ini adalah kerana kami,mahu menjadi kuat,

pengakuan 3:

kadangkala saya terfikir jika setiap hari bergaduh di depan anak anak,apa yang ibu bapa ini fikirkan sebenarnya?tidakkah mereka malu, ~~sometimes i wish "why wont they divorced earlier,it wont hurt this much"~~
walau apa pun yang saya katakan,bukanlah bermakna saya benci kedua ibu dan bapa saya,mereka yang sama dalam situasi ini juga harus begitu,saya pernah terdengar kata kata seorang ustaz,"anak anak yang berada dalam keluarga yang sebegini tidak harus mempersoalkan takdir allah kenapa mereka di lahirkan dalam keluarga sedemikian,kerana allah tahu,setiap anak anak yang di lahirkan dalam keluarga sebegini adalah seorang yang kuat,dan allah punya hikmahnya atas segala yang dia tentukan"
cuma bila teringat dan sedih.saya selalu berjanji dalam diri "i wont be like them,if i were to be a parent one day sebab saya tidak akan membiarkan ia berulang sebagai mana ia menyakiti saya"

terima kasih kerana mendengar.kepada yang mempunyai keluarga yang sangat bahagia beruntunglah dan bersyukur setiap hari kepada tuhan,kepada yang tidak,bersabar dan jangan ulangi kesilapan mereka,:)

my confession ends here.until something is written here again...

doodling my heart away.

2010-03-25T09:04:00.000-07:00

-i doodle to shhhuh my stress away-

bonsoir! bukan bonjour,bonsoir =selamat malam,dalam french language ade dua main greetings iaitu bonjour=selamat pagi (merangkap dari terbitnya fajar sehingga terbenamnya matahari) dan selepas itu mostly they'll use bonsoir,bahasa pasar pun ada juga,seperti bonne nuit,something-something,

so repeat after me,sebelum tu please have a look a your watch,and say,bonsoir!

good.

macam sharainteresting,adorabella, which is my blogger friends,semua entry berkisar kepada bertapa menyiksakan belajar degree ni,dear friends,sumpah! i feel it too,so my way of get ridding stress is by doddling,tengok atas.

bila saya bosan saya doodle,bila saya happy saya doodle,bila sayah marah saya doodle(tapi mungkin anda pun tak 'hingin' nak tengok what i've doodle'd that particular time,) bila saya blur saya doodle,and range of doodle 'an saya well..lets say depends on what my brain says at that time,but favourite selalunya,love-love(*aku wanita biasa,memang suka benda benda love love ni),kadang kadang flowers,kadang kadang bintang,
but!

TRIVIA!

siapa kawan dengan saya waktu diploma dahulu pasti tahu,bahawa saya ada tabiat doodle yang aneh,iaitu saya suka doodle signature merata rata sesuka rasa,haa! hebat kan,tak percaya?pergi check buku siapa siapa yang selalu sit besides me,believe it ripleys memang penuh buku mereka dengan signature saya,kenapa saya macam tu? jangan tanya.sebab saya pun unsure.the thing i know is i love my long signature.*thanks ma&pa bagi nama panjang panjang,*

so,that was the story behind the scence,ecehh! penghasilan karya di atas,
i dont know,doodling may looked like an act of messing out your life,eh! no,i mean books,note or what do i care,but believe me it is so tranquiling for my soul just to be able to doodle in all piece of paper pass infront me,

sebab saya seorang librarian jadi terbaca artikel phsycology ni yang meng'decode' setiap doodle'an kita,but they only featured things yang people commonly buat lah kan,macam

kalau kamu doodle:-

hati= maknanya maybe person yang doodle itu kurang cinta @kasih sayang,ataupun! telah menemuinya and so unbelievably happy!

flower= maknanya anda sedang menuju kedewasaan dengan berubah dari segala aspek diri and,seperti pesonality,pemikiran,

rumah= if you doodle rumah,ada dua pulak,i)rumah cantik or ii) rumah tak cantik, kalau rumah cantik,it means like your life at home is good however kalau you doodle rumahtak cantik it means yang kehidupan you kat rumah ada kurenggg sikit la,camtu.*exceptional kepada yang tangan tak bedung sebab what way korang lukis pun memang buruk,percayalah.

lastly
orang lidi= ia melambang kan diri anda sendiri,in a way kalau you doodle banyak orang lidi,dalam satu kelompok,it means yang you bahagia sebab ramai kawan,if not maknanya mungkin you kurang bersosial.:)

so that's all facts yang i baca dan share dengan all of you,if anyone ada info lagi interesting post je kat comment,no hal lah!

*until something is written here again,au revoir!=bye!

je sui truquer français!: i am faking french

2010-03-23T07:48:00.000-07:00

hello! or in french we dont say like usuall hello?! but we got the silent H,so that means that we say allo! haa faham semua?hehe

so from now on,you'll be learning a lot of french just via reading my blog! how good is that? it's kinda lawatan sambil belajar la,lebih kurang..:)

kalau dulu bahasa dalam cintagila journal of a single girl maybe in random english or malay mengikut sesuka hati tuan nya,thank god it became worse now! you have to read it in random english, malay and french !
*grammatical errors included*

je m'appelle ct shahidatul akmal
je sui malaysienne
je sui vangt deuxonz
j'habite a kuala lumpur
j'aime le cinema et je n'aime le sports,
j'aime aussi les couleurs rouge mais je n'aime pas les couleurs noir,
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maksudnya:-

my name is ct shahidatul akmal
i am a malaysian
i am 22 years old
i live in kuala lumpur
i love watching movies and i hate sports
i also love red color but i hate black color.

*actually all this sentences may look silly but i'm preparing for my individual presentation of myself called self expose',10 sentences,short ones,so that is why when translated it look like i am a 7 years old girl talking.cute aren't i?hehe

like i've said before this sentences may contains grammatical errors,so to those yang excellent in frech do add comments if you think there's better conjugaizon=conjugation yah! tq!

by the way currently i am so in love with this song,it's in korean.not french.i told ya i am universal.:)

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till something is written again here,bye love!:)

mari lah mari!!

2010-03-21T04:26:00.000-07:00

bonjour!
comment alle vous?
ca va eh?
bien2,

hahahahhahahahahahahahha
ahh maaf ,it's rude no?laughing like that?
hai everyone,its been a loong time since last year,there' no new entry published here,
sebenarnya i tak tulis apa apa pun lagi,saja ja nak bragg kat all of you haa,cantik tak cantik tak??

tiba tiba baru 'mari' pulak mood nak renovate blog yang sudah pun lama usang ini,
thanks to shabbyblogs dot com yang telah merealisasikan impian saya! terima kasih!! saya sangat terharu ..tolonglah faham*drama queen kau,dush!*

so,tengok lah tengoklah,are you feeling like you're seating in a vintage bookstore in paris and take a good sip of caramel latte' my friends! bau buku buku vintage bercampur bauh harum latte di waktu musim salji yang sejuk,turun rintik rintik,dapatkah kau rasa sahabat!*naik sheikh*

by the way,thats all,thanks for reading and watching as for my bragging session ends here.merci beaucoup =which means french cakap thank you so much,

till something is written again here,atutaller friends!:)

cutest creature of all time,
mademoselle c.i.n.t.a.g.i.l.a

first impression stays.but not for too long.

2009-10-03T08:31:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 11.35pm,bandar baru kundang,sg.buloh,

1. bila kita sudah kenal orang lama lama,mereka tidaklah segempak dan sehebat as we tend to think masa baru mula mula kenal,alas,cool tak cool kawan kau jugak"

-ct shahidatul akmal,facebook
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2."lelaki handsome vs lelaki biasa "

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assalamualaikum fellow bloggers!
oh ya,selamat..selamat..haha hari raya ada lagi kan?
and happy wishes for you my '1 malaysia' friends!

ok since i am very busy(*sempat pula blogging,)
but i dont care i want to write it here so i could rest in peace then,
maybe some of you my readers darling tak dapat relate,
between ayat 1 dengan ayat number 2,
ok since i am very busy,ok ahh mari i jelaskan,you guys duduk baca saja okay?

okay,
are we ready?
and the story goes like this,
kita semua selalu dengar cliche macam first impression is very important for us,no matter,untuk job interview ke,dating guys or women,or maybe to at least show your self to others,untuk hebah kan pada semua orang,hey its me,

so there we go,we will try our best'est to developed our first impression,ok jangan tipu kata no,i'm just born with it,maybe its maybelline..bla..bla..kita sedar atau mungkin bawah sedar telah developed impression people kepada diri kita sendiri,the way we dressed,mau kelihatan hip,atau muslimah,atau intelek,apa sahaja, dan on the other way round, kita juga sedang judge orang lain atas impression mereka juga,

for instance as i am so busy and tapi entry ni makin panjang,its my subconcious mind i swear!
ok sambung balik,for instance,when we first met other people,new people, impression pertama sudah pun di buat,cuma terpulang jika kita menyuarakannya macam

"dia sombong tapi macam hip,budak bandar!",
"waaa,kacaknya,he must be very eligible untuk masuk list calon suami gua".
itu yang di suarakan.atau di nyatakan.

ada juga yang di suarakan tapi dalam hati macam "...... huh.... "
sebab dia dalam hati maka tak nampak text dia,titik titik sahaja,

tapi adakah kita sedar,bila kita dah lama kenal,hati budi orang itu, first impression pada mula tadi mana dia pergi mungkin?

membina first impression penting.a good one, its like a kick start to start of something,a relationship, a conversation, communication tools between human to human, because we human like good things, so if the first impression baik,kita akan memulakan hubungan dengan cepat dan mudah,by time..dan bila orang kenal siapa kita yang sebenarnya,tak kiralah most annoying habit yang kita ada, who would gave a damn anymore?

first impression stays but not long lasting macam lipstick,maybelline.

dan kenapa ia berkait dengan ayat number 2?

okay,maybe some of you knows,i got a crush on this super duper uber handsome guy which i met on facebook,and i cant figure it out i'm just too obsessed with him,stalking?ohh itu lagi lah dah basi,so i planned him to get to know me,haha mastermind..its not an easy task i'll say,pusing kiri pusing kanan,atas bawah, matlamat menghalalkan cara,so i use every thing and way just to get to know him,

well my plan worked!
and we start to flirt and i so admit urgh..lelaki handsome sangat berlagak..a little when he get to know me,and first time dalam hidup i,i turunkan saham i just to get him! its like a game,i want the grand prize,sebelum ni i yang demand,and lelaki yang kejar i ok?*terbelagak pula.

so i dapat dia,tapi i perasan,dia main tarik tali..kejap suka,kejap tidak,geram pun ada,
kecewa la kejap,tapi..makin lama i kenal lelaki handsome tersebut..i know,usaha i beriya iya selama ni,buang masa sahaja,dia bukan lah se handsome rupa dia,

personality:k.o
humour:ok laa..biasa je
sensitivity:kantoi,its like i pulak kene sensitif pasal dia,
character:out.

so yang tinggal,wajah handsome dia sahaja lah..

orang kata lelaki tak handsome lagi baik buat stock boyfriend,

hmm..ye la kot.

moral of the story,first impression and the end result.could be totally different in certain circumstances.refer ayat 1.

ok tu je.pendek kan?

satu.dua.tiga.
he's just not my type.silly silly.haha

khairy jamaluddin jadi actor?

2009-09-08T19:07:00.000-07:00

satu.dua.tiga.
filem malaysia haruslah jujur.tahniah k.j! real kau berlakon.

apa yang dah jadi sehingga entri ini ditulis.

2009-08-18T19:09:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 10:13 am on this cute alphabet table,alone in the room,141 baiduri college,uitm segamat johor..

hello all!
assalamualaikumm..
tak jawab dosa,
but to non muslims,
its okay,no need to answer salam tu,
let me greet you with good morning! is that okay with you?

dah lama tinggalkan blog ni,bersawang dah,tu la datang bersih bersihkan sikit,kemas kemas apa yang patut..kalau dulu,bukan main,asal terlintas je menulis,asal menulis je,haa tu maknanya idea mencurah la tu,well di sini cintagila di kenali sebagai "penulis ayat surat khabar" sebab kecenderungan menulis panjang berjela,hehe..

cintagila ni orangnya jenis kalau suka sesuatu benda tu,akan di 'hadap' nye la benda tu,dan kalau dah jumpa benda baru yang lebih menarik nanti,yang lama tinggal macam tu je,bak kata orang tua tua;
"habis madu sepah di buang"
ceh,related ke?relevan ke?
boleh la,

jadi bila melihat bloggers yang lain aktif menyumbang saran idea mereka di sini,terfikirlah,kalau tulis satu entry pun does not harm anybody kan?

jadi tema entri kali ini adalah untuk recap balik apa yang dah jadi sehingga la entri ini ditulis,
hidup kat sini bukan baru sehari dua,it has been almost 3 years dah duk sini,jadi macam macam jadi,mungkin akan ada orang yang berkata alah diploma je kot,atau apa sangat yang happen in your life kat segamat nun?
well in that case,you don't know anything,i'm only 19 when i first reach segamat and tengok keadaan segamat macamana,dan sehingga entry ni di tulis,i am 21 years old,dan sepanjang garis masa itu,macam macam yang berlaku,kadang kadang dia nampak macam bodoh,kadang kadang sangat memberi kesan,kadang kadang it made me smile bila kenangkan balik,and i'm so proud nak cerita dalam journal bagi anak cucu suma baca nanti,

untuk lebih menarik,mari kita susun ikut number,*kepada sesiapa yang terlibat dalam cerita ini,this is for research purpose only,not meant to bring any harm or extreme humiliation,*

1.part 1-ingat tak ada seorang budak ni menangis ketika first self bought pendrive dia hilang,dan esok nak hantar assignment en,yamin?haha pendrive 1 gb tu, time tu mahal tau! dan hazliza haris dan nabila yasmin,serta hasmah abu kassim pakat ramai ramai tolong cari,haha siapakah orang tu?cuba teka?hahahahaha

2.menjadi exco 'sampah' masa DIIM INFOART FEST,dan dengan malunya kutip sampah keliling tapak karnival,cuba teka siapa?haha clue:orang yang sama dengan statement 1,

3.biasalah.lumrah alam ketika remaja,*masa tu gila fresh junior* adalah seorang perempuan comel ni kan..teramat meminati seorang senior ketika itu,abang ramzi,YDP DIIM SOCIETY,*yang sekarang dikenali sebagai IMS JOHOR* kat mana dia ada situ la kami mencapap,haha tapi memang diakui la dia cute sebab senyum dia boleh bikin hati cairrr..belle?igt tak?haha

4.dan seorang lagi perempuan comel,a friend of mine jugak,minattt sangattt dengan seorang lagi senior,abang aidil,dah grad pun dia,dan kerana terlalu minat sangat sampai sanggup amik gambar curi dan bila dah kantoi dengan the boyfriend,taddaaa!
"mak ety yang minat kat die ayang,bukan orang,"
okay,aku yang minat die la pulak~tak pa lah..cover punya pasal,ingat tak liz?hehe

5.belle jatuh cinta dengan fadil?boleh kira menarik jugak~sebab i still do remember belle memang tengah angau that time,they first met masa INFOART FEST tu jugak la,then bermula laa bibit bibit ..haha fadil bagi hint masa you sama sama dengan i dari k.l nak balik segamat kan?hehe belle jangan marah haa..

6.ada sekali tu buat kerja gila,ronda uitm kul 3 pagi,boleh tak?sebab time tu roomate to a friend of mine pass out,so nak tak nak terpaksa la hantar dia ke PENAWAR,siap boleh gaduh dengan doktor sebab tak nak terima patient malam malam,adakah patut?dan time tu first time angkat orang pengsan.berat dia macamana?tak payah cerita.sumpah berat.best kan liz,thanks to habib sebab sudi jadi driver bertugas malam itu~

7.haa,yang ni pun best jugak,part 2-masa tu kena beratur panjaaaaaaaang kat ATM machine nak keluarkan duit,jadi me and the gang yang pandai ni pun,keluarlah dengan saranan berikut 'korang,ada bus uitm ni,jom kita keluar cucuk kat luar nak?free,tak payah tambang,cepat sikit,' lepas fikir fikir,semua setuju,alkisah..kami pun dengan naifnya naik lah bus tersebut,tapi yang menghairankan,kenapa la tak sampai sampai bandar ni,rupanya..bus tu hantar student balik JEMENTAH sahaja,dan ia pun patah balik ke uitm dengan jayanya,so begitulah,orang tamak selalu rugi,dengan malunya,kami pun bertatur la balik dengan panjang di ATM machine tadi..sengal kan?

8.first time saw orang betul betul patah hati, depan mata,ada seorang perempuan comel ni,(kawan kawan cintagila semuanya comel),nangis tengah tengah dataran seri bedahara tu,coz she saw her newly broke up boyfriend jalan dengan another babe,terus on the spot,right there right then dia nangis sekuat hati,so we decided untuk pulang ke kolej,dan batal kan niat nak tengok konsert kat depan malam tu~tapi good news that girl yang nangis tu dah happy sekarang kan liz?

9.part4-first time dapat classmate suka pengsan,kakak lily,ingat lagi masa on the way nak gi class and she collapsed tengah tengah jalan nak pergi SL tu,then bella dengan gracefully jerit "KAK LILY COLLAPSED!" hahaha,
but till now,its still bothering me,kenapa time lawatan yang penat penat jauh jauh tu dia tak pengsan pulak?

10.part 5-visual basic.ingat lagi tak?itulah kali pertama stress yang real,betul betul stress di rasai oleh cintagila,selama ni cuma dengar stress,or just suffers from mild stress,tapi masa buat final project VB tu la memang fuh..tabik spring,memang tension habis,sengkang mata mengadap laptop ramai ramai,but~i got A! in fact the whole group members did! suke! i would say part 5 is the most critical time of all to me,sebab i don't know,maybe sebab i just recover from patah hati that time,lepas habis je final paper part 5,terus menjerit macam dah habis paper part 6 pulak kan?!haha

so..itu je lah yang mampu di senaraikan dari ribuan kenangan manis,masin kelat,dalam 3 tahun tinggal di uitm johor ni..kalau ada yang kata 'kau ni kecoh la' atau 'what ever',it's up to you.but for me,3 tahun tinggal di uitm segamat bukan hanya sekadar duduk jauh terpencil di dalam hutan..tetapi pengalaman berada di luar zon selesa,bergaul dengan ramai orang dan kenal wajah wajah manusia.tidak kiralah jujur atau plastik.

waktu conv0cation nanti saat menyanyikan lagu uitm di hatiku..i will remember it as my benchmark to my life satisfaction,pada 21 tahun kehidupan saya,dapatlah saya berbangga,saya telah berjaya hidup di luar zon selesa diri saya.

satu.dua.tiga.
tak sabar nak baling topi bila convo nanti.*senyum simpul~

apa pandangan politik saya?

2009-08-01T02:23:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 5.26pm,33,jln bbk/119,sg.buloh,selangor,

may have i said anything further,please have a look on what i try to show you below.
something related to help you to improve your understanding later on..

if you asked me?where do i stand in all of these political blah's?

my answer would be
i am a free thinker.

if you asked me why so?

my anwer would be
sebab orang politik ni semua sama saja.
lagipun..politik malaysia rigid.

bagaimana pun anda menjerit,melaung laung,dan mungkin pediss,terkena gas pemedih mata,in the end of the day..majority wins, campur segala rasuah,'kung kali kung', dan penguasaan media,well i could say that politik malaysia tidaklah segempak mana.

mungkin anda semua masih ingat peristiwa reformasi 1998?

terus terang,waktu semua rakyat malaysia mula sedar yang kita perlukan perubahan,dan mula keluar di jalan-jalan,saya turut bersama mereka waktu itu,ya.waktu itu saya cuma berusia 10 tahun.trust me.saya turut menyertai perhimpunan dari masjid negara,melaung-laungkan,"turun mahathir! undur-undur! mahathir undur" dan masih jelas di ingatan,semangat berkobar kobar mendengar ucapan timbalan,atau bekas timbalan perdana menteri ketika itu,sejurus beliau di pecat,menceritakan tentang titik perubahan mentaliti politik rakyat malaysia yang harus berubah,rakyat telah di perbodohkan,dan rakyat punya kuasa untuk merubahnya.

masih juga jelas,bagaimana selepas itu,munculnya satu revolusi,semacam satu gelombang..tiba tiba rakyat malaysia yang dahulunya diam,secara tiba tiba,naik semangatnya,bagai di tiup tiup,
"yaa! guling kan mahathir! org tua tak sedar diri!!",macam macam nama digelar buat beliau,
mahazalim,firaun tua,hebatnya gelombang waktu itu,gelombang reformasi!
REFORMASI! REFORMASI!

mungkin selepas itulah I.S.A digunapakai kembali selepas ia di simpan di 'peti' tamatnya zaman komunis,I.S.A adalah akta keselamatan dalam negeri yang bertujuan untuk menahan sesiapa jua yang mengancam keselamatan negara,ia nya berupa suatu tahanan yang tidak memerlukan pesalah di bicarakan,mungkin pada waktu itu,I.S.A adalah cara terbaik,untuk memberi pengajaran kepada komunis komunis agar mereka tahu dengan siapa mereka cari angkara,

malangnya,merujuk kes yang berlaku pada tahun 1998,wujudnya secara drastik gelombang rakyat yang tiba tiba mahukan perubahan ini telah mengejutkan penguasa ketika itu,yang telah terbiasa dengan rakyat berpemikiran seperti selepas merdeka,sebaliknya,mereka (pihak penguasa ) telah terlepas pandang,yang rakyat sudah semakin maju,golongan golongan pasca merdeka yang lebih terbuka pemikiran,dan golongan patriotis sejati sudah uzur,dan pemikiran baru mengambil tempat,seperti bom jangka yang hanya menunggu satu butang untuk di tekan,muncul nya,tragedi pemecatan,bekas timbalan perdana menteri itu,telah menaikkan kemarahan rakyat,kerana tidak dapat tidak beliau telah berjaya menyebar dan memukau rakyat dengan karisma beliau,serta imej yang di tampilkan,

dan untuk memastikan gelombang ini lebih hangat,semangat orang muda khususnya mahasiswa di bakar,abang saya yang ketika itu mahasiswa undang undang di salah sebuah institusi pengajian tinggi,juga turut bersemangat,mungkin itu sebab saya turut ikut gelombang ini,ketika itu ayah saya seorang polis dan penyokong kerajaan,bayangkan,namun kami tetap rebel,harus di ingatkan peristiwa reformasi 1998 juga mendapat liputan dunia,kerana ini kali pertama,berlaku penentangan seumpamanya di negara ini,

justeru untuk mengekang gelombang ini,media harus main peranan,media massa,cetak dan elektronik,di sekat,dengan harapan gelombang ini akan lenyap,dan cara keduanya adalah menggunakan senjata lama,iaitu international security act,I.S.A,semua pemimpin gelombang yang berpengaruh di tahan,semua siri siri demonstrasi jalanan di ibu negara selepas itu,pasti di kawal dengan barisan unit pencegah anti rusuhan,mungkin itu juga kali pertama rakyat malaysia yang turut rebel di jalanan merasa apa rasanya kalau terkena gas pemedih mata,

seperti namanya juga gelombang,dan ia nya berlaku di malaysia,nampaknya setelah asakan bertubi tubi,orang orang kuat gelombang di tahan,maka sedikit demi sedikit gelombang ini beransur reda..ketika itu mungkin saya belum pandai menafsir,cuma ikut ikutan idealisme orang,tapi sekarang..saya adalah pemikir bebas,

pada dasarnya,gelombang ini mungkin kelihatan seperti satu gegaran kecil dalam struktur pemikiran dan idealisme politik masyarakat era baru pasca merdeka,tetapi pada rajah keseluruhannya,ianya seperti 'wake up call' buat pemerintah,bahawa rakyat mulai 'alert' pada persekitaran,kesedaran hak hak mereka,media juga sudah tidak mampu di sekat dengan kehadiran arus media baru seperti ini,laman-laman blog,

sungguhpun era itu sudah berakhir,dan kini setelah 11 tahun berlalu dan perdana menteri satu malaysia menyarankan penilaian semula I.S.A,
budaya demonstrasi jalan yang sudah terlekat,dan sebati dengan rakyat malaysia ini sekali lagi digunakan oleh kedua pihak samada pro atau anti akta ini,

jika anda tanya,apakah pendirian saya,
jawapan saya seorang rakyat malaysia yang berumur 21 tahun dan layak mendaftar untuk mengundi adalah i am a free thinker.tidak menetang kemajuan atau menerima bulat bulat segalanya,

ISA pada saya adalah senjata negara,ia mempunyai kegunaan in term of national security,seperti penahanan ahli HINDRAF,ianya amat berguna untuk pengkhianat seperti itu,tetapi kadangkala ianya juga bagaikan serampang senjata politik untuk menyumbat musuh musuh politik penguasa tertentu.jika saya di tanya apakah saya pro atau anti ISA?jawapan saya ISA itu senjata negara,perlu ada tapi harus pandai guna.tak perlu jerit jerit di jalan atau hantar memorandum segala,macam kata orang tua tua,senjata itu harus pandai guna,kena cara,kena gaya,kalau senjata salah guna,salah gaya,silap silap telahan,senjata mampu makan tuan.

satu.dua.tiga.
marilah bicara soal idealisme.i'm a free thinker.

fair enough.

2009-07-23T23:58:00.000-07:00

If I Were A Boy (Remix) (ft. R. Kelly) Lyrics

If I were a boyeven just for a day

I'd roll out of bed in the morning

and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys

and chase after girls

I'd kick it with who I wanted

and I'd never get confronted for it cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

(R. Kelly)If you were a boy

then girl you'd understand

you need to stop listening to your friends

love, respect and trust your man

So I go to clubs with the guys

and sometimes flirt with the girls

I should be able to roll out

as long as

Im coming home to you

and give you the world

But you are not a boy,

so you dont have a clue (ey)

How I work and pay the bills

girl everything I do is for you (eh eh)

(Beyonce)I'd listen to her Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a Boy (Beyonce)

If I were a Girl (Kelly)

I would turn off my phone (Beyonce)

I wouldn't play games (Kelly)

Tell everyone it's broken so they'd think that I was sleeping alone (Beyonce)

Girl you know thats wrong (Kelly)

I’d put myself firstand make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,waiting for me to come home,

to come home.

But you are not a boy,so you can't understand

You are not a perfect woman

and I am not a perfect man (remix,remix)

I'd listen to her (eh eh)

Cause I know how it hurts

(Kelly: and I know how you feel)

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

Kelly: Said Im sorry

It's a little too late for you to come back

but I cant let you go cause Im too attached (Kelly)

If you thought I would wait for youyou thought wrong

But you're just a boy

phabia.

2009-07-21T04:57:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 7:58 pm,infront of my y'olde' notebook,141 nilam college,uitm johor.

phabia:(fa-bee-a);noun; which is aprroximately similar to phobia,which is an ultimatum fear and hatred feeling,at the highest stakes a human being could possibly imagine.

phabia vs phobia.
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kedua-dua nya mungkin kelihatan serupa,memang serupa pun,cuma phabia tu versi ayah kakak iparku untuk sebut phobia,haha biasalah..orang dah umur umur ni..kadang kadang suka mereka sahaja mem'pronounce' kan sesuatu perkataan sesedap rasa..beliau yang di maksudkan adalah khamis,(bukan nama sebenar),
*cerita ini tiada kaitan antara yang telah hidup mahupun yang telah mati*

contoh ayat dia adalah:
(pak khamis) :"pak dah phabia nak duk sebelah ngan mak hang"
*sebab mak kakak iparku dah beberapa kali langgar tiang masa nak undoq kereta.

jadi jelaslah di sini,phabia itu amat bersesuaian dengan definisi di atas,suatu perasaan takut,atau kebencian yang amat sangat! haa,kenapa dengan semua cerita cerita rakyat ni?
sebab itu lah yang beta rasakan sekarang.
phabia.sebut betui betui.phabia

kenapa phabia?
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kalian pasti tahu,status di buku muka(facebook),dan di tweet tweet,tempat burung bercicip tu pun tertulis,susah hati.ramai yang tanya khabar jurus status itu terbit.thanks guys for your adorable concern.nothing much.cuma tu la.ramai yang tanya kenapa saya susah hati,ye la..tahulah saya kerana saya ini adalah jolly goody riang riang raya person selalunya,jadi apabila saya susah hati ramai lah yang susah hati memikirkan kenapa orang seriang saya menjadi susah di hati,

terus terang.memang saya susah hati.saya susah hati kerana phabia,pisang berbuah dua kali,phabia,kalau kalau semester ini saya tak dapat melakukan yang terbaik.habislah impian saya untuk dekan...tidakkkk!

okay enough la cintagila,kau punya phabia tu,get back to work.now!

*entri ni pendek,sebenarnya banyak lagi nak cakap but since,this blog is a public figure eh,silap,is viewable through world wide web,so,maybe i'll keep the rest with me,dalam hati.ohh it hurts.but it's okay.i'm fine.

satu.dua.tiga.
saya phabia.phabia.phabia!

nota-nota hari semester akhir.

2009-07-05T08:17:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 1.45 am,141 college nilam uitm segamat.johor..

assalamualaikum!
arrived home already!
so soon?
haa magic kan??
eleh..tak da lah magic mana pun actually..
jawapannya mudah saja,
ptptn dah masuk,so k.l-segamat jadi dekat,sepantas kilat hamba sampai,berdesup perginya!

mm..jangan lah pelik mahupun hairan mengapa tarikh bikin entry itu berbeza,ceritanya begini..alkisah..si penulis ni mengambil masa yang lama untuk menyudahkan entry ini,alah si cintagila itu lah,busy lah,tak ada masa lah,kata beliau..iyalah cik cintagila oii..

jadi sementelah menunggu idea yang tak muncul datang,bila sampai kat rumah ni jugaklah baru dia mencurah curah..mungkin kerana menulis di 'favourite spot',jadi ilham pun datang..kalau di sana tu,bukan tak bagus atau tak baik,cuma mungkin tempatnya masih baru..walaupun semester akhir baru sahaja bermula,but this time around it is different though,it's a feeling that could not be explained by words,maybe its the feeling of getting old i guess,haha

well did i told you i moved to new college this semester?baiduri.haa itulah nama tempatnya,
level 1.but since that level is still undergoing renovation process yang tak habis habis,terpaksa lah kami menetap sementara di kolej nilam yang lama,only us..penghuni level 1 sahaja.tak macam creepy pula,nasib baik dekat dengan gerai makan di balai N.R(non resident) jadi kemarahan dan keseraman terubatlah sedikit,tidak lah begitu sunyi,
teringat dialog dengan pak cik kassim(*orang tua yang agak popular di uitm segamat)

"eh,awak dah nak habis kan?"
"ye pak cik..ini semester akhir saya.dah nak habis dah.."
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how's life cik cintagila?
okay sahaja.

so how's new room cik cintagila?141?best?
mm..best in my own kinda way,

so how's the roomies then?
pun okay juga.i dah jadi senior sekarang!

duduk katil mana cik cintagila?
katil bawah.finally after 5 semester barulah merasa..sedihnya..

oo jadi sekarang dah jadi senior lah ni?
yes.and enjoying every single momento.

part berapa?
part 6.

jadi apa perkara hebat yang cik cintagila lakukan setelah bergelar senior?
-conquer katil bawah(check!)
-ponteng meeting wing(check!)
-beramah mesra dengan junior,(check!)

adakah kelas sudah bermula and which one is your favourite?
yah.certain class.and a tonnes of work load waiting though..my favourite would be class en.nor ezan omar.sebab dia refleksi diri all of us,he's kinda a benchmark for all of us,masa kami baru semester 1 itu juga adalah semester pertama dia memulakan kerjaya di sini,3 years just may have gone so fast..kan?

kata kata akhir cik cintagila?
insyaallah saya berdoa agar dapat menghabiskan pengajian dengan jayanya,mungkin awal tahun depan dapatlah saya merasa melawa lawa di dalam jubah convocation.i'll miss segamat for sure.

satu.dua.tiga.
ini semester akhir.saya boleh melakukannnya.
sekejap,nanti dulu..
baru 3 hari semester bermula,
tapi cerita macam esok last paper.haha

*niat sebenar penulis pulang adalah untuk..berbelanja sempena malaysia's biggest mega sale.
lega dah terus terang.:P

quick note~

2009-07-02T22:53:00.000-07:00

0830hrs-am driving for 3 hours journey to segamat
1130hrs-sampai dan daftar(kalau pihak pengurusan tak banyak cekadak!)
1300hrs-check in kolej
1400-makan tengah hari

and the rest of the day tata kat family yang balik k.l blk dan tinggalkan daku kat segamat ni,
kemas bilik,done.

tiga.

2009-07-02T01:55:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 4.55 pm,33 bandar baru kundang sg.buloh,selangor darul ehsan.

ada tiga perkara:

satu.
1."negara kita sedang memacu laju menuju suatu fasa di mana pengurusan sektor kerajaan menjalankan tugas dengan amanah,dedikasi,mengurangkan karenah birokrasi.."
-kepala negara.-

1.pandangan saya,adalah negara kita masih di takuk lama di mana tatakerja khususnya pekerja pekerja sektor kerajaan masih berada di tahap tidak memuaskan walaupun pelbagai cara di lakukan seperti peperiksaan untuk mengukur tahap kecekapan,ianya seperti tidak menunjukkan sebarang tanda perubahan sikap,walaupun fasiliti dan infrastruktur sudah pun berada setaraf atau 'on par' dengan negara kuasa besar dunia seperti eropah,amerika mahupun china,

note-Unit Pengurusan Kolej UiTM Johor is the worst i must tell,adakah data pelajar boleh hilang,dan venue pendaftaran kolej juga tidak tetap dan berubah ubah,subsidi makan yang caca marba,ada yang harus mendaftar sebagai pelajar non resident lah,surat itu surat ini.it gives me headache to just look at their faces apatah lagi nak berurusan,ya..maybe mr.kepala negara benar juga,we're heading to a phase where there is no more birocracy fuss.yeah right..

dua.
2."bila korang tengok kazen korang yang umo lagi mude dr korg pun da kawen ape korang rase?mesti la rase cam ko da tue and jadi andartu kan?"-riff

2.yes,infact sometimes i do feel that way considering all my 'anak dara' friends are that close of making their way to the altar,but don't know,seems hard to find the'one' these days,its either me yang dah jatuh saham or lelaki lelaki ni semua memboringkan.

note-just aku pernah cakap kau cam best and cute,tak perlu laa kot letak status kat facebook,'in RELATIONSHIP with sipolan bt sipolan' kan? ianya cuma membuat aku menjatuhkan tabik di dahi aku pada kau sebab kau bukan lagi seperti lelaki idola yang aku banggakan,but more of being like 'aku taw aku charming,so kau terhegeh kat aku?'

tolonglaa..i already know you are with someone,kawan tak boleh?tak hadap pun.

tiga.

3."ekeleh..apa daa..orang k.l pun tak tengok transformers nih! aku da dua kali tengok oh,best gile"

or "beb,jom zouk ini malam,birthday awek aku la,"

or "haa?orang k.l beli barang uptown ape barang?aku kurang-kurang pun,gi midvalley tau shopping.."-orang yang terkejut dengan budaya-

3.hey you,yes you..haha tolong laa..kesian,sayang..orang k.l sejati,lepak di mamak,beli baju bargain di jalanan,dan berhibur dengan motif,orang k.l clubbing sebab bersosial,catch up wih a good tunes,bukan sebab ia nampak cool..orang k.l pergi ke mall,atau menonton wayang,sebab cerita itu best,bukan sebab ia nampak cool..and paling penting orang k.l pun makan nasik,dengan sambal belacan dan petai dan jering..kita memang orang k.l,tapi kita tetap orang melayu,sindiran sosial ini untuk segelintir kamu yang terkejut dengan budaya,tak semestinya dari kampung,orang k.l sendiri pun boleh terkejut dengan budaya,bila mula keluar dari tempurung,sayap panjang,tanduk pun tumbuh..

sedang memakai mask untuk bibir yang mungil,haa pakai la jugak,baru urban..kan?

note-aku orang k.l.and aku hang out di kopitiam,instead lepak kat starbucks,boleh je?

satu.dua.tiga.
itu je.packing balik.sabtu pulang untuk semester akhir,yang kat atas tu..hehe renung renungkan..selamat beramal!

a tag from mysteryffyrara.

2009-06-27T22:55:00.000-07:00

well aku memang jarang rajin nak wat mende alah tag menge'tag' ni semua,but for you riffyrara,
aku try la eh,try la..

-4 name that friend call u?

:ct (in general)
:ctcute and cintagila (world wide web friends)
:mak ety (uitm atau kawan kawan seuniversity yang sewaktu dengannya)
:ctkus,ct cat, (kawan kawan k.l)
:cik rodent!!!(pn diana lecturer IMD302 NGAN 305)sengal kan?sabo je la aku,

-4 thing you've have done in the last 30 minutes?
:bangun tidoq
:ym-ing,check blog,sapa hantar komen,apa yang berlaku kat dunia cyber ni,aku mesti nak ambik tau,
:tolong mama kat dapoq.
:buat tag si riff ni.

4 gift would u like 2 receive?

:handphone baru,ala nokia music yang touch skrin itu lah!
:laptop baru sebab laptop ni dah tua dan layak masuk arkib negara malaysia dah..
:voucher of new haircut kat saloon thomas guys sebab mahkota ku ini sudah kelihatan tidak terurus sekali,
:last but not least! duit ptptn!!! haha

4 of your fav hobbies?
:reading
:nonton tv,wayang,sewaktu dengannnya,
:blogging
:jalan.merambu ramba.

4 place u wat to go 4 vacation?

:mekah(terima kasih kepada rancangan iktibar tanah suci saluran oasis)
:united kingdom!
:great wall of china
:sabah sarawak,(tak penah pergi lagi,kesian kan?)

4 thing always found in you bag?

:handphone
:purse
:majalah cleo
:barang kecantikkan,bedak,lip gloss,perfume.

top 4 you love so much!

:abang saya.
:family saya,yang tak seberapa ramai tu,
:my friends!of course!
:my ex roomies,145 society!

4 thing special 4 u?

:broadband,sebab dia macam trophy,tengok dia je terbayang macamana susah nak dapat dia tu,cam sentimental la sikit,haha
:sekeping kad raya,dan duit raya,haa tu adalah cerita zaman tok kaduk yang tak perlu di ceritakan.
:tiket wayang first date.
:surat offer uitm,semangat!haha

top 4 who u would like to answer this survey?

:menangkap detik hidup,fararusdi blogspot.com
:bridge to zenith,hafizahabdrahim.blogspot.com
:oh so adorabella!,adorebella.blogspot.com
:rapsodi lafaz unggu,rapsodilafazku.blogspot.com
:and satu ni,journal of a single man,nordinrahman.blogspot.com

okay,sekian.terima kasih.

a perfect life.or so we want it to be.

2009-06-26T03:50:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 1:36 am,in this very living hall,33,bandar baru kundang,sg.buloh,selangor.

hello all!
and assalamualaikum,
and,
selamat sejahtera,
my dear friends, dear blogers and readers(macam buletin 1.30)

so..sebelum apa-apa soalan terpacul dari bibirmu nan indah wahai peminatku sekalian,haha sungguh pada saat ini aku amat dilanda perasaan perasan,sudah dapat ku teka,kamu semua mesti nak tanya pasal 'eh mana gambar kelmarin?' kan?kan?kan?..heee,itulah tok nujum sudah bilang,

haa kan dah tak ada,alah..sudah janji sama tuan punya nya,'it will be there just for a little moment only',jadi,janji tetap janji kan?

gambar ni pun okay apa...

haha,sabar..sabar tuan-tuan,ada lagi..gambar ni?

ok la tu,nanti nanti,ada orang cute lagi,kita letak lagi ye tak?dah dah,jangan banyak songel!
so,enough about that cute guy in the photo recently,

since i've incidentally terbaca this one blog,nama dia nurulism.com,that being introduced to me through a good friend of mine,i keep thinking now and then,how is it feels to have a perfect life?
does it feels nice that you want to brag it out to every single human being you've ever known?
not that i am critisizing nurul about she writing it on the world wide web,since blog itu dia yang punya dia punya pasal la kan?married to a young,handsome and romantic doctor,and plus! plus!plus! currently living abroad and having wonderful happiness,who wouldn't do so kan?if i were in the same shoes as hers with the same size also i nak bragggg kasi satu dunia tau i got a very perfect life,

but then again that wasn't my point really,you see,frankly speaking,i don't have a perfect life,or so that i always wanted it to be,so it is possible for me to wonder how does it feels like,to be in that picture,always the one with lucky hand got the chance,to have a taste,of that perfect life,and like a dream,we don't want to wake up or be woken up,ever..

as in my case,i keep on thinking,how could i have such perfect life,jika tak sehebat nurul pun,mengikut piawaian pun okay lah,then i terfikir lagi,apa piawaian untuk hidup sempurna?adakah standard atau penanda aras tertentu sehingga kehidupan kita,diiktiraf,okay,hidup kamu sempurna.tak ada.adakah kita perlu kaya?kemudian hidup kita pasti sempurna,atau kita perlu cantik menawan?kemudian barulah hidup kita sempurna,jika itulah standard untuk menjadi sempurna,kehidupan itu akan menjadi kehidupan yang di bikin untuk kelihatan sempurna,

hiduplah di dalam kehidupan kamu sendiri bukan orang lain,
sempurna itu,subjektif,
sempurna is the one that suites you,your life,
bukan you or your life that made to suites the perfection,atau standard,benchmark,apa pun jua yang sebenarnya tidak langsung wujud,

so it be,
i don't have a tall,rich and handsome boyfriend pun,
so it be,
kalau i'm not as beautiful as you are,
so it be,
kalau i am not having a perfect life macam lukisan vincent van gaugh sekali pun,

kepuasan saya dalam menjalani jatuh bangun hidup ini,itu adalah kesempurnaan,pelengkap dalam hidup saya,

and for those yang merasa hidupnya almost perfect,tapi mungkin lack of one that small little details,sekurangnya just be thankfull at least to had the chance to have a taste of that perfection,
like a say,everybody is not perfect kan,almost perfect tu ada la,

kalau mungkin saya cemburu dengan nurul,ya saya cemburu,
but i'm happy to just look at her life and praying, hoping,dreaming, one day,i'll be blessed with such blessings yang allah beri pada dia,allah turut beri pada saya..

satu.dua.tiga.
and my life is kinda perfect,according to me,haha

tammat.

real question here:why do we fall for for him/her in the first place?

2009-06-23T10:55:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 1:58 am,in this main living hall,33,bandar baru kundang,selangor darul ehsan.

assalamualaikum,
and hello,my dear readers and my fellow bloggers,
this is an idea which came on a sudden and it is a huge waste if i'm waiting till tomorrow morning to jotted it down here,just can't wait to blow it off from my mind!hehe
and this particular entry has caused me to push aside all of other entry such as
sekeping nota penghidap virus H1N1 kepada sahabatnya,
and
a perfect life,or so we want it to be,
which i'm considering of posting it here only before i realized something more interesting to share with you!

jadi selepas menyimpan segala idea untuk di tulis di sini,i was wondering if there's a thing that i could write here because it happens to me,not that the other two di atas tidak related to me,but itu cuma ulasan perkara semasa dan my point of view towards life,but this one just popped out of no where,but it make sense though,

whilst i was writing ,my thought goes to my friend sekarang,he's a senior to me back in johor dulu,but now dia dah further study and ada jadi MPP kat shah alam,thinking of him made me think, sebenarnya kenapa kita boleh jatuh cinta atau mungkin suka kepada seseorang tersebut di tempat pertama,ketepikan orang lain but i'm saying you and that someone,him/her,get me?

okay nak senang,buat begini:

imagine,you..and now someone you have in mind,the one you like the most,
doesn't matter la it's your girlfriend,bestfriends,crush ke,apa apa je la.pick one person.
and take note-jangan imagine family members macam mak,ayah,adik,bla..bla..bla..kalau ya,then tak jadi nanti.

ok dah?
then..
cuba you guys fikirkan..
one reason je,tak perlu banyak,kenapa,you like him/her in the first place,there must be some reason,sebab senyum dia cantik kah,,sebab dia gila gila kah,must be a reason,or you don't have any,you just liked him,yang you tahu,bila you dengan dia,you rasa happy,comfortable.iye tak?setuju dengan saya?

mungkin kita suka seseorang tu,sebab personaliti dia,mungkin juga,kita suka seseorang tu,sebab penampilan dia,mungkin juga kita suka dengan dia tanpa bersebab,and itu yang payah sebab kita tak dapat menerangkan,kenapa kita suka dengan dia,

ianya tak semestinya perasaan cinta,atau apa,ianya cuma perasaan suka,menyenangi kehadiran dia tanpa berasa rimas,or looking forward to be with that person.

me?
yes i liked him.
why i liked him?
sebab talking to him made me smile the rest of the night,and flew my boredom away,
tidak saya tidak mempunyai perasaan dengan dia,
cuma saya senang,
with his presence,

my reason why i liked him in the first place,
so as far as i know,for me bukan senang nak cari orang yang interesting,
dalam lautan orang orang yang dah biasa sangat di jumpai,lama-lama hidup jadi jadi bosan dan repetitive,
so when this person muncul,bosan tu hilang,and talking to him buat saya tersenyum panjang,persona dia unique.that's why i like him,and i like having him as friend,

ada juga yang suka atau fell for someone,despite their differences,dalam segala hal,
selalu bertegang urat,tapi still in the end of the day,nama tu juga yang terlintas bila i told you to think of someone,kan?

to tell or not to tell that you might have fallen for that someone,or like him/her,it's up to your preferences,

me and my friend,kita tak payah bagitau,we already know.(or maybe sebab kalau bagitau nanti masing masing kembang tak tentu pasal),so as long me and my friend tu happy having each other,nothing else matter,

satu.dua.tiga.
oohh abg H.A,why do i fall/liked you in the first place?
sebab gelagat kamu yang menghiburkan dan buat saya menyengih sepanjang malam.

* "lama sangat nak tunggu balas pantun tu,tak pe lah,dah malam ni,esok pun ada program kan,pegi tidur!pantun tu tak pe lah,kite sambung lain kali je,but still you owe me a pantun,beli jangan tak beli!hehe nice talking to you,nite nite." kata cintagila kepada sahabatnya tersebut.

tammat-

lelaki yang patah sayap kirinya(malam puisi utusan)

2009-06-21T22:09:00.000-07:00

Lelaki Yang Patah Sayap Kirinya

Engkau lelaki yang patah sayap kirinya

Menanggalkan baju dukamu di hamparan kenangan

Melonjak dari jendela kamar yang pecah kacanya

Ingin terbang menerpa bulan

Sambil mengilik sebungkus impian.

Tak kau hirau rayuan pungguk yang berhiba lara

Yang memilih pilu sengsara tanpa usaha

Kau dengan kental semangat menjerkah gerhana

Dan menahan mentari dari meminta gilirannya.

Terbanglah lelaki yang patah sayapnya

Berpandukan tongkat paruh jentayu yang setia.

Kau bukan lagi lelaki pilu yang merenung jendela

Setiap kali purnama senyum atau retak di balik ara

Kerana kau arif merisik rindu dan mentafsir cinta

Dari sinar mata pemilik kejora

credits to-http://anuarkamaruddin.blogspot.com/ untuk sajak ni,terima kasih.

tips tips menjadi lelaki idaman wanita

2009-06-20T09:18:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 12.20 am,written on top of convenient tilam yang empuk,berdepan dengan peti televisyen,ruang tamu,
33,bandar baru kundang,selangor,

hello gentleman's! lelaki lelaki hot di luar sana,metrosexual,hunk,dudes,duda,
and so they called you whatever name sekalipun lah,
and not to be forgotten the ladies too,not that i suddenly dah tak geng dengan y'all dah ladies,
but so that best friend of mine cakap i should try making an effort to make friends with men,real men,so i think writing something about 'kaum' anda is a good start kan?

first things first,
maybe sesetengah dari anda,akan meragui kredibiliti entry ni,ye la,i tau dah la tajuk nye pun ala-ala buku 'TIPS BAGAIMANA UNTUK MENJADI KAYA DALAM MASA 10 HARI',dan bila beli beriya-iya,rupanya,baikkkk punya penulis buku tu kata,
'menabunglah untuk masa depan' atau ayat motivasi macam..
'anda harus memperbagaikan sumber pendapatan', haa,macam tu la lebih kurang,
laaa..itu tak payah habaq la,semua orang tau,in the end,penulis buku tu la yang kaya dalam masa 10 hari sebab kita semua pakat beli buku dia,orang kita kan suka nak kaya cepat,dan mudah,tu la pasal skim gores dan menang,skim cepat kaya,boleh cari makan kat malaysia,well kadang kadang kita boleh jadi orang yang tamak,well infact we all do,siapa yang tak mahu kaya cepat dan mudah kan?only that if there is such easy way,donald trump pun terbalik terbalik jugak la,baru dia jadi macam sekarang ni..mana la ada jalan mudah..alahaiii..

tapi!
tips tips menjadi lelaki idaman wanita ni,bukan macam tu okay?
ini datang daripada my own real experience,kisah benar la ni, as a single girl who went through dating process for this past few years,macam macam perangai 'kaum' anda ni,ada yang tries too hard,and ada juga yang playing hard to get,and of course haa yang ni,popular dalam komuniti 'kaum' anda ni,THE PLAYER or THE WOMENIZER,pun pernah jumpa jugak,pernah..pernah,dan tak lupa juga yang cold,ataupun tiada perasaan.how sad..

but it's fun though,bergaul,ye la i mean dating you guys,'kaum' macam kedengaran i ni bersifat ke'gender'an la pulak kan?okay so i guna you guys boleh?

okay so dalam semua experience bercinta,berdating,dengan you guys,i pick up only few yang i rasa important in order to win women's heart,mari dekat dekat sikit,yang teruna,yang duda dan berpunya nak dengar pun boleh jugak..pun boleh,

1.be a man with character.
character ni,maksudnya perawakan,untuk menjadi lelaki idaman,it is so important,to have character,maksudnya di sini,perawakan tu penting,tak semestinya you guys harus kacak,atau bergaya untuk menjadi seorang yang ber'character',walaupun,berpenampilan kemas itu added points for you,sebab selekeh sangat pun tak ada orang nak bang..tak selera,hehe tapi tu la,ber'character' ni macam you got your own personality,bila orang tengok you,orang tau,it's you,tak ada orang lain yang sama dengan you,

2.unique.out of the box.
haa..yang ini pun penting,sebab kadang kadang bila you guys nak memulakan conversation ataupun first nak 'ayat' si gadis tu,try to think something different,macam "hai,tak tau lah kenapa,tapi saya macam ada magnet,nak kenal sangat dengan awak",berbanding "hai boleh berkenalan?" ala..bang,tu da cliche sangat..ataupun,bila selalunya,you guys mesti la,hantar bunga la,cekelat la kat si gadis tu,boring,cuba try something different,macam..menyeludup masuk kuih ketayap kesukaan si gadis ke rumah/kolej/hostel dia ke..kan?(tapi tu kena berkomplot dengan close relatives or people dengan that girl la kan)

3.be a super hero.
muncul la di saat dia sedang cemas,kecemasan la,or maybe when she looks like she needs help, sebab perempuan appreciate kalau lelaki idaman dia muncul di saat palingggg genting,macam a knight in shining armour,so ni la chance baik punya untuk you guys jadi lelaki idaman dia,be a gentleman,macam tiba tiba muncul bila dia tak cukup duit nak bayar makanan kat cafe ker,dan offer untuk bayarkan,atau offer diri bila dia macam tak tahu buat sesuatu,macam.."kat mana nak beli laptop murah ek?" haa itu jam,you guys pun act like a superhero,"i tau mana boleh dapat murah",ceh..kacang je bang,jadi lelaki idaman dah..kalau tolong mak dia repair pipe kat rumah,pergh lagi la..jadi calon menantu idaman lagi,haha

4.humourous.
so untuk sesetengah gadis yang suka lelaki serious,abaikan je tips ni,but most of women sukeeeee sangat lelaki with a good sense of humour,infact i do,TAPI haa,harus di ingat! be moderate.do go overboard okay?OKAY?ni memang true experience,kadang kadang,you guys buat lawak macamni "you tau tak,tadi hidung i gatal,i pun korek sampai bersepah!" or "benda apa yang kita pakai segitiga then bila bukak jadi bergulung,SPENDER LAH!" HAHA,TAK LAWAK OKAY,kalau lawak tu untuk kawan kawan you okay la,perempuan suka lelaki yang pandai berjenaka,tapi bukan make fool of yourself,instead,cuba la lawak lawak macam "you you,i pantang ni,dengan lauk ni,tak boleh ni,TAK BOLEH TAK MAKAN"haa..kan bunyi nye best sikit,but most of you guys yang i jumpa memang tak di nafikan got a very good sense of humour,memang lelaki idaman lah,cuma ada segelitir je,yang sengalll sikit.

5.imej.attitude.
supposed this one letak kat bawah character tapi ilham dia datang last sekali daa..sorry okay?tapi ini pun penting jugak,lelaki idaman ni long term planning..perempuan kalau sedang mencari lelaki idaman dia,dia mesti fikir jangka masa panjang..i mean kalau you guys ni sah jadi lelaki idaman dia,bukan untuk main main,jadi..imej itu penting,be presentable,bukan conservative,boleh menyesuaikan diri dengan orang tua,budak budak kecil,good manner,
ini semua imej,and attitude.it's up to you guys apa imej you guys nak projectkan,but women (except yang suka bad boy type,)suka lelaki yang berciri ciri kekeluargaan,protective,caring,sensitive,and not just self centered man,semua ni buat dia rasa secure dan merasa you guys lah lelaki yang sesuai dan she dreamed to be with,

so..itulah dia tips tips,and common mistakes man sometimes do,without realizing it,and now there is a women,eh tak,ladies,eh tak single girl who tell you straight,i hope you'll be lelaki idaman wanita,sebenarnya banyak lagi,cuma yang penting je dulu letak kat sini,

and to those yang terfikir after reading this crazy long entry of mine,
'kenapa yang bagi tips ni single sampai sekarang?'

okay.nak kena bagitau ke?
sebab i gemuk!haha
okay TRUTH.
tolak semua cinta monyet,scandal la semua,ada la,i encounter,'fall' in love or liked someone,

first one-masa tu sekolah lagi.he was a nice man,but too old for me,and dia tak boleh memandu,memang pantang datuk nenek tu,orang lelaki tak tau bawak kereta!

second one-masa mula mula masuk U,pun,a slightly older than me,he was nice too but then i don't fell we were right for each other,arah hidup kita dua different,i tak boleh ikut rentak dia.

and the third one-semester 4,older than me 10 years different,this one i would say..macam agak crazy in love jugak la,he almost matched everything that i wanted,but..the other women,one day mesti nak jadi the only women kan..and perempuan yang baik tak kan rampas kebahagiaan orang lain kan,so i guess we're just not meant for each other,

DARE-siapa yang nyanyi live dengan merdunya lagu ni for me,memang i cair dengan dia!haha

Mengintai Langit - Coco

okay lah.malam pun dah larut,so do my eyes..so kita cakap lagi lain kali yaa..by the way,nice talking to you dudes,hunks,so whatever name they called you..nite..

satu. dua . tiga.
yes i am single,till the moment last full stop of this entry.

*maaf kerana bahasa yang bercampur aduk,dan ejaan yang kurang penuh,"i might sound silly if i speak in malay you see" hehe entry berikutnya,saya kan cuba untuk berbahasa sebaiknya.terima kasih.

buta IT.

2009-06-18T22:41:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 1:42 pm,on this lovely mansion on 33th,bandar baru kundang,sg.buloh.selangor.

i am now not so proud to finally admit,hamba memang buta IT.
sungguh.okay..gelak la,

but IT isn't such a piece of cake to me,well talking from my age in my 21 years old and living in this era of 2009,but really,i am so low pick up,dalam bende bende high tech ni,and i hate seeing codes,macam last semester,we got to do this coding subject called visual basic,dengar betui betui..basic je kot,even a computer programmer friend of mine pun ckp itu kacang je,tapi kenape la aku nih duk merasa macam nak telan kulit derian nak wat benda alah coding tu,so that is why i called my self buta IT,see what i was trying to say?oo kecik sangat.okay BUTA IT.haha mungkin kah hamba sebenarnya puteri hang li po yang tersesat di era ini?mula la tu,merapik!

even today when i decided i am damn bored withe the current layout for cintagila journal of a single girl nih,nak cari layout baru punya la susah...ye la memang la berlonggok,taip je blogger skins kat google tu,mestilah banyak yang keluar,tapi ada yang html version la,xml la,as far as i'm concern of,i am that GOOD in coding kan,nak alter-alter ni sume,heh! ready made punye please!

so..after that *&&% long process of searching and browsing new layout for this baby of mine,as you can see,i choose pinky lovey dovey template,and it is kinda different from recent one,yang dulu punyer,ala ala sexy urban chic style gituh,and current one,lebih kepada ala ala..keperempuanan,feminin..maybe that is where my personality orientation mengarah sekarang kot,sebab ada jugak yang memanggil diri ini,gengster kampung dusun,*apa muka i yang cute ni ada rupa sharip dol ker?kesian kan i..di fitnah sebegitu rupa??so i am now telling you mak cik! i bukan gengster kampung dusun! tak nampak nih sume pink bunga bunga nih?! haha..

idea nak menukar layout ni bermula dari gejala kecil je.bosan.suruh kerja tak mau,ni lah dia,anak muda zaman sekarang,bila dah boring,mula la menggatal nak tukar layout la,hape la,nak chatting kat ym,tak da orang yang best,facebook,sume muka familiar,so blogging la aku nih,membebel sorang sorang kat sini,nak keluar pun boring..asik hang out dengan ladies je,well living a single life kadang kadang agak membosankan,well like a friend of mine pernah berkata;

"kau ni,asik kawan dengan perempuannnnn je..cuba la sekali sekala berkawan dengan lelaki?"

"ada pa,kawan lelaki," aku menjawab dengan dia.

"memang laa,tapi semua lembut nak buat apa!"

cet! terkene hidung mancung nih,

nak buat macamana..dah coincident my boyfriends semua lembut,well tak lah lembut sangat,tapi..sikit la kot!

and this one incident,that day,masa aku pergi tengok wayang,dengan my lady friend,adakah boyfriend dia cakap

you ni asik dengan ct je kan..asik asik dengan ct,ada pape ker..

and bila kita masuk wayang,we sit in between this couple,boleh tak diorang pandang 'semacam' je then gelak gelak,

seriously,i need more friend,man friend.hah..maybe i kene start bersosial..sooosial,kan?trying,hope tak dapat kawan lembut lagi,hehe but to my soft man friends,not that i dislike having you as my friend okay?just that i need a man friend too,kalau tak orang ingat i lesbian!

so panjang eh i membebel,this one is lighter,compared dengan entry semalam,machiavelli segala,
got to go,ayah i suruh buat ayaq sat untuk dia,air i buat sedap taw!(sebab boring sangat cuti ni i juga amik upah jadi tea lady,haha)ok ok,bye!

satu.dua.tiga.
i am not lesbian.still interested in man.anyone interested?:)

the end justify the means.chapter one.

2009-06-17T10:14:00.000-07:00

jotted down at 1:16 am,bandar baru kundang,sg.buloh..selangor darul ehsan

the end justify the means.(*cakap orang putih)
matlamat menghalalkan cara(*cakap melayu)~machiavelli~

long time,has gone since the last time i wrote something here,well most of the time,i'm quite busy,spending my time,'jalan jalan ukur bandar',like my mum used to said kepada my dad lepas dia pencen sebab kerja beliau yang saban hari akan melakukan rondaan harian,tak bertauliah,haha ye lah,mana la nak tau kan,ada jalan jalan baru bukak kah,bangunan mana nak roboh kah..macam supermarket jaya yang runtuh dekat petaling jaya itu hari..ataupun tengok tengok mana la nak tau kan.. kalau kalau bandaraya kuala lumpur ni tiba tiba berubah keluasannya secara geographically..iye tak? tu semua penting tu!hahahaha.. well mak mak ni selalu je guna 'cakap berlapik' untuk menyampaikan isi tersirat,pergh kadang kadang menusuk ke dalam 'kolbu'! (*kasi lidah arab sikit)

kalau lawak tu tinggi sangat,sehingga golongan 'bourjois' macam aku je yang dapat 'tangkap',

it's okay,macam ni lah,kalau dapat 'tangkap' gelak la sekaki,and kalau tak dapat..

hmm..
lu apa?
haa?
lu apa?
aaa lu pikir la sendiri,

so far,anda semua masih di sini?okay lets move on,so kalau la anda semua peduli,untuk hairan sejenak kenapa la minah ni tiba tiba muncul dengan slogan machiavelli tu,
haa tu laa..orang kita malas membaca,tu pasal la orang luar kata orang kita malas berpikiaq,sengaja aku guna kan berpikiaq,untuk men'stress'kan point tu,

machiavelli datang dengan slogan tu pada zaman beliau,untuk menegaskan bahawa,apa jua matlamat harus di capai menggunakan apa cara sekalipun,dan ia di angkat ke tahap ekstreme di mana apa jua cara yang boleh di gunakan,atau dalam ayat senang nya,apa juga jalan yang ada mesti di gunakan,supaya matlamat tercapai,tak kira lah jalan itu jalan bersih atau jalan kotor,jalan halal atau jalan haram,main kotor atau main bersih,yang penting,matlamat nya berjaya di capai.matlamat dalam bahasa ringkas nya,set aside bahasa bahasa kamus untuk orang kita,yang malas berpikiaq,dalam bahasa ringkas nya,matlamat ialah apa yang kita mahu,

jadi,slogan matlamat menghalalkan cara or the end justify the means bermaksud,we don't just sit and wait luck will bring what we want to us, but instead we go and create the luck dengan mengguna kan ikhtiar dalam semua cara that will in the end,bring what we want to us,simple.untuk orang yang malas berpikiaq,macam orang kita,

cara machiavelli tu mungkin ganas sangat,bukan semua cara berkesan untuk dapat apa yang kita mahu,macam back stab people to get to the top,atau main duit,atau semua jalan kotor gila ekstreme tu,hidup kene ada sense of balance okay,baik sangat pun tak boleh..jahat sangat pun susah nanti.balance.that's the keyword.faham konsep kalu,your life should be okay and enjoyable,sebab we gain what we worked for,it's worth it.

so i've decided from now on,i'm adopting machiavelli's way,into my life,i get what i want using every single way,jalan atas,jalan bawah,kabel,kabel car,apa saja,and push my self to the limit,
in the end,i get what i want.for now.my broadband,haha.(puas kecek baru dapat ni,ikut cara machiavelli jugak tu)

mungkin panjang sangat aku menulis.aku dengar keyboard ni dah melolong mintak di tutup.chapter dua menyusul nanti.nite nite!

satu.dua.tiga.
orang kita malas membaca,aku pun sama.baru mula.dan tengah berpikiaq.hihi.

*kamus desa bergerak-bourjois:golongan kelas atasan zaman eropah,
-tangkap:faham

quick note~

2009-05-09T08:48:00.000-07:00

time:11.50 pm
location:145,kolej nilam uitm johor
weather:nice and silent

*quick note,
esok paper 0900 hrs-1200hrs
heading home=sg.buloh 1300hrs
cuti semester=10 mei-4 julai 2009

*wish me luck for tomorrow,

zZZZZzzzz,
good night.

and so i miss home badly,does it sounds lame?

2009-05-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

time:12.47pm
location:kolej nilam uitm johor.it's the last day standing still before roboh next semester,
weather:hot and silence.guess everybody is on their way home,

-----------------------------------

waktu entry ni di tulis,kami insan insan malang yang masih tersadai di sini sedang menunggu delivery mcD,well sebab :

A)dining dah tak da makanan yang mencukupi untuk kami

B)just spending a litle time together and money too,but we decided to take the lunch set,
yang 5 ringgit tu,we're now proud to declare our self as 'recessionistasz'!*clap2

and so i miss home badly,does it sounds lame?yes i am lame so what?like you don't ever miss your home la kan,and even if you are not like me, missing home badly pun,it must be your home tak bestkan or something,maybe kalau y'all balik pon,you'll feel like nak 'angkat kaki' kan?

huh..i'm sorry,talking crap,well i'm emotionally unstable for your information,lately..as i grew older,i do feel like i'm a 70 years old granny's though,babbling about my life,how i used to be young and beautiful back then,ergh..forget it,i should'nt say that,i'm sorry..

i don't know if i am the only one who feels that way,but as my surveys goes on,walking from room to room to search for my soul on reading the ilmiah thingy on my table,everybody seems to agree with me,looking on their sad faces,i guess i am not the only one,that makes me happier a bit,only.

and so does my brain,it is stuck too,trying to relax now and get back to it later,

one day is not enough,but i just can't wait to end this semester,

i am so dull and blue now,and dry and left out of ideas,

that's all i have to say.thank you for listening.tune in again next time for more babbling from me,

writer's note: kenapa is110 part 5 always be the last one to finish up our paper?why?why?
whyyyy!!!

*glossary-
recessionistasz= people that is spending their money carefully on this season of economic down turn,so..catrino sonea is the new PRADA guys!

permohonan untuk mempercepatkan graduasi.

2009-05-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

PERMOHONAN MEMPERCEPATKAN GRADUASI.

Adalah seperti perkara di atas saya SITI SHAHIDATUL AKMAL KHORIZAN;nombor pengenalan UiTM 2006148*** adalah seperti berikut ingin menarik perhatian tuan/puan yang berkenaan untuk mempertimbangkan permohonan saya untuk mempercepatkan tarikh graduasi daripada tarikh yang sepatutnya,

2. Untuk pengetahuan pihak tuan/puan,buat masa ini,saya sedang mengikuti pengajian dalam kursus pengurusan maklumat,dan ini adalah semester ke lima saya mengikuti pengajian di sini.

3. Saya berdiri di atas sebab sebab yang kukuh,untuk memohon pihak UiTM agar dapat mempercepatkan tarikh graduasi berbanding tarikh yang sepatutnya.saya adalah pelajar ambilan semester Disember 2007-November 2009,dan seharusnya tarikh graduasi yang sebenarnya di bawah peraturan UiTM adalah pada November 2009.

4. Ini adalah kerana,saya sudah pun mual dan bosan serta menyampah untuk terus menetap di sini,atas kenyataan ini,saya susuli dengan jutaan maaf buat pihak UiTM,saya bukan bermaksud mengaitkan ia dengan hal ehwal universiti,mahupun hal ehwal akedemik,akan tetapi,ianya lebih terarah kepada persekitaran emosi di sini yang amat tidak kondusif buat saya,

5. Persekitaran emosi ini amatlah mengganggu,seperti perselisihan faham yang sering berlaku hanya kerana perkara remeh,dan juga kerenah rakan sebaya yang amat tidak sesuai dengan jiwa saya,ini termasuk lah juga perkara perkara seperti masam muka,dan saya amat menyampah untuk melihatnya,walaupun begitu saya sedaya upaya mencuba untuk tidak mengaitkan soal emosi dan juga pelajaran sebaiknya.Oleh hal yang demikian,saya dengan itu ingin membuat permohonan untuk mempercepatkan tarikh graduasi,supaya saya tidak perlu berhadapan dengan karenah birokrasi sebegini lagi,kerana apabila menyambung pelajaran di puncak perdana nanti,saya akan berulang alik dari kampus ke rumah kerana perjalanan hanyalah mengambil masa singkat,jadi soal persekitaran emosi dan rakan sebaya mungkin tidak menjadi masalah buat saya.

Oleh itu,saya dengan penuh takzim ingin memohon kerjasama dan budi bicara pihak tuan/puan,UiTM untuk mempertimbangkan cadangan ini,kerjasama dari pihak tuan/puan amatlah saya hargai.

--SITI SHAHIDATUL AKMAL KHORIZAN
--2006148***
--ISS110 UiTM Segamat,Johor Darul Takzim.

happy graduation my friend.from the bottom of my heart..

2009-05-03T21:18:00.000-07:00

time:12.25pm

location: asrama puteri sekolah kebangsaan UiTM Johor.

weather: panas.suam suam kuku baru lepas manicure.

screenshot1: seekor teddy bear

screenshot2: teddy bear.ee'h ade orang di sebalik teddy bear tu?

screenshot3: teddy bear.and orang ni lagi??tolong la.

lastframe:akhirnya,hehe tuan punya blog nak mencapap rupanya,wekekeke..

(*gambar kat atas tu abaikan je.crap sunggguh_)haha

hadiah tu,bear tu,hadiah graduation.no..i mean bukan bukan aku yang nak grad,tapi kat sini macam tradition kalau orang tu dah nak grad,kite akan tukar tukar hadiah,well of course we gave them first,then they will gave something back to you,(but on certain circumstances,tak jugak.but most of the time,well i kan kesukaan ramai,uhuk!) tapi tak pe,bukan balasan main reason kenapa hadiah tu di berikan,but it's more to like a memories you left them with,dengan benda yang you bagi tu,tak kira lah mahal atau murah mahupun bundle,janji the thought that comes along,itu yang penting.

so..tiap tiap tahun,mesti ade peruntukan dalam budget tahunan set aside untuk beli hadiah graduation ni,but as for me..i only gave my graduation gift to my OOAS only,*orang orang aku suka je* ye la apa point bagi hadiah kat sebarang orang je kan,dah tak meaningful lagi la hadiah tu nanti,

and tahun ni...tiba tiba everythings feels so different from years before,this time it's my 'family' turn to go..'family' ni,dah macam my second home here,without them here, i think life wouldn't be as much fun as it is now,from day one,no matter how we fight,shout,cry and laugh we have each other,each of us is unique and at times different,but somehow we're connected and that makes a strong bond,hanya kami yang tahu.

i still kindly remember,first day i arrived here,all the glamourous wardrobe,3 inch make up all over my face,till i barely see my own skin though,haha..as i remember myself, the one that can't find the reason why she's lost and thrown here,and the one that is more to my liking now..they are two different human being brought by time,

i am now a lady,mature and beautiful without even trying...

to my 'family'..thanks,

tahun ni.tak da budget.tak da OOAS.i need to find something.something meaningful.diorang dah nak grad ni,al kisah..habis satu pekan segamat ku ronda,semua kedai ku selongkar,tak pe lah,berhabis pun,and so did i..jumpa jugak apa yang nak di bagi,the feeling is nice,after putting so much effort into it,they like it too,and i do too.

then..like i said,what you give you get back,tadaa tu la tu,yang kat atas tu,hehe comel kan tuan die,ehh tak tak,i mean bear tu,

above whatever reason pun juga,to my 'family'..145 SOCIETY,(macam nama kongsi gelap la pulak) thanks for being there all this while,u've seen me completely in and out,how did i look like first thing in the morning,take a very good care of me,*remember masa aku muntah muntah haritu tak?*..aktiviti wajib,NGETEH, every single night..semua tu buat korang satu tahap berbeza dari semua orang kat sini,cuma 4 orang je yang buat semua ni,dan itu korang tau tak..

selamat graduate,selamat mulakan hidup baru..dan jangan lupa aku kat sini,you guys are my all..

happy graduation my friends..from the bottom of my heart..

145 society 2008

145 society 2009

writer's note-send me the convo pic's eh,jangan lupe!kalau tak aku belasah korang!*muke marah!!! okay..tu je..*wat muke selambe balik.

glosari*mencapap-maksudnye mencari publisiti,bukan carut okey.

jai ho : the translation.

2009-04-09T20:01:00.000-07:00

IT ROCKS!,IT ROCKS!,IT ROCKS!,OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho.. Jai Ho)

COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOFCOME

JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY

IT ROCKS..

OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho ..Jai Ho)

COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOFCOME

JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY

IT ROCKS..

OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho ..Jai Ho)

IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho ..Jai Ho)

BIT BY BIT I TRULY DIED EACH DAY..

SPENT THE NIGHTS DANCING ON HOT COALS..

I BLEW AWAY THE SLEEP IN MY EYES..

I BURNT MY FINGERS TRYING TO TOUCH THE STARS..

COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF

COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY

IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho ..Jai Ho)

[The Spanish part:]Baila! Baila!Ahora conmigo,

tu baila para hoyPor nuestro dia olvidas,

los problemas que sean
Salud!Baila! Baila!

IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho! Jai Ho!)IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho! Jai Ho!)
TASTE IT, O TASTE IT,

THE NIGHT IS HONEY,

TASTE IT KEEP MY HEART,

IT IS THE LAST LIMIT,

YEAH KEEP IT DARK,

THIS EYELINER OF YOURS,

IS LIKE A MAGICAL SPELL

DARK, THIS EYELINER OF YOURS,

IS LIKE A MAGICAL SPELL

COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF

COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTER BLUE SKY,..
IT ROCKS!.. (Jai Ho!..)

IT ROCKS!.. (Jai Ho!..)

FOR SO LONG, YES FOR SO LONG, WHAT'S BEEN KEPT FROM YOUR LIPS,

SAY IT

SAY IT,

O SAY IT,

NOW THAT YOUR EYES ARE SHOWING IT..SAY IT!

SUCH, AH SUCH LIT-UP EYES (OF YOURS),

BRIGHT AS DIAMONDS,

AREN'T THEY?

COME ON MY LIFE,

JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF

COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY

IT ROCKS!..

OH IT ROCKS! (Jai Ho! Jai Ho!)

Baila bailaIT ROCKS!.. (Jai Ho.. )

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i am physically & mentally tired.broke down totally.

2009-04-09T06:48:00.000-07:00

time:9.51 pm
location:145,nilam,uitm segamat,johor.
weather:rainy day but it's all cleared up now.

orang tua selalu berpesan:
kalau jumpa jalan buntu,cari jalan jumpa tuhan.

haa dan kalau ada orang yang selalu melawan pesan orang tua,ni lah orangnya,

orang tua akan selalu jawab:
biasalah..darah muda..

tapi bila sendiri dah rasa jadi tua,barulah malu nak mengaku,
orang tua selalu betul,
semenjak dua tiga minggu ni kadar tekanan darah muda ni tinggi je,
macam macam masalah,macam macam balak yang datang,sampai satu tahap rasa nak angkat bendera,"okay okay!,aku surrender! serious,physical dan mental,exhausted habis,macam kereta break down,macam tu la perasaannya, bayangkan,semua benda jumpa jalan buntu,
teringat pesan orang tua,cari jalan jumpa tuhan,

sekali lagi,orang tua,betul..
bila jumpa tuhan,mengadu semuanya,
dari a-z,serious hati rasa tenang sangat,walaupun jalan tu masih kabur,tapi it soothes you,to at least tell someone,about you that is so under state of break down,and feeling hopeless,
tapi bila jumpa tuhan,you'll feel the hope is there,bila jumpa DIA,it reminds how we like feeling hopefull again,pelik juga,kenapa ada di antara kita yang selalu pertikaikan keadilan tuhan,dan ada yang berjarak bila sebut tentang tuhan,tak pun,ada yang berkata hubungan dia dengan tuhan tak berapa baik,kenapa tak pernah usaha untuk repair hubungan tu dan jadi dekat dengan tuhan?ever think of that?

lepas mengadu,tiba tiba mata tertancap pada skrin notebook,gambar screen saver,my old man and lady,smiling,tiba tiba terasa ada air hangat lalu kat pipi ni,

i always told people i only cry for only important things .and something that touched me the most.this one is one of them.checked.

i may look strong on the outside,but once in a while i'll break down too.

writer's note:
p/s: appologies to my handsome old man and beautiful lady for worrying both of you,i just can't hold myself from dropping that water from my eyes,seriously,and i'm not crying! and i'm still your 'rebellious' daughter,okay!
love you.much.

si pemain violin .dan tekanan minggu akhir semester.

2009-04-07T01:41:00.000-07:00

dear readers,

ini adalah dua entri yang tak berkaitan sama sekali.harap maklum*ting ting

cuba bayangkan petang petang yang indah begini,anda di buai oleh alunan violin yang merdu..dengan kicauan burung menyanyi riang,dan..bunyi bunyian..ANNOUNCEMENT KOLEJ! OPSS ERGH! KACAU LA,baru nak merangsang imaginasi sikit,tak senang betol tengok orang senang la,okay okay..sambung balik..pastilah semua fikiran fikiran jahat untuk bawa 'toyol' ke test malam ini,ataupun suara suara kecamuk yang berkecah menjerit bila nak sambung buat esaimen pun akan turut diam terpegun dengan gesekan violin itu..

lucky me.i got a violin player in my room,haha how's that?donald trump yang kaye tu pun belum tentu mampu upah personal violin player untuk release kan tension dia bila keluar board room kan, si mariah carey yang mampu nak menggajikan perempuan pembancuh ayaq khas untuk diri sendiri pun,tak tahu sebenarnya boleh upah personal violin player untuk habiskan duit yang beliau yang melambak tu,haha sebelum anda mencemburui saya dengan lebih lanjut,ok,let me spill it,itu bukan my personal violin player lah,aiyoo,

everybody,meets my violin player roomies,eton,but we called her si pemain violin eton,haha cam ada gabungan professional dan ciri ciri authentic sikit,baru malaysia! tak gitu?

si pemain violin eton dan kawan karibnya~

sebenarnya entri ini di tulis kerana:

a)jeles tengok kawan bloggers lain hari hari mencapap kat recent items tu,oh TAK2

or..

b)dah lama tak update blog atas faktor kesempitan waktu. itu lebih tepat.

dan,

c)saja.erm..saja.

sebab di minggu minggu akhir semester ni,tension rise so easily,people tend to get mood swings like every second kot,dengan bulk of test everyday,due date assignment or final project,bla..bla..bla..and other related problems that could seriously can lead you to be 'gila meroyan' if you're in my shoes..if la kan,if..

and next semester,saya dah part 6! yes!yes!yes! and yes!

can't wait to get out from this jungle of hope,ecehh..poyo sungguh,

and next semester juga,memandangkan kolej ni dah tiada,kene pindah ke kolej lain atau terus jadi non resident,so i will no longger have a violin player in my room,unlucky me..da la tak de boyfriend,haha cam tak de kait mengait jek,who cares ye tak?roomate pun da jauh..tapi it's okay,hmm..

i guess thats all for now,get back to work is what i got to do immediate call,

i'll write in again soon,

writer's note-..i'm so into violin tunes now,listen here:

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happy earth hour! we've made it yaw!

2009-03-28T06:46:00.000-07:00

time:9.47pm
location:kolej nilam,we're all too excited nak tutup lampu,haha

weather:nice and calm

to all earth residents,i with full of grace wish HAPPY EARTH DAY! WE'VE MADE IT YAW!

hari ini.earth hour day,dan cintagila si penulis blog ni bukan main excited lagi nak join,this good cause ni kan,it's soo cool,i just can't resist,boley juga panggil dia si jakun atau batak,haha

masa hari earth hour ni berlangsung,dah masuk dua hari penulis demam dan batuk teruk,tapi sebab 'semangat' habis,sanggup tak ambil medication semata nak tunggu earth hour,

dan thumbs up for uitm,sebab take parts dalam menjayakan earth hour ni,tepat pukul 8.30 lampu kolej di padamkan,(wing dan lampu ruang legar je) and semua penghuni kolej turut tutup suis dam bergelap,but as you already aware of,kita sekarang berada di malaysia,ada jugak 'lahabau' yang berkeras tak nak tutup lampu,yahudi sungguh,whatever,korang sikit.haha!

masa lampu di padamkan semua jadi senyap,kolej jadi sunyi,ketika itu,terbayang kalau lah bumi ni tiba tiba gelap satu hari..okay,skip! to make this day more fun,cintagila dan geng,plan nak buat kerja gila,ronda satu kolej and ketuk pintu 'lahabau' yang tak nak tutup lampu,then ramai ramai jerit "eii,tutup lampu la,earth hour! tak sayang bumi ker?!" dan ia terus berlangsung sehingga semua orang tutup lampu,dan di waktu waktu itu sempat juga merakam kan kenangan ,sila lihat lampiran di bawah,during all that time,batuk terbahak bahak tadi pun hilang,demam pun tak de,hyper semacam,

scary la pulak,

pencinta alam(kononnyer)

habis semua jerawat kelihatan,maluu..

gambar paling sempoi+hudoh yang penulis pernah letak kat blog ini,serious kene consider banyak kali,

writer's note*-happy earth day,uhuk uhuk! i think i should seriously take my medication now,and go to sleep.get well soon.*crossing fingger~

2009-03-26T20:23:00.000-07:00

writer's note*-i'm in,you?

to you.the anonymous.

2009-03-23T09:29:00.004-07:00

time:00.30 am
location:Johor Darul Takzim,Segamat,UiTM,Kolej Nilam.
weather: summer. it's kinda warm here,and kinda get sweaty,even in your sleep,how's that?

to you,the anonymous.

remember i said once,i hate to live in with a bunch of girls under the same roof.indeed yes.
and i am strong on that oppinion ever since.mark my word.
i hate to just curse in this kindly 'sacred' place of mine to express what i feel,but i'm so sorry,just can't help it.

aku sumpah kau jadi katak!*ting. don't worry,never work,all the time.

kalau la hidup ni semudah sumpah menyumpah seranah semua yang kita benci.tapi hidup bukan macam tu. in fact,sumpah seranah berbakul bakul pun,bukan menjadi pun.

dear m.anonymous,

all these days,aku cuba untuk jadi positif dengan kau,tapi tak tau kenapa dan mengapa,susah sangat.kadang kadang aku rasa mungkin kita tak patut berhubungan lagi,tapi jauh manapun aku lari,bayang kau tetap ada dengan aku,bayang aku ada dengan kau,mungkin kau juga telah 'cast a spell' ke atas aku,i don't know,

friends forever.

tak tahu if that's the most suitable phrase untuk aku dan engkau.
kalau kita baik,aku rasa macam nak kawan seribu tahun lagi dengan kau.
tapi kalau kita gaduh,rasa macam ini hari terakhir kita akan jumpa lagi.
and please.. sumpah aku tak jealous dengan apa yang kau ada,
and please..sumpah aku tak kisah dengan siapa kau berada,
and please.. sumpah aku tak pernah berdendam dengan sesiapa,
macam aku kata tadi,ini cuma expresi aku sahaja.titik.

sama tapi tak serupa
itu lebih tepat untuk kita.
kau setuju?

apapun juga,
merentasi itu semua,
kalau nanti kita berpisah arah,
aku akan sentiasa ingat
kita,pernah di suatu ruang masa,
ada.

writer's note*-dan kepada si anonymous Kuala Lumpur,arrived on cintagilaku.blogspot.com,di live feed traffic di tepi ini blog,siapa kamu?anonymous juga?

dear god by avenged sevenfold

2009-03-22T07:31:00.001-07:00

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love

Purpose hard to find

While I recall all the words you spoke to me

Can't help but wish that I was there

Back where I'd love to be,

oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you

Is to hold her when I'm not around

When I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed'

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again,

oh no

Once again..

There's nothing here for me on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps

And all the shops are closed

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through,

oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

To hold her when I'm not around,

When I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed'

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again...

Some search, never finding a way

Before long, they waste away

I found you, something told me to stay

I gave in, to selfish ways

And how I miss someone to hold

When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love

Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

To hold her when I'm not around,

When I'm much too far away

We all need the person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed'

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no..

Once again

Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold

menantu oh menantu.

2009-03-16T20:30:00.001-07:00

time:7.40pm

location: kolej nilam uitm johor,

weather:slightly off temperature,sekejap panas sekejap sejuk

okay:here's two things,which one first?

okay:first one.

sila rujuk gambar di bawah.

kepada sesiapa yang pernah by chance lalu atau singgah ke rumah nenda saya,dan sekaligus makan mee udang di Taiping,kini rumah itu tiada lagi,agak menyedihkan sebab hanya rumah itu lah satu satunya kenangan kami dengan arwah tok(*panggilan utara,papa orang utara),rumah tu sahajalah tempat mengabadikan moment kami,waktu waktu hari raya,kenduri kendara,semuanya berlaku ada hikmah..

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

okay:now the second one,slightly happier than the first one,

KENDURI SAMBUT MENANTU!!

sehari sebelum kenduri~khemah mula dipasang,sebab rumah kami corner lot so we have the advantages of bigger space,and banyak khemah boleh muat.gambar ni pandangan dari sudut hadapan.

ini adalah pandangan di dalam khemah

my nephew and his mom,penat nak kejar budak ni lari..phew!

sign board yang perlu di pasang,untuk memudahkan jemputan,haha agak kelakar juga,sabab kenduri di adakan awal mula cuti persekolahan jadi,setiap tiang ada lebih kurang 4- 5 sign ,kene berebut.tak ada sistem queue ke?

goddie bag untuk di edarkan kepada para jemputan

mak cik mak cik yang membuat bunga telur,sambil buat bunga sambil bergossip,haha

nak makan ke tak nak ni?

ini pelamin,cantik tak?

berarak,take note,pengantin lewat 10 minutes from jadual okeh!

pengantin melihat orang bersilat

silat warisan melayu

gambar hantaran ni sebenarnya tiada kena mengena pun,tapi saja je,cantik..

ni je yang masih available,yang lain semua dah berpunya,hehe

tepung tawar pengantin.

kawan kawan yang sempat hadhir,thanks guys!

writer's note-sorry kali ini tiada entry panjang seperti selalu,agak sibuk buat masa ini,and recently 'cintagila journal of a single girl' menerima visitor yang amat best dan dari kalangan popular blogger,thanks guys! flattered actually.

kehidupan complicated tapi signifikan

2009-03-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

time : 11.15pm
location : kolej nilam uitm johor.
weather: sedang sedang.

setiap kali log masuk ke laman blog ini,pasti tak ketinggalan untuk singgah sebentar atau bak kata mat salih,take a glimpse?haha..siapa lagi kalau bukan 'kehidupan ringkas tapi signifikan' yang ditulis oleh pengarah uitm johor, prof.mohd.kamil ibrahim,setiap kali melangkah masuk ke 'dashboard' dan melihat recent entry,'kehidupan ringkas tapi signifikan' ini selalu sahaja mencuri pandangan,setiap kali,pasti ada saja perkara yang ingin beliau utarakan,walaupun cuma rutin harian,sampailah ke entry berat,cara garapan penulisan beliau tetap simple,molek benar dengan tajuk 'kehidupan ringkas tapi signifikan'.

melihat beliau secara peribadi,orangnya adalah simple, menyelami pemikiran beliau melalui tulisan tulisannya,juga simple,tapi penuh isi..

mecuba untuk 'meniru' teori beliau dalam menjalani kehidupan sehari hari,ternyata.bukan mudah. in my side,kehidupan bukan lagi ringkas tapi signifikan,tetapi lebih kepada 'kehidupan complicated tapi signifikan'..

mungkin kerana kami berdiri dari dua sudut berbeza,grass may always been greener on the other side,i wish..

speaking as a student living in high density hectic life ,and also watching life from the eye of someone who has gone so far in life,like him,i think i've got long way to go,and honestly i'm incredibly jealous of way he took control of life,everything seems so perfect for him until sometimes i ought to think,maybe he's just perfect.

pernah dengar ini?
hidup ini mudah.
siapa pun yang memulakan pepatah ni,patut revised kembali,untuk buat edisi terbaru,
atau mungkin juga saya lah orangnya yang patut berguru dengan prof.mohd kamil how to lead life in more easier way,kemudian buat buku macam prof,tajuknya '100 way to live life.no fuss',tajuk yang bagus,hehe..but i mean setiap hari dari hari kita di lahirkan sehinggalah hari kematian tiba,hidup tak pernah sunyi dari perkara perkara yang pasti membuatkan kehidupan menjadi complicated, setiap hari,setiap saat,setiap minit,ada sahaja perkara yang dengki melihat kita tenang,bersenang lenang,paling tidak pasti sahaja akan ada perkara yang membuatkan otak ini sesak,berfikir..

allah menjadikan kita makhluk paling hebat daripada semua ciptaannya,mungkin sebab itu setiap saat otak kita tak pernah berhenti,sebab kalau ia berhenti,lama lama ia akan tumpul,bila lama sangat tumpul maknanya ia tak berfungsi,bila ia tak berfungsi, maka ia mati.mungkin terusan berfikir lebih baik daripada berhenti berfikir,

kehidupan ringkas tapi signifikan vs kehidupan complicated tapi signifikan

hidup ringkas,sederhana tapi bermakna,lebih baik dari hidup mengejar dunia tapi kosong,
tetapi di sebelah sudut cermin itu,kadangkala kehidupan terpaksa menjadi complicated,hidup dengan pelbagai cabaran dan tetap di akhirnya mempunyai makna dan tidak sunyi,sebab setiap cabaran itu yang lebih mewarnakan hidup dari jadi kanvas kosong.jadi,walaupun kehidupan saya tidak seperti prof mohd.kamil ibrahim yang ringkas tapi signifikan,kehidupan yang saya jalani adalah kehidupan walaupun complicated tapi juga signifikan.

writer's note*-entry ini bukan nak 'mengipas' pengarah ek,cuma review blog favourite je,hehe
credit to 'kehidupan ringkas tapi signifikan',sila lawati,ada tertera di blogroll di tepi blog ini tq-

it's a timeless love..

2009-03-11T19:35:00.000-07:00

Baby come close let me tell you this

In a whisper my heart says you know it too

Baby we both share a secret wish

And you're feeling my love reaching out to you

Timeless

Don’t let it end (no)

Now that you’re right here in my arms where you should stay

Hold tight baby

Timeless

Don’t let it fade out of sight

Just let the moments sweep us both away

Lifting us to where

We both agree

This is timeless

love..

I see it all baby in your eyes

When you look at me I know I feel it too (yes I do)

So let's sail away and be forever baby

Where the crystal ocean melts into the sky

We shouldn’t let the moment pass

Making me shiver let’s make it last

Why should we lose it don’t ever let me go

Timeless

Don’t let it fade out of sight

Just let the moments sweep us both away

Lifting us to where

We both agree

This is timeless
This is timeless
Baby its timeless

Oh baby its timeless

Timeless

Don’t let it fade out of sight

Just let the moments sweep us both away

Lifting us to where

We both agree

This is timeless

This is timeless
Love

Timeless [Reprise] - Kelly Clarkson feat. Justin Guarini

korean version*

Timeless(feat.Xiah) - KOREAN Ver - ZhangLiYin feat Xiah Junsu

writer's note*-thousand of appologies,lagu tak penuh,so..cari sendiri la ek,hehe:p segala kesulitan amat di kesali.

siapa kata menjadi penghuni kolej kediaman mudah?

2009-03-10T16:57:00.000-07:00

time:8.00 am
location: kolej nilam uitm segamat johor
weather: culture shock body tempreture yang turun dan naik sebab buat bende impossible pagi pagi! ergh!

salam sejahtera.dan selamat pagi.

shut up.soalan cliche' (hidup ni memang cliche' pun):
"apa ke jadahnya penulis blog ni bangun pagi pagi ni?buang tebiat ker?"

jawapannya,YES! saya memang buang tebiat,memang berhangen satu badan ni! hati panaaaasss je..kan...'pakkal' je bak kata orang johor ,(semua ni liz yang ajar eh) iman ni kuat lagi,kalau tidak,mungkin akan berlaku 'riot' berdarah kat kolej nilam ni,

tak tau nak cakap apa,adakah salah polisi UiTM itu sendiri atau sebenarnya orang orang pentadbiran mereka sahaja yang mengada ngada,lebih sudu dari kuah,macam kaduk naik junjung pun ada jugak,sementara entri ini ditulis,hati ni tak mampu di tahan,dari rasa marah yang amat sangat,okay just imagine that you're in my shoes,
di waktu waktu semua student sedang bersengkang mata sebab nak study untuk test ni,itu tak termasuk lah dengan assignment yang menimbun lagi,tiba tiba je..ada program larian bersama pengarah uitm kampus johor di masjid as syakirin,boleh tak macamtu?pagi lagi..dan untuk yang classnya hanya akan bermula jam 8 pagi,rasa rasanya bagaimana mereka dapat by chance menghadirkan diri dengan jayanya ke program tersebut,mungkin mereka salah percaturan atau saya ulangi,orang bawahan yang 'macam kaduk naik junjung',

mungkin juga kerana salah percaturan yang telah berlaku tadi,dan bimbang sambutan yang di terima,maka 'kaduk kaduk naik junjung' ini,menggunakan cara 'paksarela',teorinya mudah sahaja 'tak nak pergi?semester hadapan,duduk luar!',

kita rakyat malaysia memang begini.jangan tanya mengapa rakyat kita bermentaliti kelas ke tiga,lihatlah orang yang di atas dahulu sebelum melihat apa yang terjadi di bawah.malaysia boleh.yes mam!

entry ini bukan marah.entry ini bukan kritikan menghala tanpa tujuan.entry ini adalah kritikan jujur.

jadi siapa yang kata 'alah duduk kolej,senang senang je pun nak bising ke?' think again.

writer's note*-angguk angguk geleng geleng,ikut telunjuk.lagu tema yang tepat untuk hari ini.

glossari-riot=tunjuk perasaan
-pakkal=nasib baik je..bagi orang johor.

he's a married man by now.

2009-03-09T00:50:00.000-07:00

masa: 8.32 pm

lokasi: bilik 145 UiTM Segamat Johor.

cuaca: sejuk. it's winter here in segamat,tu sebab la sejuk,haha tak macam k.l,summer all year long,

saya dah ada kakak sekarang! yeay!

Pulau Pinang-sabtu lepas bertempat di Masjid Nurul Iman Nibong Tebal,Pulau Pinang, majlis pernikahan di antara Mohd. Irwan Nizam Khorizan& Fazilah Kamis telah selamat di langsungkan dengan meriahnya,di hadiri saudara dan teman teman terdekat,majlis perkahwinan ini telah berjaya menepati temanya,meriah dalam kesyukuran.Irwan yang sempat ditemuramah sejurus selepas majlis berkata beliau amat bersyukur segala berjalan lancar dan tiada sebarang kesulitan di hadapi sepanjang majlis berlangsung,adik perempuan beliau pula apabila di temuramah oleh wartawan berkata,"keluarga kami telah bertambah hari ini,dan kami amat mengalu alukan kehadiran beliau dalam keluarga kami".

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ikan di laut asam di darat,

dalam periuk bertemu juga,

walaupun lelah bertandang belum sudah,tangan ni dah tak sabar nak menulis apa yang terjadi disini,sebab ini pengalaman pertama family ni terima menantu,perempuan pulak tu,anak teruna satu satunya lagi,mana kan sampai nak pengsan mama di buatnya, pantang tersalah sikit, maka nanti terdengarlah 'panggilan suara merdu' berkumandang seluruh rumah,haha..memang lucu.

apapun,semuanya baik,baik sekali.keluarga besan yang ramah dan baik hati,kakak ipar yang manis menawan,apa lagi yang boleh di kata?

soalan cliche' yang selalu di tanya sepanjang dua hari lepas:

"apa perasaan adik pengantin,abang awak nak kahwin ni?"

"tak sedih ke?abang awak nak kahwin"
"apa perasaan nak dapat kakak ipar ni?"

dan..dan..dan..soalan yang paling 'MELODI' sekali pun tak ketinggalan,

"ADIK PENGANTIN BILA PULAK?"

wah..tett! soalan tu..senyum kambing dan merah muka bila mendengarnya,

okay,atas soalan soalan cliche' itu,jawapannya begini:

"apa perasaan adik abang awak nak kahwin ni?"

jawapan: jawapannya saya amat gembira bila abang saya tersenyum bangga duduk di atas pelamin dengan orang yang dia sangat cintai,

"tak sedih ke?abang awak nak kahwin?"

jawapan:kenapa mesti sedih pada hari yang semua orang supposed to be happy,it's the happiest moment in life,so why waste the tear,simpan je untuk masa masa sedih nanti,but currently,i'm the happiest person in the world,saya tak rasa sedih pun,kerana melepaskan abang saya untuk orang lain,sebab saya tahu saya dah lepaskan dia dengan 'the right one'.

"apa perasaan adik dapat kakak ipar ni?"

jawapan: saya sangat gumbira sebab all this while,god knows how much i would trade my

expensive gadgets for a sister.so now that my wish granted,for sure! i am happy.plus they say my sister in law and me are look a like.hehe

dan..dan..dan..soalan paling 'MELODI' tadi juga mesti ada jawapan kan..

jawapannya berbunyi begini:

5 tahun lagi! tunggu ally iskandar masuk meminang,nanti ct kahwin eh mak long!

*added notes,tuan punya blog ini masih belum berpunya,so vacancy open,sila isi borang J,bla..bla..bla..haha tak lah,it was belong to someone before,but he stole my heart and never return it back,jawapan standard: nak buat macamana..tak ada jodoh..

okay enough! naaah.,.just old memory yang boleh masuk arkib dah pun yang tu lain entry kita cerita ok?,hehe

where are we just now?oo okay,haa tu la,di antara interesting things happen mase wedding tu,oo ade lagi satu,masa ni lepas akad nikah..and patutnya pengantin lelaki kene pergi rumah bertandang untuk salin baju,rombongan pun menunggu la di masjid,nak dekat satu jam ni tunggu pengantin tak sampai lagi,tiba tiba mak andam call cakap pengantin tak sampai lagi,macamana agaknya mama tak panic kan,call call tak dapat,call pengapit pun tak dapat,rupanya pengantin stuck dalam traffic jam,hesh..

sedara mara yang ramai

mee udang taiping! the best!

-pengantin makan macam tak makan setahun

-fruit carving ni cantik!

-itu abang saya dan kakak baru..

lagi satu,rombongan pengantin lelaki punyalah sampai awal,sampai masjid pun tak bukak pagar lagi,ada kah si pengantin lelaki pula yang turun dan buka gate masjid tu,tak sabar sungguh..haha

tapi..apa apa pun,semuanya tetap menarik dan meriah! next week kenduri sambut menantu pulak,datang ya!

okay then,i guess that's all for now,
see you next 5 years,for the next wedding,adik pengantin yang tulis blog ni pulak ok?hehe
sekian..saya Siti Shahidatul Akmal melaporkan untuk tv3.

writer's note*-adakah,pengantin berdua duduk di meja makan beradab tapi makan macam hari biasa?adakah patut..dan adakah patut rombongan pengantin,termasuklah adik pengantin dengan cousin cousin nya menghabiskan ayam golek di meja tersebut dan main kepak je guna tangan?adakah patut.?

emergency!

2009-03-04T16:49:00.000-08:00

time:8.51 in the morning.
location:kolej Nilam Uitm Segamat.
weather: sejuk,kaki kejang.auwch!

emergency! emergency!

kaki masih rasa kejang lagi.tangan pun masih rasa lenguh lagi.berat juga angkat org ni rupanya,pheww!
semalam room mate liz tiba tiba passed out,sampai sampai je depan pintu bilik,ting!* black out,
that is when the emergency call arrived,dah la tu tengah malam tadi dia nak pengsan pun,agak agak kalau tunggu sampai esok pagi,pun okay. but dia pengsan jugak.

waktu kejadian tu berlaku,i'm in my room waiting for liz(* room mate orang pengsan) untuk 'ngeteh' (which is midnight supper in javanese,please don't ask,i got my jawa from my mom*),dalam hati kata "mana la dak liz ni,kata nak ngeteh,dah pukul berapa dah ni?" sebab menunggu lama sangat,tanpa segan silu,aku pun menjerit tengah wing,"LIZZZZZZ!!!",mungkin tak berapa bijak untuk menjerit sebegitu rupa,tapi bukak tingkap dan ketuk botol ala filim bujang lapuk,itu adalah mustahil.tiba tiba another roomate dia keluar dan jerit balik kat aku,"KAK LIZ PEGI CARI DOKTOR,ADIK BILIK DIE PENGSAN!!"

dipendek kan cerita malam tu memang aku buat kerja gila,bayangkan,tengah tengah malam tu boleh berjogging pergi block U,semata nak mendapatkan kereta nak bawak orang pengsan ke hospital,memang kerja gila,mungkin lebih kepada kerja amal,walaupun itu roomate liz je,but i think be there for her,will help a lot.friends should stick together.school of thought.

okay,dipendekkan cerita lagi,orang pengsan pun terus di kejarkan ke hospital,& mendapat rawatan sewajarnya.sebab dia pengsan.stress.stress sebab apa?adalah.. seingat aku,pergi ke PENAWAR(free clinic uitm) ni kali kedua sepanjang 5 semester di sini,masa pendaftaran & yang ni lah..yang ni..

tapi moral of the story di sini adalah..jangan pengsan! okay no.what i try to tell is,being there for someone is important,tak kira la,walaupun kadang kadang ia terasa sulit,but it's worth what you get.for me.i get the chance to have view of 'uitm selepas midnight' ,haha & buat pahala juga..

5 semester. i've been there,done that.

writer's note*-ada ka masa kena saman pertama kalinya 3 minggu lepas,pak cik tu kata "okay la dik,at least kamu tau di mana pejabat keselamatan sebelum grad nanti" duh.. apa apa je la pak cik..

one more thing,hehe perasan tak penulis suka guna dialog style sekarang? apa apa je la..

redha je la..

2009-03-02T08:31:00.000-08:00

time:2.07pm
location: kolej Nilam UiTM Segamat,Johor.
weather: malam yang tenang & senyap sunyi.everybody's sleeping soundly.

jam dinding dekat dengan pintu menunjukkan waktu dah pun beranjak ke pukul 2.10 minit pagi.waktu entri ni ditulis,semua orang dalam bilik ni dah tidur..in fact satu kolej nilam ni dah tidur..maybe la..sebab ramai juga penghidap insomnia duduk kat kolej ni,kadang kadang boleh ter' confuse sebentar,ni kolej ke wad psikatri ,but still tak dengar apa apa bunyi pun,so i assume they're all sudah pun tidoq bedengkoq(* slang utara)

aku memang tak boleh tidur.hati panas.jiwa kacau bak kata orang sekarang ni?
ntah la.really can't close my eyes,even for a bit,somethings 'stuck' in my brain and i need to get it out,still..not everything is told by words aren't they?whatever.

dalam hati ni rasa panas sangat,kepala pun,macam ram computer yang di buka 24 jam tanpa henti sebab masih bekerja walaupun by this hour they're supposed to be shutt off.

bak kata teman sebilik:ct, dalam dunia ni memang hari hari akan dan mesti ada sahaja masalah problem(perkataan seerti),kadang kadang rasa sensitif,emotional,plus,kaum kami memang tidak boleh lari daripada..KECIL HATI,ditulis dalam tulisan besar ok.(terutama pada hari tertentu setiap bulan)

ct kata: "kecil hati tu memang la,tapi nak buat macamana..redha je laa.."

that lady memang positive thinker betul,salute habis! wonder if i could be like her someday.
i will.

jadi nak tak nak..redha je la..if i don't get what i want,at least this way i won't go to hell..kan?

writer's note*-redha je laa..redah je laa..tak sama ek?

cobaan pertama & kedua ; before & after.

2009-02-28T20:49:00.001-08:00

*entri bergambar

cobaan pertama ini adalah untuk cover magazine project,yang telah pun diberikan oleh encik 'pensarah' yang suka suruh semua pelajar beliau 'buat sendiri' walaupun dengan keberadaan beliau di dalam class,so nak tak nak try je la buat sendiri,so..okay ke tak?ergh maluuuunye promod wajah sendiri jadi cover! agak agak kalau magazine ini betul betul berada di pasaran maukah anda membelinya? haha okay..no need to answer.i knew it! darn!

this is the first try.nampak tak ejaan malacca tu salah?hehe

second try~

so,mana lagi cantik eh?

i can hear and see the 'dead'!

2009-02-28T03:07:00.000-08:00

time: 7:20pm
location: kolej Nilam UiTM Johor,

weather: rainy day all week,(* sambil bacaan ayat suci berkumandang di masjid.)

i can see and hear the 'dead'..

mati.
takut?
orang mati.

hati mati?

sekarang mana yang lebih menakutkan?

entri ini ditulis bukanlah untuk menakutkan atau ceramah percuma di hari sabtu,tapi hanya sekadar peringatan..renung renungkan..selamat beramal!(macam kenal,:p)

*some pictures may contain aksi aksi menakutkan,kalau lemah semangat,JANGAN TENGOK.

sebab entri ini ditulis beserta gambar,so gunakan kreativiti untuk mengelak risiko sleeptalking,sleepwalking..:p harap maklum

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okay okay,proceed.satu soalan paling common ingin di ajukan pada anda.apa reaksi anda melihat mayat?takut?lemah semangat,seperti soalannya juga,jawapannya juga cliche',ramai di antara kita yang tak berapa 'involved' bila hal hal yang berkait dengan mati. mungkin kita takut..atau sering di momok momok kan oleh gambaran yang menakutkan di media,oleh idea idea pembikin filim,dan juga kadang kadang sesetengahnya adalah kepercayaan karut dan mitos masyarakat nusantara itu sendiri,jujur,me myself juga kadang kadang bukannya berani sangat pun,dan selalu balik bila jenazah sudah di kebumikan,but i always wonder how is it like menguruskan jenazah..myself..

granted.akhirnya berpeluang juga nak lihat dengan mata kepala sendiri macamana seseorang jenazah yang di uruskan depan mata,'live telecast' hamik kau,padan muka aku,but i'm blessed,choosen from thousand people dalam uitm segamat ni,mungkin sebab bilik yang sangat dekat dengan masjid tapi 'jarang jarang'(p.ramlee's style) turun,mungkin,'undangan' ini adalah lesson terbaik buat orang orang macam aku dan sewaktu dengannya..

mati adalah pasti.cuma bila dan bagaimana...

mati.dan meninggalkan dunia,adalah perkara terakhir dan destinasi terakhir sebelum berpindah ke alam baqa'..segala amalan baik & ibadah yang menjadi pengikut setia,bukan kawan baik,ataupun pacar yang 'keren',itu suma ditinggalkan..sedih kan..

itu hal orang yang dah pergi...yang nak menguruskan orang yang dah pergi pun satu permasaalahan juga,kalau semua orang takut nak dekat dengan jenazah,lemah semangat,agak agak siapa yang nak uruskan 'mereka' dengan cara yang betul..alasan common,macam soalan tadi juga,tak tahu,kurang ilmu,tak pernah buat,tapi tak pernah peduli untuk belajar,

harapkan bilal bilal kampung,orang masjid yang uzur dan tua tu,bila bila masa sahaja tuhan boley jemput diorang pulang,jadi siapa yang nak teruskan tradisi dan membawa ilmu yang di pelopori orang orang dari bidang ni?mungkin juga kerana ramai orang intelek di kalangan kita dan tak sempat untuk belajar,sehingga akhirnya nanti sebuah consultant berbayar di wujudkan dengan menawarkan servis 'khidmat urus jenazah' mungkin?

terlepas pandang,menyebabkan ramai diantara kita dah tak ingat,kita pasti mati suatu hari,politikus rasuah,mungkinkah mereka tak ingat mati?pegawai pecah amanah,mungkinkah mereka juga tak ingat mati?clubbing habis habisan, beronggeng sakan di kelab kelab dangdut..mana pun juga,tak ingat mati juga mungkin?

mungkin tulisan ini kedengaran bernada marah,tapi itulah realiti.face it.

to me,berpeluang menguruskan jenazah lebih mengingatkan diri sendiri kepada mati,walaupun not in hand experience,melihat pun dah cukup menginsafkan(& kepada yang volunteer jadi jenazah juga)..anda.nak cuba?

*writer's note-life is precious.walaupun sekejap.jangan semakkan ia dengan perkara bodoh dan hal hal yang remeh temeh.bigger vision need to be achieved.*long sigh..

added notes* writer of this blog would like to appologized for all typo error and incompleteness of the sentence.sorry for your inconvenience.

hidden jealousy: a self satisfaction service.

2009-02-24T22:04:00.000-08:00

time:2.09pm
location:as always,my lovely little tiny room uitm segar'amat Johor,
weather:too hot,i doubt there will be a rainy night tonight.

it's been a very long time since I've wrote anything here,other than just few of posted entri bergambar,some songs & movie I've watched & listened to fulfill my so called past time,haha do ask my roomies as i always look relax and might just have a lot of past time to fill on,:p okay! skip that! next,urm..i actually do have lots in mind to write on,but thanks to my fondly very 'useful & fast' connection to the Cyber space,i just have to let them slip away..! okay skip that too!

so now that my fondly very 'useful &fast' connection to the cyber space has just get back to normal i, i got the chance to at least save this one matter & wrote it here.
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Hidden jealousy & self satisfaction.

jealousy.i can see it in your eyes,deep in that tiny black eyes..even if you yourself don't want to admit it,its just there.i also could sense the jealousy feeling in me. i think it's normal to 'feel' jealous about something, when jealousy is caused y a simple reason or made us compete harder to achieve somehing,we're a human being after all,but what is abnormal is when the jealousy is hidden under that wall you yourself built around you,can't see it,can't feel it,but somehow it could be sensed,

inferior. the feeling when we feel down or just slightly challenged no matter by whom or for what reasons it stands,or that extra factor that maybe someone else have but unfortunately we don't.

self satisfaction.feeling inferior,we try to protect ourselves,from feeling self conscious and thinking ourselves as a loser,we try to deny the fact & lastly we'll criticize that subject matter of inferiority so that instead of us feeling down,let them feel the pain vice versa. simple don't you think? you might have done that unconciously you know..

they may look differ,but brings into one similiarity that is results achieved.
trying to deny the fact forever won't do us any good,self satisfaction,hidden jealousy,inferiority, just turning us into some hypocryte ugly creatures that look beautiful in the mirror. what's inside shows outside,so wonder why you don't have people who love you,honestly?

writers note:* don't dare pointing your finger calling anonymous someone plastic,bitch or hore,you might be one too.

love or violance:take your pick.

2009-02-22T20:59:00.000-08:00

entri bergambar*

taken from http://www.googleimages.com/

*writers note: love may sometimes be blind,but they also tend to make us dumb too
it's just a single girl oppinion,my said.yours?

walimatulurus: a wedding invitation

2009-02-10T18:28:00.000-08:00

macam semalam rasanya kene tumbuk dengan you,bergusti dengan you,gaduh gaduh..tarik rambut..tapi tak sangka,akhirnya,at last,dah nak jadi suami orang dah ,macam baru semalam..

but anyhow i so happy for you,proud having you in my house for 21 years,walaupun pun of course u'll move to your own house later,and way long after this,until we get old and dry,haha. to the handsome bride gonna be: 'dah nak kawin dah kau! lepas ni aman sikit hidup,dah tak ada orang boleh buli buli lagi! happily ever after.." haha

writing this with all the grace of being your beautiful sister my handsome bride gonna be brother,all i wish is nothing but your happiness, selamat melayari new chapter in your life..may you'll be the most cool father in the world,blessed with a bunch of cute children that looks like their 'mak su',of course! selamat pengantin baru..

writers note: *ikan di laut asam di darat..dalam periuk,bertemu jua,kalau dah jodoh..haiii..

the babysitters.

2009-02-03T16:11:00.000-08:00

*entri review filim.

rating: 4 /5
duration:2 hours/160 minutes
review:at a first glance i'd never thought i'll give it a second thought on watching it again,but the storyline,i must say it's strong, and very honest,in an extreme way,(18 above scene excluded,duh..) but it's the message conveyed through that attracted me,although it might look like some any junkies movie but it is designed for the viewer to think.

interesting quotes:
"we all lead a secret life..even if only in our head,i guess the real question:why? isn't there a better way to pinch myself and stay awake? i ask no forgiveness of what i've done,it's my sin to live with, but it's just a moment of unique details in a simple life.."

saya anak MALAYSIA.(perkhabaran dari BANDUNG) * repackage and re-edited*

2009-01-27T23:58:00.000-08:00

time:4.01 pm
location: old town kopitiam,Kelana Jaya
weather: it's a sunny day here.(*chinese song background included)
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selamat sore. aku membawa perkhabaran dari seberang.mau dengar nggak?

lama dong nggak menulis di sini,journal ku kelihatan kosong sekali,mungkin empat hari di negara seberang,telah menebalkan lidahku lantas terus bicara seperti mereka juga,mungkin butuh waktu kok mau nukar kembali ke accent malaysia,haha canda,

tetapi jujur aku katakan,jurus turun dari pesawat aja,menghirup udara Kuala Lumpur yang kurindui..aku jadi bangga,hidup,lahir,dan mungkin nanti mati di tanah airku sendiri, kamu bisa aja bilang,aku ini puitis atau ini cuman omongan kosong,terserah,tapi aku sememangnya bangga jadi anak MALAYSIA. kamu juga akan merasa begitu nanti pabila kamu sudah melebarkan sayapmu keluar dari tempurung yang ada.

"hujan emas di negara orang..
hujan batu ni negara sendiri..
lebih baik di negara sendiri"

bisa aku katakan republik Indonesia itu sekali imbas tidak banyak bedanya,berada di garisan yang sama,khatulistiwa,cuacanya juga entar bagai sama,bangsanya juga sama,rumpun melayu..
tetapi bila di lihat pandangan kedua dengan lebih halus..ianya hanyalah seperti malaysia 10 tahun belakangan, dengan pelbagai masalah di sini sana,isu-isu rakyat yang belum terselesaikan,
dan pemikiran mereka jauh ketinggalan. malaysia lebih baik.

jika di sini, kita bisa saja selalu merungut tentang kesesakan di sana sini,tetapi melihat keksesakan di seberang,bisa aku bilang yang di sana itu macetnya lebih teruk,dan percayalah,kamu akan lebih rela bersesak sesak di malaysia daripada terperangkap dalam kemacettan di sana,aku nggak bisa sertakan foto-foto yang sempat aku potretkan waktu disana,mungkin nanti akan turut ku setakan sekali fotonya agar kamu bisa merenung dan muhasabah diri..sepanjang aku disana,di jalan jalan,gang-gang,itu mereka penuh dengan peminta sedekah,orang yang tidur di jalanan,dua kali lipat jumlahnya dari yang kita biasa aja lihat di malaysia.anak anak yang terbiar..yang umur sebegitu seharusnya pergi ke sekolah atau anak mudanya yang harus ke s.m.a,hanya megendong gitar tuanya dan menyanyi ditengah jalan kota untuk mendapatkan wang,meneruskan kehidupan,turun sahaja di tempat tarikan pelancong,terus pantas akan di keroyokin penjual-penjual,yang terus memaksa minta barang jualannya di beli,terus melihat rumah rumah rakyat kelas bawahan di pinggir kota jakarta itu,sangat menyedihkan. melihat menerusi mata hati ini,aku melihat pembahagian ekonomi yang tidak saksama,yang miskin terus miskin dan yang kaya terus-terusan korek wang negara,dan mebiarkan yang miskin mati terhennyak di bawah.malaysia lebih baik bukan?

namun disebalik semua itu,aku akui sudut positifnya juga ada,mereka juga punya tempat-tempat yang sangat indah,menakjubkan dan tidak bisa sama dengan apa yang ada di malaysia,aku juga sempat lewat kawah ratu di tangkuban parahu,di bandung,iaitu kawah gunung berapi yang besar,(nanti aku sertakan fotonya ya) dan sempat merasa kehangatan gigitan air di hotspring,juga beli belah(kegemaranku),disitu kemahiran tawar menawar hargaku benar benar teruji,namun aku menang,hehe harganya juga entar murah murah kok, harus juga aku puji sikap jatidiri yang ada dalam bangsa indonesia itu sendiri,mereka amat tidak mudah terpengaruh dengan pojokan orang asing,bangsa indonesia itu amat bangga dengan budayanya, bahasanya,sehingga amat sukar untuk melihat pengaruh budaya luar,mereka itu amat bersemangat dalam segala hal,dan berusaha apa aja demi mencapai matlamat,nggak manja,berdikari dan mandiri,

disana juga aku banyak sekali melihat kesenian yang ada di merata daerah atau provinsinya,arca arca patung yang begitu simbolik,arca pemimpin, setiap satunya punyai mesej disebalik pembuatannya,setiap satunya amat melambangkan apa yang ada oleh merek,sangat indonesia.sngat authentic. haha agak lucu juga,makanannya tidak aku nikmati dengan penuh hati,mungkin citarasanya beda beda,atau mungkin saja makanan di sini jauh lebih sedap dari makanan mereka,jadi aku bisa bayangkan berada di london dan amat menginginkan sambal belacan,hehe..tapi gimanupun,merasa kepelbagaian makanannya juga udah lebih dari mencukupi,itu lebih enak buatku,merasa nasi timbel sunda,nasi padang sumatera,pecel lele jawa,gado gado,mi kocok,situ semua sangat menarik dan mengesankan,tapi tidak dapat tidak baru dua harri jejak kaki di sana,aku sudah mimpikan teh tarik yang panas,roti canai,dan semua itu sangat lucu,

jauh berjalan luas pemandangan,lain padang lain belalang, dan sambil menghirup teh tarik yang nyaman ini... ingin sekali aku katakan aku amat bangga lahir,besar dan mau mati disini,tanah airku,malaysia,tidak london atau manapun jua,aku bangga jadi anak malaysia..

sekian aja perkabaran dari bandung.dan kini aku disini,kuala lumpur..

*writers note-so proud to malaysian.from the bottom of my heart.(aa tentang accentku ini,entar esok lusa juga udah ok deh,hehe)

*glossari
macet-kesesakan jalan raya.
dua kali lipat-dua kali ganda.
s.m.a-sekolah menengah.
accent-slang atau gaya percakapan.

edited on 1st February ,1.00 a.m in the morning,uitm Segamat Johor.

ENTRI GAMBAR. hi everyone.meet me and my crazy friend.

2009-01-21T02:47:00.001-08:00

*seriously,masa ni tak ingat apa-apa=minda bawah sedar*haha

mm..tu gambar.mm..memang betul it's me and one among my billion hyperactive and crazy but affordable friends,opss! i mean adorable friend which i want to say, hee..but anyway this is supposed to be entri bergambar without any looooong description.

welcome to the club. happy becoming 30.

2009-01-20T22:18:00.000-08:00

i bought a cake for you mr.nord! haha it's okay we can wait till may to blow the candles,hehe

this a tribute to a friend of mine..and all of you that which will about to blow off that 30 candle soon..
this one is specially made for you..

happy 30th..

how's that sounds to you?frightening? or is it sounds like winning a gold medal or some fancy trophy on a wide stage?what do you think?hehe.. as i keep smiling through my writing.. i've heard so much stories,myth and the truth of getting aged,in fact i also don't know what would i feel when that day come to get me one day..long sigh*

but as a says,age is only matter of number,is not about the '3' and '0' that comes with your name,but i think it's about what you've achieved on the day you turn 30,how do you feel on the day you turn 30,and that day is a benchmark whether you are satisfied and regret on what you have and what you've lost along the way,agree with me?

we're all lucky in our own way,and first things first,turning 30 is not too bad,at least we're still breathing though,haha but..my point is..can't you see, getting older is only making you wiser,and you could just proudly hold your head up high,and say:

'i ve been there.done that',

so,why be so shy?and stop yourself from seeing the good things? why don't you just stand tall and tell them hey,i'm 30,so what?

again,once again...from me,deeply..

happy being 30!!(*party audible included) cherish this one,the time of your life!

writers note*
ever wondered why old people is called golden citizen?
i wondered if there's any value when they'd took to the gold smith?are they?*joke

being too harsh, or..too soft? i'm a confused lady standing in between.

2009-01-20T06:28:00.000-08:00

*ENTRI BERAT,ENTRI BEFIKIR.

time :10.37 pm but delayed till 1.12 am in the morning
location: depan laptop,kolej nilam wing 1c,UiTM Segamat,Johore.
weather: langit terang disinari bintang..calm and relaxing..

buat baik berpada-pada,
buat buruk jangan sekali.
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i am a confused lady standing in between,
how's that? i just don't know,sometimes being too nice with a good jolly looking face,they'll label me as unprofessional,but on the other hand,being too harsh on a matter that really need a serious consideration and 101% commitment,they'll call me a modern era dictator,so tell me how am i not supposed to be confused in such way am i?

then i started to wonder how is it feel to keep up with those good and outstanding leader,that has to satisfy everyone's need without leaving any mess,and still..look good,if i have a chance to spend a day with those leader,I'll die to ask 'how was it like for you to cater everyone's need was it the hard/brutal way? or considering every each of individuals opinion and decide which one to follow?or was it something between both of that way,the harsh or soft way?'

and this moment also encourage me to talk to my mum and dad, on method taken to raise us,both me and my brother,was it the harsh or spoilt the baby way?

and now standing on the same spot the past people stand before me,i see clearly on what i might seen differently before,the way i solve the mess,the way i act and even the way i speak,already sounded like what i hated to hear before,at some point..i think i'm just another 'them',with nothing to differentiate me at all,am i just don't know what to do and just do it their way,as it like a manual made for me,just read.and follow,or because it's just that they do the right thing,as i hate to admit it.am i?

jadi baik pun susah.
jadi jahat lagi susah.
bukan senang nak jadi baik.
bukan susah nak jadi jahat.

once again..i'm a confused lady..standing in between...

writers note: fiki-fikirkan,selamat beramal!*ting~

GENG GILA KUASA.

2009-01-18T02:45:00.000-08:00

geng ini amat merbahaya.
ganas.dan kadang- boleh membunuh.
rupa paras: tak la ganas sangat.ala-ala pelakon geng bas sekolah macamtu.
di anggotai 3 gadis,dilihat tanpa senjata.
modus operandi:paksaan.

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haha.gempak tak? cam iklan 999 camtu kan.
ok,jom baca cerita yang sebenar..

geng ini amat merbahaya: sebab duit anda boleh kopak di tangan mereka.
ganas.dan kadang-kadang boleh membunuh. : semangat 'muke tebal' dan 'main redah' mereka akan membuat kita takut nak kata tidak dan akhirnya akan membawa kepada pembelian kepada barang jualan mereka.
rupa paras: boley la..cute-cute camtu,bak kata orang,'adoo laa..' haha tapi ngan muka ala-ala cute tu la diorang gunakan untuk menjalankan operasi diorang.
modus operandi:paksaan.(sebenarnya diorang akan datang terus menyerang semua bilik-bilik di kolej dalam uitm ni,pada waktu-waktu yang anda tak jangka,dan time tu bila dah terkedu..hah nak lari mana lagi?beli laa..adoi..kesiannn..jadi orang yang membelinye adalah tergolong dalam "paksa rela" daripada "sukarela"..haha

tetapi.

baca sampai habis dulu..diorang tak la seteruk yang digambarkan,effort mereka itu yang patut di kagumi,sanggup 'kamikaze' main redah je,kulit muka tu memang tok sah nak habaq la kan, kalah kulit boya,hehe demi nak tambah pendapatan,diorang sanggup perah otak dan tenaga, buat bisnes,instead of habiskan duit mak ayah macam sesetengah student uitm ni,(penulis terkecuali eh,*buat-buat tak mengaku:p) GENG GILA KUASA ni,guna cara alternatif untuk tambah pendapatan dan korek pulak duit mereka yang korek duit mak ayah mereka. juallah dari segala benda,GENG GILA KUASA ni kreatif,ada je yang menarik minat orang untuk beli,dari segala jenis tudung,sampai ke lolipop pun boleh jadi bahan jualan. hebat tak?

sebab yang menulis entri ni pun,minat nak beli barang diorang, pernah jugak nak tiru style diorang,tetapi...hmm..panjang ceritanya,(yang tu lain kali la cerita ok?) walaupun tak reti berbisnes seperti mereka,tapi aku tolong promote bisnes korang,kire ok la tu kan?free taw,kalau masuk tv3 mau beribu korang kene ketuk,so terima kasih kepada penulis(up diri sendiri,hehe)

so,sebelum menamatkan entri GENG GILA KUASA ni,aku nk ucapkan selamat maju jaya la kepada korang okay,terus kan semangat berniaga macam rasulullah tu,aku akan menyokong korang semampu yang boleh,kalau ada 10 orang lagi student uitm macam korang,percayalah,lagi 10 tahun,apek yang jual surat khabar kat pekan segamat tu pun angkat bendera putih,hehe peace.

okay la,aku rase sampai sini je dulu,

nota penulis*~ sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit,tapi jimat cermat sebab kalau belanja suka-suka hati je,tokey balak pun jual lori,kan?hehe

glossari*~kopak=duit kering
~kamikaze=berani mati
~boya=buaya

now that's what we called a gentlemen.(cont to ceket0n's entry)

2009-01-18T01:23:00.000-08:00

time: 5.27 p.m
location: still nilam 145 uitm segamat
weather: cerah kembali setelah mendung tadi.

hey!
hehe banyak pulak la idea aku nak merepek hari ni ni kan,
well it's nothing actually,just some quick review on the movie i saw just now,
"accidently husband" by uma thurman and some guy from the ps:i love you movie tu,
it was nice though,and i'm referring to that guy charachter "sullivan",he's such a gentlemen,as i could say..it's not that he's perfectly smart24/7,standing with a bunch of flower to greet you from a very harsh day..(typicall description of a gentlemen,well everybody has different thinking) but..'sullivan' is just a simple man..but sweet though,a fireman in new york..and accidently married to this evil dr.love,emma, for a revenge to his called off weddings as a result to this dr.emma's piece of advice to his fiancee to called off the wedding,but somehow they see 'something' in each other,and..dr.emma decided for the first time to follow her intuition,to be with sullivan..

bla..bla..and the sweet stories goes,but the thing is,a 'gentlemen' is not supposed to be from what the typicall description are..it is subjective..my idea of a perfect gentleman is to be as sweet as he are without trying too hard to look perfect all the time,everybody's not perfect anyway,kan?

so,that's it,i've wrote my thinking,done.

(to see how this sullivan guy look like,follow the link,tq)
http://ceket0n.blogspot.com/

writers note*~to man,eii guys,don't try too hard to be a gentlemen alright,otherwise you'll be like auwww! x kuase mak nyah!(overly gentle) .haha.*joke.

laundry segamat style.*ENTRI TANPA TUJUAN

2009-01-17T23:38:00.000-08:00

time:3.40 p.m
location:nilam 145 uitm segamat nan indah permai
weather:cloudy

bonjour!

hoish* what a hot day!well pagi tadi la,ni dah ala-ala mendung sebab da petang kan,hari ahad macam ni kalau dapat lepak dalam bilik,baring-baring..hallamakkk..hehe tapi tu la,bangun-bangun tidoq je(slang utara) dah ternampak dah bakul kain i melambai-lambai,hah..kene basuh la tu..

well for your information,kat sini,esspecially kat segamat ni,kalau nak basuh kain,it's either you:

a)use your beautiful hands, OR
b)got to have a stackfull hand of coins,! tett!

that's my point,here,having coins is the most important things,besides study like hell,kalau back in k.l,coins tu orang buang-buang je,kat sini,syiling tu satu rahmat,biarlah nanti wallet anda akan kelihatan gemuk dan buncit dipenuhi syiling,(duit kertas kurang) tak pe,sebab ia akan menjadi sangat berguna,untuk masa-masa kecemasan seperti:

*call boyfie bila kredit habis menggunakan public phone OR

*untuk orang-orang yang 'terlebih' rajin like me,hehe yang sangat suka doing our laundry by not to over use our precious hand,hah, and just let the machine take care of the laundry kan?

haha,so that was it,laundry ala segamat lesson to be learned,for uitm segamat's students,take note,for the rest,well let's just take it as your general knowledge?haha mana la tau kan,one day you might be stuck here jugak..who knows?

my laundry is done~hey got to go! see you when i see you yaa! adioss!

*writers note* ~sediakan payung sebelum hujan~dan angkat baju juga! daa!

sekali sekala kena try use my precious hand ni don't you think?

this journal updated~at last.

2009-01-17T09:52:00.000-08:00

time:1.52 am in the morning
location:nilam 145 uitm segamat johor.
weather:cool and breezee.

olla!
yippie,to all fans of "CINTAGILA journal of a single girl"(mcm ade la pulak kan)
here i am! back!
after all those years of meditation in the cave,haha i'm back for good,
at last this blog has been updated,after giving it second thought of deleting it,(which is sad) i decided to give it a full swing,(*note: dah tukar background baru,susah tau! )with new interesting writing style add on,so just relax and enjoy the reading,:p

*writers note-usaha tangga kejayaan

so..i'll see you when i see you ya! til then! chaos!

dare to d r e a m .....

2008-08-19T10:07:00.000-07:00

yesterday.a very good friend of mine B.ask me a very simple yet though to answer question.it sounds like this "do you believed in dreams?"

hurm..on the surface i may have answered yes.i am.but on a second thought.it's more complicated than yes.something more than just it.i do admit,'believe in dreams'..like we've always heard,just go for it! follow your desire!

but having looking on it again,have you ever thinked,do you dare to dream??dreaming is very pleasing..but you know at some point.dreams are just dreams.we've got to wake up.and face the reality..it's like dreaming is a type of 'escapism' we create to run away from harsh,raw reality don't we?

and do you dare to really follow your dream like the opportunist always do and in the end drown in it?drown in your dreams..it is frustrating though,life isn't always beautiful as we've always want it to be.but like a say..life is all about taking risk,having to choose over choices,and facing the harshness of the reality.it's not about what we've gone through..but what we've learned from it..it's the journey that value the most.you know living in a 'fairytale' land is also never been exciting and boring enough?haha..

i am just being realistic.but i still think nothing is wrong about dreaming..it's nice and the most pleasing it's FREE,hehe..but what is more important than dreaming is to know when to wake up and pull your self to face the 'real world' and make the right choices not to drown in dream...

life is about taking risk,taking chances and the journey..take your pick.dreams or..?

dare to dream..x.o.x.o.

*(note-i'm waiting for my 'magical man' to appear last night as always..unfortunately he didn't,hurm..how sad..selalunyer bile sebut je die muncul..tapi mane die yer..nmpk x??)

dari a k u untuk k a m u..

2008-08-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

i just want to share with you guys about this poem i've read,actually i got it from someone from another someone in friendster,somehow i just happen to like it,and hope u'll like it too!

Mungkin Tuhan

sengaja mahukan kita bertemu dengan insan yang salah,

Sebelum menemui insan yang betul,

Walaupun akhirnya kita menemuinya,

Agar kita tahu untuk bersyukur dengan nikmat pemberiannya.

Ada hikmat disebalik pemberian-Nya,

Apabila pintu kebahagiaan tertutup,

Biasanya pintu yang tertutup itulah direnung lama,

Hinggakan tiada terlihat pintu lain yang dibukakan buat kita.

Kekasih adalah kekasih yang boleh duduk bersama di

dalam buaian,

berbuai bersama tanpa sebarang kata,

Dan kemudiannya berjalan pulang dengan satu perasaan itulah perbualan

yang paling hebat,

Benar kita tidak akan tahu apa yang telah kita punyai,

Sehinggalah kita kehilangannya,

Kita tidak tahu apa yang kita rindu,

Sehinggalah ia datang.

Jangan harapkan

cinta sebagai balasan,

Tapi nantikan ia untuk mekar,

Pastikan ia terus mekar dalam syurga hati kita,

Cinta, Kasih dan Sayang,

Cuma seminit untuk jatuh hati,

Sekadar sejam menyukainya,

Sehari untuk menyintainya,

Tapi sepanjang hayat untuk melupakannya,

Kejarlah insan yang bisa mengukir senyuman di wajah kita,

walau cuma sekuntum senyuman untuk mencerahkan hati nan suram,

kejarlah dan carilah,

Akan tiba waktunya,

sehingga kita ingin menggapainya dari mimpi,

dan memeluknya dengan sebenar,

Hanya mereka yang bijak menghargai mutiara ini,

Mampu menyentuh kebahagiaan,

Cinta, Kasih dan sayang ,

Bermula dengan senyuman,

Mekar dengan ciuman,

Dan mungkin berakhir dengan tangisan.

Hati ini akan sunyi,

Sunyi dendangan suara lagu,

Suara rengekan ,

Suara manja dari seorang insan,

Insan yang ku letakkan antara cinta, kasih dan sayang..

the credits goes to niqiez_88 and mr.azmi,nice one..

materialistic.(cont. cinta itu ANEH vol.2)

2008-08-13T04:07:00.000-07:00

cinta itu Aneh.

materialistic.mata duitan. i just got back from dinner with my friends,man and ladies. and we were talking about our friend,'k' who were reported "dangerously in love" haha.and the latest one was she recently received a sim pack, from a "mystery man"PLUS its fix line okeyh??haha jealous now?and itu tak masuk lagi dengan all the roses and bla..bla..bla..so that guy is rich huh?
and my man friend loudly said,"girls mmg camtu,materialistic.!" hah! you guys memang tak sayang mulut kan,but nahh..that's not my point though,what i'm trying to say,is we..all..is materialistic,and please,don't act like you don't,in fact being materialistic is good.we try hard to achieve for what we want.and enjoy it.being materialistic is not about running for just dollars,we want a good life.secure.

and for those who said,'money couldn't buy happiness'.you're right.at times it is.but for most of the rest,sometimes we do need that 'm' thing,

and my mum always said,"hidup tak boleh makan cinta jer."hehe..funny..

so i said we don't really need to chase after all the assets,and money..but i said we should work for a more stable life,long term planning,,

agree me or not,it's up to you..but it's just one "girl" opinion, it's not the status that matter the most..well since all the 'dato' in malaysia is already taken,i will look for the most eligible bachelor to marry me!haha i'm being 'materialistic' okay..in a good way,hehe..

material girl..
x.o.x.o